I fell out with all my school friends when I started uni; they didn't like that I was confident, happy and able to look after myself at uni - I was also the first of the group to effectively leave home and become more independant; and this made them angry. They made fun of me, because I'm religious, dyspraxic and was/am receiving mental health support.
I know I'm better off without them.. But I'm now at home from uni, for two weeks. I'm in the middle of my 2nd year, and I haven't really spoken to, or hung out with, my school friends since 2009. I've got friends at uni, but they all like drinking, and that's not really what I like. But I'm lonley. These last 2 weeks (uni hols) I have spent every day with my mum, and sister. My life consists of that, or sitting in hospitals with my mum (she's disabled), helping her with my autistic sister, or sitting talking to the GP, or in and out of hospital myself. I never do normal things - getting drunk, going in friends cars, going out til 4am, putting on make up and heels... In fact right now I'm most looking forward to seeing my GP on the 18th and telling her I've taken my anti depressents. How sad is that.
I'm anticipating a summer of nothing. I can't work as it'll affect my mum's benefits. I've got no friends to meet up with (apart from my guy mate - and neither of us can afford the bus fares to meet up with each other over summer - £10.80 for a 20 mile return) ... I literally don't know what to do. I think this is all my fault, but I feel very lost.
You hear of people going home from uni, to catch up with friends - but noone's waiting for me to come home.
In church today we were taught not to be bitter, sad or angry as God would judge us for it, but I'm finding it hard and I'm not sure what to do to make my life better. Any ideas/advice?
I'm lonley watch
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Last edited by daisydaffodil; 30-04-2011 at 14:16.
- 08-04-2011 21:36
- 08-04-2011 21:52
My solution was to buy an xbox 360. It did actually fill the void quite successfully.
I think the normal thing for the girls is the sims. You can make your own family. And then set them on fire. Golly, that's so much fun.
- 08-04-2011 21:53
Pleased to meat you lonley
- 08-04-2011 21:57
Perhaps you could get in touch with other young Christians at your local church? Does your Uni not have some sort of Christian society or group also ? I think you sound like a great person though, having your mother and disabled sister partially dependent on you at that age is a massive burden and I'm glad you seem to make them your priority. Also, not joining in drinking and typical "getting wasted" activity isn't necessarily a bad thing.Last edited by righteous; 08-04-2011 at 22:04.
(Original post by righteous)
- 28-04-2011 23:56
Perhaps you could get in touch with other young Christians at your local church? Does your Uni not have some sort of Christian society or group also ? I think you sound like a great person though, having your mother and disabled sister partially dependent on you at that age is a massive burden and I'm glad you seem to make them your priority. Also, not joining in drinking and typical "getting wasted" activity isn't necessarily a bad thing.
- 29-04-2011 00:19
- 29-04-2011 00:20
OP I feel for you. PM me if you ever need to talk. xx
- 29-04-2011 00:22
Spoiler:ShowLoneliness is an unwanted companion
A fire that never goes out
A black hole of nothingness
It is a room with no exits
no sounds,only Silence and darkness
Loneliness is like a disease
It slowly kills you in the inside
Slowly it devours you
Slowly decaying and rotting
to the core
A worn cage that enslaves you
A never ending maze
Darkness is all you see
An empty alley that leads to nowhere
Freedom seems out of reach
A tunnel that leads to oblivion
A sign saying,”Welcome to Nowhere”
Lost in a world that seems so alien
The streets in ruin and bare
Hope seems only like a folktale in this empty world
Darkness and pain is all you know
Life seems like a far away dream
Abandoned in darkness
No light to guide you
Death seems like the only solution
But you forgotten that you are already dead.Last edited by Rishz; 29-04-2011 at 00:23.