I've had an horrific week and split up with my first ever love and boyfriend of 5 years who is from London. I moved 100 miles to be down there with him and it just did not work as soon as I moved in with him. He thought the grass was greener, he wanted to 'experience' things, he was resentful of me, he never once cooked for me and did not help to clean up or tidy up, organise things with me or spend time with me. He is addicted to his laptop. In the end he let me down with a holiday and I ended up going on my own! I finally snapped and moved everything out (parents helped me too) and left him behind. I've moved back to hometown and lucky that I have a work from home job.
Only thing is, he contacted me last night to clear things up which I thought meant the flat but instead he was pouring out his guilts and annoyances that he had not treated me like a lady. Basically it was as if he was interested in me again after 5 years of being addicted to his laptop. As soon as I leave he is all over me again! Why are partners like this?
Anyway, everyone I know would go ballistic if I took him back and I would feel stupid myself too and know it's not the right thing but can't help but chat to him online. I am finding it hard to cope even though he treated me so horribly. I am so wrapped up in his family and I adore his Mum and Step Dad, losing him has also meant losing them. It's terrible.
How do I learn to move on? I deleted him from facebook too.
Would you pay less for a humanities degree?