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    (Original post by Anonymous)
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    Let it out. Let it all out.

    You've signed the contract. Done the deal. You've accepted you have an issue, now you can concentrate on fixing it.

    I could be nice and tell you that you won't gain any fat, but you will. But not as bad as you think.

    If you concentrate on gaining the first thing that will hit will be water weight. Non-permanent weight. Your cells will pick up water at an amazing speed as you pick up 4g of water per 1g of glucose added to your cells as they try to restock. You will think you are gaining at an ungodly speed but you aren't. It happens

    But the amazing thing is that at the same time you gain this water weight your muscle reinflates. I know, not scientific speak, but muscle fibre is very difficult to break down. Energy stores will fill up all of the muscley-juices. Any excess calories will go into fixing your internal organs as they need the fixing.

    Next the not so nice bit. You will gain stomach fat. This is because the fat will store close to where the energy is needed. The fat wants to insulate those damaged organs, it wants to fix those femurs, jazz the juices.

    This will carry on until you gain to a non-terminal level. It will then 'redistribute'. We burn a proportion of fat/muscle/carb at all times. Never all carbs, never all fat, etc. The fat around your stomach will be more used whilst the fat you then gain at the same time (a sort of body equilibrium) will be sorted around the rest of the body.

    You will probably carry on gaining past this point, but it is needed. You don't tell your body to stop. When it got things going you just let it go until IT says stop. Listen to your body a little more at this point.

    Your body will reach a peak point, then naturally begin to drop to a 'natural' level.


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    Personally I started at around BMI 15.9. I went through a few peaks then began gaining. I gained weight, went on a trip and lost half a stone in a week. It took me two months to get back. I gained more after. Hit a couple more peaks finally reached a BMI of 18.6 and hormone functions returned and I... ahem... became a man again. The hormone thing isn't female specific. My pooch redistributed a little later in the matter of a week, when I was ironically cooking for a competition. Inch off of the waist, two on the bum. My trousers stopped fitting because everything came back. EVERYTHING. :mmm:

    I gained to a BMI of 24.1 and since I've stopped weighing. I haven't been above a size 30 inch trouser and I still wear one of my 28's. To put that in perspective the lowest trouser size you can find in most shops is 28. I have no idea of my weight but since my trousers have begun to get looser again I'm guessing I'm in the final stage of weight recovery.

    You will get worried. You'll think your recovery has to be going wrong as it doesn't sound like ANYONE ELSE'S but seriously, it all happens.



    And my advice, if you don't want to go inpatient.

    Ask for counselling. Ask to be referred because you need to get better.

    Tell the doctor you are increasing in increments as you fear re-feeding syndrome. Show that you are serious about recovery because seriously it is recovery or death. You stop menstruating because your body doesn't even trust itself enough to hold a baby. (I could go into detail with the hormones, but seriously boring if you aren't interested in that jazz.)

    Recovery isn't 1000KCal. Or even 2000 KCal. It is 500 above the recommended maintenance for the average person.

    Your body is currently so malnourished it may actually go through refeeding. Go up from 1000 in increments of 300-400 every couple of days until you reach the goal calories.

    2500 KCal for a woman 21+
    3000 KCal for a woman 21 and under
    3000 KCal for a man 21/25+
    3500 KCal for a man under

    Don't stop until at least BMI 20.

    I know, I know, some people are naturally under BMI 20 but firstly it is statistically unlikely and secondly to be in that category a person has to be eating above the 2000 for a woman/2500 for a man and remaining at the same weight.


    That is the Antiaris recovery guide.
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    I can't cope anymore. I’m not sure if this is a trigger post. I’m not sure how to hide posts or put a warning. I hope this works.
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    I just desperately need someone to talk to. I’ve had binge eating disorder for years now and today was a really terrible binge day. My life just feels like its falling to pieces and I have no control over anything. The most important exams in my life are approaching and failing is not an option. My body is a mess. Last year in December I had lost weight and was so happy and confident and free from binging. It was the best four months of my life. Then some life got stressful and lo and behold the binging re-started. I gained twice what I lost. I feel disgusting. Every day I stuff myself with junk and feel so guilty afterwards. I don’t know how to stop. I can’t make myself sick- believe me I’ve tried. I wish I was capable. I can’t restrict very well- no willpower. I feel like a useless individual. I can’t go to my doctor as I honestly haven’t got the time for seeing any specialists. My doctor won’t take me seriously (I've been in the past) and I have these exams that I must revise for. I don’t know what I’m doing with my life. I can’t envisage the rest of the week let alone month. I don’t know who I am anymore.
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    Thank you so much for your responses, i never expected anyone to read that rubbish never mind spend time to respond. After being weighed again to see that i had lost more weight at the doctors she has referred me to a dietician. she wanted to refer me to a place called camhs however i told her that i am not doing anything intentionally and eat normally, proving this with my food diary.. complete lie. i am just too embarassed to admit to the fact that i have an eating disorder, i feel as though that is not me and not the person my parents, family or friends know.
    on a phone call last night to my boyfriend he ended up crying because he was worried about me and struggling to continue supporting me and finding out that my brother how been speaking to my mum about his worry (he never shows any emotions) has really got me thinking that maybe this is the time for me to admit to it and really really get rid of this once and for all.
    please could someone give me any information of what the dietician will say and if you think it is worthwhile for me to go ahead with what my doctor wants and go to camhs?
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    (Original post by Anonymous)
    Thank you so much for your responses, i never expected anyone to read that rubbish never mind spend time to respond. After being weighed again to see that i had lost more weight at the doctors she has referred me to a dietician. she wanted to refer me to a place called camhs however i told her that i am not doing anything intentionally and eat normally, proving this with my food diary.. complete lie. i am just too embarassed to admit to the fact that i have an eating disorder, i feel as though that is not me and not the person my parents, family or friends know.
    on a phone call last night to my boyfriend he ended up crying because he was worried about me and struggling to continue supporting me and finding out that my brother how been speaking to my mum about his worry (he never shows any emotions) has really got me thinking that maybe this is the time for me to admit to it and really really get rid of this once and for all.
    please could someone give me any information of what the dietician will say and if you think it is worthwhile for me to go ahead with what my doctor wants and go to camhs?
    It's important that you get help and face the fact that you have an ED -- first step to recovery and all that. It is a part of you but it can be overcome. If you care about the people in your life, you need to progress and accept the ED, otherwise it will be hard to move on and recover.
    I personally had a really bad experience with CAMHS but it's usually where they send you off to initially. The dietician will try and revamp your diet, ask you what you usually eat, try and figure out how to change your diet and probably put you on a meal plan. As for CAMHS, it may work for you. That's mostly therapy stuff but I found that they were too concerned about the physical treatment and not helping that much mentally. x
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    I need help :sad:

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    Aim for today was 500 calories (stupid I know). Day started badly with a breakfast of 250 calories - it was never going to work out. It was fine until I had my dinner (about two hours ago) and now it's like someones flicked a switch in my head from 'don't eat' to 'EAT EVERYTHING IN SIGHT'. :cry: I can't cope with this. What's even more upsetting is that even with the mini binge, I'm still probably under 1500 calories for the day - but my head is screaming at me for being a disappointment, eating too much, not going out and exercising (been doing uni work all day and I'm glad I have as I've got quite a bit done... when I haven't been day dreaming about eating).

    I'm literally holding back tears, I feel so awful. Less than a year ago I would've just accepted this as life, this is what people do, they need food to survive and live. Now it's a massive tragedy. I've been having a hard time with uni and some family issues recently so that's making it all worse. I go home on Saturday and I'm so so scared, it's the first time I've been home since Christmas and the first time I'll be going home with the strict mindset I've developed, I'm hoping that I can get around it/ignore it/just enjoy being at home but I'm worried that my parents will notice. Ridiculous when I'm 20+ but with the aforementioned family issues the last thing they need to be worrying about is me. I just don't know what to do :sad: I feel so close to going back to self harm, partly to punish myself and partly to get some of my emotions out. :sad:
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    (Original post by Anonymous)
    I can't cope anymore. I’m not sure if this is a trigger post. I’m not sure how to hide posts or put a warning. I hope this works.
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    I just desperately need someone to talk to. I’ve had binge eating disorder for years now and today was a really terrible binge day. My life just feels like its falling to pieces and I have no control over anything. The most important exams in my life are approaching and failing is not an option. My body is a mess. Last year in December I had lost weight and was so happy and confident and free from binging. It was the best four months of my life. Then some life got stressful and lo and behold the binging re-started. I gained twice what I lost. I feel disgusting. Every day I stuff myself with junk and feel so guilty afterwards. I don’t know how to stop. I can’t make myself sick- believe me I’ve tried. I wish I was capable. I can’t restrict very well- no willpower. I feel like a useless individual. I can’t go to my doctor as I honestly haven’t got the time for seeing any specialists. My doctor won’t take me seriously (I've been in the past) and I have these exams that I must revise for. I don’t know what I’m doing with my life. I can’t envisage the rest of the week let alone month. I don’t know who I am anymore.
    Hey, I completely understand how you feel, and am completely up for a chat anytime you need one (obviously we are both anon though) but if you want to chat on here or work something out so you can PM me? you're call

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    It has mostly got bad since coming to university, I spend my life binging. The only way I manage to stop is by stopping eating completely but then I start again at some point and just eat everything! Also totally understand the not being able to be sick thing, it angers me. But I do annoy myself really with not being able to just not binge constantly. I lost loads of weight last year when me and my boyfriend broke up, and it made me feel great, but again I have just put it all back on again and more. Can't talk to anyone about it though because they just think I am being silly. Also made worse as I am on antidepressants now and a side effect of them is increased appetite, just makes me feel rubbish being so weak all the time
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    So backstory here- In August my gynaecologist suggested (well told me to, and said that it was the only way to feel better) that I completely eliminated wheat from my diet. The problem was that as a recovering anorexic this just led me into a relapse into restricting because it was just so easy to hide what I was doing (I'm vegetarian and avoid dairy anyway). In December I decided that it wasn't worth the temptation and introduced wheat back into my diet.
    Honestly, the time where I wasn't eating wheat didn't really help my problems (I have endometriosis and mild IBS) but my gynae is positively evangelical about changing diet (she actually believes that wheat is the worst thing any woman can eat and states that every one of her patients noticed a huge difference with a wheat-free diet, she even eliminated it herself).
    I'm seeing her again in a couple of weeks and I'm just getting really nervous. She's a really pushy person and is sure that my psych problems are a huge part of why I get chronic pain (because my brain can create adhesions in my uterus, ovaries and bowels- obviously). She actually went as far as to say that unless I 'get over' my problems she can't properly treat me. So I'm dreading the appointment. I just feel like she'll be all "you aren't taking this seriously" and just fob me off again. I was supposed to have lost quite a bit of weight due to going off a medication that made me the higher-end of healthy (one point from overweight) when I was quite underweight before I went on it, so to her my weight loss won't look extreme at all.
    Ugh. Does anyone have any advice as to how to talk to her calmly and getting my points across?
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    (Original post by laurenl93)
    I havent been on this thread in almost a year, and i've just traipsed through and found THIS, my first ever post!
    reading it is strange, a lot has happened in the past year, i got the a levels i needed, i (finally) got off the waiting list and saw a psychiatrist weekly, i no longer feel pain looking at my legs although still at my tummy however thats an improvement, i have more than a can of coke for lunch and going more than a day without purging isnt the amazing monumental effort it once was

    i couldn't even tell you what my weight is. i have no idea. i know that i'm bigger, i dont fit into my sixth form jeans anymore and instead of being filled with jealousy and inspiration when i see someone who is clearly anorexic walk past, i just think "poor thing". i dont want an eating disorder anymore. i used to love having it until it then descended into pure desperation, being sick and crying at the fact i "binged" and my lack of self control on my bathroom floor and saving pro ana photos on my phone and constantly feeling "out of it", as well as the massive ****ing confusion of not knowing if i was trying to be healthy or thin or starve or calorie count or whatever.


    Basically, after joining this thread and being encouraged by all of you to tell some friends and see my gp and get the help i needed before it was too late, i did so, and im so grateful to all of you, I'm not fully recovered, but hell that will take years but now ive got my mentality and body sorted and focused and im sitting on an unconditional offer to do the uni course i love, and i couldnt be happier.


    and anyone who wants to talk about b/p, ednos or just generally in confusion, my pm is always open
    Well done you have done really really well in the last year, you should be really really proud! It's good to be able to read about the success stories on here!
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    (Original post by LaBelleEtLeBete)
    So backstory here- In August my gynaecologist suggested (well told me to, and said that it was the only way to feel better) that I completely eliminated wheat from my diet. The problem was that as a recovering anorexic this just led me into a relapse into restricting because it was just so easy to hide what I was doing (I'm vegetarian and avoid dairy anyway). In December I decided that it wasn't worth the temptation and introduced wheat back into my diet.
    Honestly, the time where I wasn't eating wheat didn't really help my problems (I have endometriosis and mild IBS) but my gynae is positively evangelical about changing diet (she actually believes that wheat is the worst thing any woman can eat and states that every one of her patients noticed a huge difference with a wheat-free diet, she even eliminated it herself).
    I'm seeing her again in a couple of weeks and I'm just getting really nervous. She's a really pushy person and is sure that my psych problems are a huge part of why I get chronic pain (because my brain can create adhesions in my uterus, ovaries and bowels- obviously). She actually went as far as to say that unless I 'get over' my problems she can't properly treat me. So I'm dreading the appointment. I just feel like she'll be all "you aren't taking this seriously" and just fob me off again. I was supposed to have lost quite a bit of weight due to going off a medication that made me the higher-end of healthy (one point from overweight) when I was quite underweight before I went on it, so to her my weight loss won't look extreme at all.
    Ugh. Does anyone have any advice as to how to talk to her calmly and getting my points across?
    She sounds like a fruit cake. With some docs, they just want to push their radical idea on you to make themselves feel better. Sometimes they have their own psychological problems (I've seen enough to know :\). Just stay firm. Tell her that you're not willing to risk a further relapse because of her diet and that there must be another way to tackle the issue. If she's not going to progress with treatment because you won't do as she says, go to someone else. Just be strong and tell her exactly what you think and how the whole thing is making you feel. The worst thing to do is relapse. I would honestly suggest seeing someone else instead.
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    FFs. Got sent home from the gym because I had a panic attack on one of the bars
    [and mentioned an extensive comfort-eat before that]
    Confidence is shattering again
    Is it safe to exercise the day of a binge?

    I hate this. Why's it so hard to sleep/ Why's everything end up so negative with me all the time.
    Right let's try:
    i) Might be going to either/or/both Leeds and Download
    ii) Mate wants to start a band
    iii) Voice is getting pretty good again, started to improve range etc.
    iv) Got a lot of work done today even after binge which breaks usual procrastination/rumination cycle
    v) Friends and family love me I love them



    Dear God I'm sorry I never have anything good to say on here. Well done to everyone making progress.
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    (Original post by jazzykinks)
    She sounds like a fruit cake. With some docs, they just want to push their radical idea on you to make themselves feel better. Sometimes they have their own psychological problems (I've seen enough to know :\). Just stay firm. Tell her that you're not willing to risk a further relapse because of her diet and that there must be another way to tackle the issue. If she's not going to progress with treatment because you won't do as she says, go to someone else. Just be strong and tell her exactly what you think and how the whole thing is making you feel. The worst thing to do is relapse. I would honestly suggest seeing someone else instead.
    I really can't ask to see anyone else as she's the head 'expert' for my illness in one of the most respected units for women's health in the country. This is also the second hospital I've been referred to so my GP wouldn't refer me to another.
    I'm just going to try and stand firm.. it's just hard.
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    (Original post by LaBelleEtLeBete)
    I really can't ask to see anyone else as she's the head 'expert' for my illness in one of the most respected units for women's health in the country. This is also the second hospital I've been referred to so my GP wouldn't refer me to another.
    I'm just going to try and stand firm.. it's just hard.
    Hun, at the end of the day, this is your health. It's of paramount importance. I know it can be hard to stand up to someone in such a position of authority (I always felt like I had nothing to stand on when I challenged my docs), but it's important that you stay strong because damage could be done if you back down. Stay strong x
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    (Original post by jazzykinks)
    Hun, at the end of the day, this is your health. It's of paramount importance. I know it can be hard to stand up to someone in such a position of authority (I always felt like I had nothing to stand on when I challenged my docs), but it's important that you stay strong because damage could be done if you back down. Stay strong x
    Thanks... It's just hard to argue with someone when they have such a forceful personality. Apparently she's quite 'mean' for the first couple of appointments and then mellows. So I'm hoping that that will happen when I see her.
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    FFs. Got sent home from the gym because I had a panic attack on one of the bars
    [and mentioned an extensive comfort-eat before that]
    Confidence is shattering again
    Is it safe to exercise the day of a binge?

    I hate this. Why's it so hard to sleep/ Why's everything end up so negative with me all the time.
    Right let's try:
    i) Might be going to either/or/both Leeds and Download
    ii) Mate wants to start a band
    iii) Voice is getting pretty good again, started to improve range etc.
    iv) Got a lot of work done today even after binge which breaks usual procrastination/rumination cycle
    v) Friends and family love me I love them



    Dear God I'm sorry I never have anything good to say on here. Well done to everyone making progress.

    The irony, Riku, is that your ED feeds itself by trying to make you justify the justification it puts forth. No, it's not "normal" to do what you're doing. That doesn't make you a monster, it makes your ED a powerful demon.

    The fact you're questioning it is a good sign. Keep going. If you're thinking "is it right I'm doing X? Maybe I should think twice..." that's the first step to understanding/quelling the voice.
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    Anon because family may find this
    My sister is eleven years older than me (aged thirty one) and for as long as I can remember she has basically been a functioning anorexic. Always eating tiny amounts of food, terrified of ordering stuff in restaurants (only wanting to pick off other's plates as though she'll be judged for having a plate of food in front of he) and really thin. When I was younger she always seemed terribly glamorous (she's very good looking, I'm pretty but she's just really really good looking) but in the past couple of years the fact that she maintains such a low weight (seriously, she eats half a grapefruit for breakfast, six prawns at most for lunch and then either a crumpet and slice of low-fat cheese or homemade vegetable soup for dinner, skipping dinner entirely if she wants a G&T/glass of wine and then maybe a biscuit if she's feeling unwell) has really taken a toll on her looks. She's thirty one and her skin hangs off her and is lined, her hair has been greying for the past five years and her stomach can't handle normal portions of food (or even any food with real flavour). She has a seven-year-old daughter and all of the mums on the playground think she's in her forties like them. She went to the doctor recently who just validated her eating habits by telling her that she's at a healthy weight (wtf? She has no body fat/no hips/no breasts) and has mild acid reflux so she should only eat small amounts (of course, he also said that it was six small meals a day but she reported to our parents who are concerned that it was just small amounts).
    Honestly, she has a child and her eating disorder is going to put her into an early grave. She already has a really low immune system and takes ages to fight off viruses and it's only going to get worse. When I was at the height of my ED she confided that she had purged when she was younger. My family know she has a problem but it's just tip-toed around and I'm sick of it. She is killing herself and her daughter cannot have a mother in hospital or dead, it's not at all fair. (She is also fairly critical of the daughter's weight as she bloats if she eats too much so she'll go on 'health kicks' where she's not allowed any treats and can only drink water. I just don't know what to do.
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    My sister is eleven years older than me (aged thirty one) and for as long as I can remember she has basically been a functioning anorexic. Always eating tiny amounts of food, terrified of ordering stuff in restaurants (only wanting to pick off other's plates as though she'll be judged for having a plate of food in front of he) and really thin. When I was younger she always seemed terribly glamorous (she's very good looking, I'm pretty but she's just really really good looking) but in the past couple of years the fact that she maintains such a low weight (seriously, she eats half a grapefruit for breakfast, six prawns at most for lunch and then either a crumpet and slice of low-fat cheese or homemade vegetable soup for dinner, skipping dinner entirely if she wants a G&T/glass of wine and then maybe a biscuit if she's feeling unwell) has really taken a toll on her looks. She's thirty one and her skin hangs off her and is lined, her hair has been greying for the past five years and her stomach can't handle normal portions of food (or even any food with real flavour). She has a seven-year-old daughter and all of the mums on the playground think she's in her forties like them. She went to the doctor recently who just validated her eating habits by telling her that she's at a healthy weight (wtf? She has no body fat/no hips/no breasts) and has mild acid reflux so she should only eat small amounts (of course, he also said that it was six small meals a day but she reported to our parents who are concerned that it was just small amounts).
    Honestly, she has a child and her eating disorder is going to put her into an early grave. She already has a really low immune system and takes ages to fight off viruses and it's only going to get worse. When I was at the height of my ED she confided that she had purged when she was younger. My family know she has a problem but it's just tip-toed around and I'm sick of it. She is killing herself and her daughter cannot have a mother in hospital or dead, it's not at all fair. (She is also fairly critical of the daughter's weight as she bloats if she eats too much so she'll go on 'health kicks' where she's not allowed any treats and can only drink water. I just don't know what to do.
    FFFFFFFFFFFFFFUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU - Kay. Get on this.

    If your sister recognises that she has an issue let her know that she shouldn't drag her daughter into it too. The thing that really sets me burning is when people enforce their bad eating habits on their children like it's natural. It's not. It's bloody infectious in families. Eating disorders from what I've read are more symptom than disease and it's what I've found myself. You have genetic dispositions, you get the wrong environment, issues get lain, eating disorder hatches out.

    I am guessing from the doctor that her bmi falls between 17.5 and 18.5, the bracket of underweight but not in the diagnosis region of anorexia. It can happen. Metabolism can get stunted, you remain light but leathery. Tell her that she know what is going on. She should either seek help or help herself as she knows she has an issue. A different doctor might give a different diagnosis, but she has to actually raise her concerns with the doctor herself.

    One issue in diagnosis might be the fact that she is still menstruating (I'm guessing as she has a daughter.) Part of the diagnosis in women is amenorrhoea. Once again she either needs to tell her doctor that she WANTS the support or that she seeks support herself. If not for anorexia, for EDNOS. If she can't get it she simply needs to help herself.

    I'm sorry. Ordinarily with eating disorders you need to tiptoe as there is the risk of driving it further down, but she is most probably out of the destructive environment and needs to (a) sort out her personal deep set issues and (b) Change the habits that she has set out in her, and now her daughters, lives. Children should not fear food. (Except peanut allergy.)

    http://caloriecount.about.com/forums/health-support

    http://caloriecount.about.com/forums/weight-gain
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    ****ing raging. Woke up to find my BF has stabbed the melon I wanted to eat/prep today with a pen. So now I can't eat it, I have no food in the house and no money to buy any more, AND I'd just wasted £3 on a melon that I could've enjoyed. I'm really upset about this If I've allocated myself a food, or said it's ok to have, and then I can't have it, I get really emotional
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    I really need some advice please
    So I've kind of had issues with food for almost a year now. I've always refused to weigh myself so I can't give any figures, but here's my situation.
    This time last year I started to cut out some junk food. I wasn't overweight or anything but I figured I should be more healthy. So I lost a bit of weight. I liked it, so continued to secretly diet a bit to keep it off.
    Then during the summer holidays I started to try and avoid food when possible. So most days I'd only eat tea, and that's because my parents like us to eat tea together so I couldn't not eat without them knowing. Started to exercise secretly. Lost quite a lot of weight. I didn't get scary skinny or anything but some people noticed that I had got really slim (they didn't notice my food-avoidance habits though).
    Then I went back to college and the binging began, the secret exercising ended. October through to February I would binge most days. I gained weight. Suprisingly, not too much (still fit into size 12 clothes at 5'6), but people noticed.
    A few weeks ago I decided I had to start eating normally. But I didn't; instead I've somehow got into a state of having days where I either binge, or days where I avoid food as much as possible (so again, just eating tea). I havn't had a day where I've just eaten normally. It's either binge (so 3000+ calories) or avoid (so I'd say less than 1200). The secret exercising is back too. Weight fluctuates like hell day by day.
    But what really scares me is that today I threw up intentionally after a binge. First time I've actually done that. And all I can think about is how in just 5 months time I'll be at uni, in control of my food and that I'm just not going to buy any and I know it's terrible but in some horrible way I can't wait for that. I love the thought of being finally in full control.
    Sorry for going on for so long, but I'm scaring myself and I just don't feel as though I can tell anybody I know yet - I'm such a secretive person but people don't know they just see the bright, optimistic person I pretend to be and I don't want them to see me so vulnerable. I just need some advice from somebody I am going to see my doctor in a few days about it but I don't even know how I'm going to tell him. How can I try and start getting out of this? How do I eat normally and not feel like I have to binge the second I eat a little more than I intended to? How do I stop thinking about food/exercise every second of every day? Argh I feel so pathetic and horrible.
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    This girl called Sian Conway is or was anorexic and I thought that her videos/blog might be helpful to some, so yh here you go.



    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B3ZFk...eature=channel
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    Does anyone else have low potassium levels? Mine are currently 1.7 (with 3.5 and under being low).. urghh, I have zero energy and a chest infection that won't budge.. to top it off I've had to come off my citalopram because I've been told to so I just feel beyond strange.
 
 
 
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