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    Sorry everything that I have contributed to this thread is so negative at the moment, but I just feel so negative at the moment. Quite a strong post, and I don't mean to offend anyone with saying I'm sort of wanting hospitalisation, I just feel I need help to cope at the moment

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    At my weigh in on Friday I failed to gain again (although I didn't lose any weight). My psychiatrist has said she's going to bring me up with the rest of the Caerphilly eating disorder team and Aneurin Bevan CAMHS meeting on Monday. It looks likely they are going to have to increase my Fluoxetine as 20mg doesn't seem to be having an effect on me at the moment after its intial impact, with dark thoughts, disordered thinking etc. still continuing. Also both my psychiatrist and both of my doctors have indicated that is extremely likely I'm on the autistic spectrum, and am high functioning, which is obviously going to make recovery harder. My body is in frequent pain at the moment, with my parents saying I looked like I was dying on New Years Eve, being so deficient of colour and feeling in such pain, and they both are not sure why they didn't phone for an ambulance; and I am extremely tired, asleep every night by about 9pm, yet awake around 5.30am. I really feel like everything at home is chaotic at the moment, and I can't deal with it and that it's all my fault; and I feel that hospitalisation (which has been suggested by all the doctors and hinted at by my psychiatrist) may just be a good option; but I feel like I'm just giving in to Anorexia then – that it wants this I feel extremely regretful for how I've behaved to people in the past now, and just want to speak to my friends, but it's clear I'm not going back to school anytime soon I feel like I need something to occupy my time as well at the moment, that my memory and concentration is so poor that I can't do work, but I have nothing else to do as well. There's just so much on my mind at the moment.


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    Hi there

    I'm new to the thread and was looking for some help/opinions about telling my boyfriend about my food issues...

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    Sorry if this goes on fairly long
    Basically, almost 2 years back now I started secretly dieting and it spiralled to what was almost anorexia (all symptoms but weight was never low enough). Then, I began to binge and purge, and although I never had the balls to tell anyone and get diagnosed, I'd say I was fully bulimic from summer 2011 to about this time last year.

    I then did really well with getting myself on track eating right. I never told anybody about my food issues and went through it all alone, so getting into normal eating habits was really difficult for me and since then I've been ok aside from the odd day every few weeks when I'll binge and/or purge.

    I got together with my boyfriend in April, and I've never told him about my issues with food. I didn't want to bring it up, or for him to think any less of me. I figured seeing as it was in the past, it wasn't worth bringing up. Lately though, since being at university, I've had more control over my food and have started to eat less and less - the few weeks before the christmas holidays were awful and I really didn't eat much at all And the past few weeks at home with it being christmas means I've ate so much, feel really guilty about it and want to throw up a lot. There have been a fair few binges, but I have managed to not purge.

    So I'm really scared about my eating habits I can just see it going really downhill once I'm at university again and I could really do with some support in making sure I eat right. There's no way my family would understand but I think my boyfriend might. I just don't want him to be upset that I never told him earlier about it I agree I probably ahould have but I really did think I was better but now all I think about is food and trying to avoid it then binging and I just need someone to talk to, someone to help me

    Can anybody out there please help me with how I can tell him about this? I don't know how to go about it at all :confused: I'm known by everyone as being the cheery one, I'm not the kind of person to have problems and stuff I just hope he doesn't think of me too differently

    He won't think badly of you. Your past is as much part of you as any other aspect of your current personality and having such a past doesn't change who you ARE now. Because it's already happened. Sorta thing. It can startle some to be fair and you need to be in the right state in the relationship (I'd say you're safe if you've known him from at least April) but having it out there is a necessity for a healthy relationship, not just a healthy psyche. When talking about it, not to sound like an arrogant twot, but you have to take into consideration the emotional intelligence of the person you are telling to to know how to word it. When I told my family initially (it was fairly obvious to be fair) my Mum took on the right approach, understood the psychology and worked as a support. My Dad was a doofus and just rammed insta-meals at me and attempted guilt tripping which, as anybody who has any experience with ED's will tell you, is not the way to do it.

    Push the eating to the back of your mind. You are in control here, not the ED. After you've decided how to tell your BF ask him just for a little back up once in a while. Binging with most is a 'private' affair but if you ask to speak to him maybe during those heightened emotional moments, just supporting you during the purgy feely moments. Concentrate on keeping 'the whole' calm instead of just the ED. The ED is a symptom here of a grander thing happening to you, find what triggers it and aim at THAT.

    (Original post by Anonymous)
    Anyone got any advice on the urge to control everyone else around you?

    I can not get it out of my head that my BF needs to lose weight (he's overweight, and has expressed that he wants to get back to a healthy weight before, so it's not completely unfounded) and I seem to be getting at him about it quite a lot, which is horrible for him and pushing us apart. On the flip side, if he tells me that he hasn't eaten lunch or doesn't feel hungry enough for a proper dinner, I get very upset and insist that he has something decent. All the time it's a constant tug of war between me telling him that he needs to exercise and cut down on the ****ty food he eats and me telling him that he has to eat something. It's starting to seriously affect 'us' as he's getting annoyed now.
    The obvious one of just level down the support. Tell him that he is in control, you can help in plan things out but the way he manages it overall is up to him. Tell him having 3 meals a day is probably best for balance, just add that if he NEEDS any help you are willing to lend one. Bite your tongue at times (which can be difficult) but if something so trivial is playing with the relationship you need to be able to batter it down fast. Sometimes these sorta things having a snowballing effect which may lead you to become more controlling and him to be more internally angry'n'crap.

    (Original post by JLW95)
    Sorry everything that I have contributed to this thread is so negative at the moment, but I just feel so negative at the moment. Quite a strong post, and I don't mean to offend anyone with saying I'm sort of wanting hospitalisation, I just feel I need help to cope at the moment

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    At my weigh in on Friday I failed to gain again (although I didn't lose any weight). My psychiatrist has said she's going to bring me up with the rest of the Caerphilly eating disorder team and Aneurin Bevan CAMHS meeting on Monday. It looks likely they are going to have to increase my Fluoxetine as 20mg doesn't seem to be having an effect on me at the moment after its intial impact, with dark thoughts, disordered thinking etc. still continuing. Also both my psychiatrist and both of my doctors have indicated that is extremely likely I'm on the autistic spectrum, and am high functioning, which is obviously going to make recovery harder. My body is in frequent pain at the moment, with my parents saying I looked like I was dying on New Years Eve, being so deficient of colour and feeling in such pain, and they both are not sure why they didn't phone for an ambulance; and I am extremely tired, asleep every night by about 9pm, yet awake around 5.30am. I really feel like everything at home is chaotic at the moment, and I can't deal with it and that it's all my fault; and I feel that hospitalisation (which has been suggested by all the doctors and hinted at by my psychiatrist) may just be a good option; but I feel like I'm just giving in to Anorexia then – that it wants this I feel extremely regretful for how I've behaved to people in the past now, and just want to speak to my friends, but it's clear I'm not going back to school anytime soon I feel like I need something to occupy my time as well at the moment, that my memory and concentration is so poor that I can't do work, but I have nothing else to do as well. There's just so much on my mind at the moment.


    All the best everyone.
    Oh darling.

    Sometimes it is better to get professional help, no two ways about it and it is not the ED winning out. The ED achieving what it wants would be if you DON'T do whatever possible to try and beat it. Try penning dark thoughts down in colour or what have you, find something to help you release the pent up emotion. Prescriptions and pills can take you so far, but perseverance and some form of other coping strategies are also needed alongside. Finding how to balance all that stuff inside of you is needed for long term recovery. Try things that YOU think will work. Literally do it. Write a list of what you think can help you. Nothing sinister now, just things that in your own head tell you will help you break out of it. Set a self-fulfilling positive prophecy. Drawing will help. Writing poetry will help. Bathing in the goat's milk will help. I don't know. But you do.

    But please. Do what you feel is best. Look at yourself from a 3rd person's perspective, i.e. if you were looking through a stranger's eyes.
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    I'm getting really really triggered by my sister who is home. She is so beautiful and thin. Its making me restrict... any tips on how to fight this?
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    (Original post by Antiaris)
    The obvious one of just level down the support. Tell him that he is in control, you can help in plan things out but the way he manages it overall is up to him. Tell him having 3 meals a day is probably best for balance, just add that if he NEEDS any help you are willing to lend one. Bite your tongue at times (which can be difficult) but if something so trivial is playing with the relationship you need to be able to batter it down fast. Sometimes these sorta things having a snowballing effect which may lead you to become more controlling and him to be more internally angry'n'crap.
    He doesn't do it though - if he's left to his own devices he eats McDonalds all day and stuffs 200g bars of dairy milk in one go.
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    Got some more questions about referrals/appointments if anyone's able to help. I know these things work differently around the country but I'm a little confused about the process I'm being put through so if anyone can help that would be great.

    I first saw my GP about my ED three weeks ago. He sent me for an ECG and bloods and then I saw him again just before I went home from uni for Christmas, and he said he was referring me to the 'eating disorders team' and to expect a letter from them. That letter came today, but it came from the Leeds and York Partnership Community Mental Health Team. I've got an assessment with a mental health nurse and a specialist practitioner in eating disorders, but it doesn't really give me any information about what's going to happen or what might happen next. One of the things I feel like would really help is a nutritionist and it doesn't mention that in any of the information about the services they provide. Is it likely that my treatment now will come through the CMHT or will they refer me on to more specialist services if they think that's what I need? Just a little confused about what's going to happen next...

    I'm also really really stressing out about the prospect of them weighing me and to be honest my first instinct is to lose as much weight as possible before the appointment. I'll have seen my GP less than a week beforehand for a weigh-in so is there any chance they'll just settle for the weight he updates my records with, or will they want to see for themselves? I'm so scared of them thinking I weigh too much to need treatment.
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    (Original post by jazzykinks)
    Okay, you should tell him. Just do it in a quiet place and tell him. No one expects you to keep soldiering on. You need support and certainly at uni; your boyfriend can provide it. He won't judge you badly or change how he treats you -- you've been together for a while because he cares about you. People are a lot more understanding about these things than we think x

    (Original post by Antiaris)
    He won't think badly of you. Your past is as much part of you as any other aspect of your current personality and having such a past doesn't change who you ARE now. Because it's already happened. Sorta thing. It can startle some to be fair and you need to be in the right state in the relationship (I'd say you're safe if you've known him from at least April) but having it out there is a necessity for a healthy relationship, not just a healthy psyche. When talking about it, not to sound like an arrogant twot, but you have to take into consideration the emotional intelligence of the person you are telling to to know how to word it. When I told my family initially (it was fairly obvious to be fair) my Mum took on the right approach, understood the psychology and worked as a support. My Dad was a doofus and just rammed insta-meals at me and attempted guilt tripping which, as anybody who has any experience with ED's will tell you, is not the way to do it.

    Push the eating to the back of your mind. You are in control here, not the ED. After you've decided how to tell your BF ask him just for a little back up once in a while. Binging with most is a 'private' affair but if you ask to speak to him maybe during those heightened emotional moments, just supporting you during the purgy feely moments. Concentrate on keeping 'the whole' calm instead of just the ED. The ED is a symptom here of a grander thing happening to you, find what triggers it and aim at THAT.
    Thank you both for your advice. I really will try to pluck up the courage to tell him, I feel like he deserves to know. We have known each other years and have had a fantastic relationship from April so I really do hope he'll be supportive. I hope he'll understand He does do psychology so I hope that means he'll be more understanding than my parents/family would be Ahh I'm still worried about how he'll react but I guess he really does need to know.
    Thank you for encouraging me more to tell him I definitley will as soon as I can
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    (Original post by Antiaris)
    Oh darling.

    Sometimes it is better to get professional help, no two ways about it and it is not the ED winning out. The ED achieving what it wants would be if you DON'T do whatever possible to try and beat it. Try penning dark thoughts down in colour or what have you, find something to help you release the pent up emotion. Prescriptions and pills can take you so far, but perseverance and some form of other coping strategies are also needed alongside. Finding how to balance all that stuff inside of you is needed for long term recovery. Try things that YOU think will work. Literally do it. Write a list of what you think can help you. Nothing sinister now, just things that in your own head tell you will help you break out of it. Set a self-fulfilling positive prophecy. Drawing will help. Writing poetry will help. Bathing in the goat's milk will help. I don't know. But you do.

    But please. Do what you feel is best. Look at yourself from a 3rd person's perspective, i.e. if you were looking through a stranger's eyes.
    Thanks for the advice I just feel that I'm never going to be able overcome it as an outpatient. I know I've got my first dietian meeting on Thursday morning where hopefully they can help me come up with a meal plan, which I intend to stick to whether 'it' likes it or not; and another nurse meeting on Friday when I go in to be weighed and have my measures checked. I even tried to do a bit of school work yesterday, which lasted for all of 10 minutes before I began nodding off

    In the evening after I posted my last message I finally told another one of my closest friends what has been happening with me, showing him my first post on here as Anon 152. He's reassured me that all my friends, who I feel I've been horrible to as my condition worsened, and I now feel guilty about will support me through this Also I had a message off another member of family supporting me. I broke down with tears just hearing it from my friend, as I feel like I've got the support of everyone behind me now
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    Then yesterday morning after the night before, it was the first day with my family back in work. As soon as they were out the house I immediately went straight to the scales and weighed, and felt glad when it showed that I haven't gained :mad: This is why I think inpatient may be beneficial, as I don't even trust myself anymore
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    Guys, is there any way you can get any extra help or consideration in exams? I've achieved Firsts in my assignments and my last set of exams and never ever let the illness get in the way of my study, but this time my diabetes and anorexia have really screwed me over and it's so so hard to work right now. I did the exam yesterday which was fine but my next is Friday and I had to leave the library today because I feel so weak and faint. Can't get my work done, so frustrated, has anyone managed to sit the exam at a later date instead? I really can't get in the work that I need to by Friday and feel like a complete disappointment to myself.
    Anorexia is always so much worse during exam time and now diabetes has suffered on top....GRRRRRRRR.
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    (Original post by x-Disenchanted-x)
    Guys, is there any way you can get any extra help or consideration in exams? I've achieved Firsts in my assignments and my last set of exams and never ever let the illness get in the way of my study, but this time my diabetes and anorexia have really screwed me over and it's so so hard to work right now. I did the exam yesterday which was fine but my next is Friday and I had to leave the library today because I feel so weak and faint. Can't get my work done, so frustrated, has anyone managed to sit the exam at a later date instead? I really can't get in the work that I need to by Friday and feel like a complete disappointment to myself.
    Anorexia is always so much worse during exam time and now diabetes has suffered on top....GRRRRRRRR.
    at my uni you can apply for mitigating circumstances which mean you can essentially resit the exam at a later date (like you would normally if you just failed for whatever reason) only it counts as your first time taking it so you're able to retake AGAIN if you need to. does that make sense? so you do it as if it were a retake, but it officially only counts as your first attempt. not sure if that helps, but don't be afraid to ask for support. i'm currently trying to wrangle all the extra time i can out of my department for essays because of eating problems, they're there to help you!
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    Just hoping someone might be able to help me here. I haven't eaten right in a while. My nana came up tonight to talk to me and said she thinks I have an eating disorder and that it's not my fault. I starve myself I started getting stomach problems a while back and I had depression and doctors put it down to stress. Since around September I haven't been eating meals at college I save the money. I can't eat in public, I barely eat at all. I thought it was problems with my stomach but now I think I might have a problem mentally instead of a physical problem. I always feel full and sick. I never feel hungry and I don't even get the hunger pains anymore.

    I used to be fatter and I got depressed but by not eating I feel like I have power because only I can control it. I only eat tiny tiny amounts of food. I weigh myself constantly but since a few days ago the scales have gone missing and I think my nana has taken it away if she feels I have an eating disorder. I got confused because I thought people with their bones sticking out had an eating disorder. Since september I've been starving myself and eating less food weighing myself constantly I'd be really happy if I'd lost weight but upset if I'd put any on. Even when I reached my goals I kept wanting to lose more and more. Even after eating small amounts I have the urge to be sick and feel really guilty about putting calories and fat in to my body. I thought I couldn't have an eating disorder if I was a healthy weight. I've gone from 11 stone 9 pounds to 9 stone something when I last checked, nearly 8 stone. I never have an appetite any more, even though I used to stuff my face with food. I can't do that anymore cos my stomach and mind don't seem to want food. I don't want to eat but I feel tired and dizzy all the time. I feel like I really am fighting and getting worse and if I don't get help it's going to spiral out of control. I do wish I could go back to how I was eating normally. Does this sound like an eating disorder? I am thinking of seeing a doctor but don't know if I'll be taken seriously as I'm still a healthy weight for my height (5 ft 6)
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    i was just sitting normally, and suddenly I got this intense pain in my neck around my throat. Kind of like muscle cramps but more painful. I've never felt anything like it before, and it was so bad that it made me cry and almost have a panic attack because I thought my throat muscles were contracting and were going to close my throat up or something (I don't even know if that is possible).

    I did sme googling and found a comment that someone made that this can be caused by a leakage in the sphincter of the oesophagus. Is this something that can be caused by purging often for a long time? Or am I overreacting? I am going to the doctors soon about my depression, I wasn't going to mention my eating disorder past but perhaps i should mention this?
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    (Original post by iJess)
    Just hoping someone might be able to help me here. I haven't eaten right in a while. My nana came up tonight to talk to me and said she thinks I have an eating disorder and that it's not my fault. I starve myself I started getting stomach problems a while back and I had depression and doctors put it down to stress. Since around September I haven't been eating meals at college I save the money. I can't eat in public, I barely eat at all. I thought it was problems with my stomach but now I think I might have a problem mentally instead of a physical problem. I always feel full and sick. I never feel hungry and I don't even get the hunger pains anymore.

    I used to be fatter and I got depressed but by not eating I feel like I have power because only I can control it. I only eat tiny tiny amounts of food. I weigh myself constantly but since a few days ago the scales have gone missing and I think my nana has taken it away if she feels I have an eating disorder. I got confused because I thought people with their bones sticking out had an eating disorder. Since september I've been starving myself and eating less food weighing myself constantly I'd be really happy if I'd lost weight but upset if I'd put any on. Even when I reached my goals I kept wanting to lose more and more. Even after eating small amounts I have the urge to be sick and feel really guilty about putting calories and fat in to my body. I thought I couldn't have an eating disorder if I was a healthy weight. I've gone from 11 stone 9 pounds to 9 stone something when I last checked, nearly 8 stone. I never have an appetite any more, even though I used to stuff my face with food. I can't do that anymore cos my stomach and mind don't seem to want food. I don't want to eat but I feel tired and dizzy all the time. I feel like I really am fighting and getting worse and if I don't get help it's going to spiral out of control. I do wish I could go back to how I was eating normally. Does this sound like an eating disorder? I am thinking of seeing a doctor but don't know if I'll be taken seriously as I'm still a healthy weight for my height (5 ft 6)
    You don't have to be underweight or with protruding bones to have an eating disorder because it's a mental illness with physical consequences. Your behaviour does sound typical of an ED because you derive pleasure from continually losing weight and it's never enough for you. When I was first diagnosed with anorexia, it was 'atypical anorexia' because my BMI was still healthy but my mind showed all the typical traits of someone with anorexia and that could very well be the case for you. Please see a doctor because it's so easy for this to get out of hand. x
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    (Original post by sentiment)
    at my uni you can apply for mitigating circumstances which mean you can essentially resit the exam at a later date (like you would normally if you just failed for whatever reason) only it counts as your first time taking it so you're able to retake AGAIN if you need to. does that make sense? so you do it as if it were a retake, but it officially only counts as your first attempt. not sure if that helps, but don't be afraid to ask for support. i'm currently trying to wrangle all the extra time i can out of my department for essays because of eating problems, they're there to help you!
    Thank you I really don't know whether it's for the best to retake or not; but the state I'm in now is not going to get me the First that I'm aiming for. Unsure whether to get it out of the way because I just know it'll only be a repeat of the same situation in June x

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    (Original post by jazzykinks)
    You don't have to be underweight or with protruding bones to have an eating disorder because it's a mental illness with physical consequences. Your behaviour does sound typical of an ED because you derive pleasure from continually losing weight and it's never enough for you. When I was first diagnosed with anorexia, it was 'atypical anorexia' because my BMI was still healthy but my mind showed all the typical traits of someone with anorexia and that could very well be the case for you. Please see a doctor because it's so easy for this to get out of hand. x
    I went to see a doctor today I wrote down literally every thing I've wrote here. I'm being referred to counselling once again and I have to have a blood test on monday. I feel like I've taken the first step to getting better, hopefully
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    (Original post by iJess)
    I went to see a doctor today I wrote down literally every thing I've wrote here. I'm being referred to counselling once again and I have to have a blood test on monday. I feel like I've taken the first step to getting better, hopefully
    Wish you all the best. xx
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    I have an assessment tomorrow to go to an inpatient adolescent unit for my ED and SH :/ Super scared! Part of me is positive and hoping I'll be able to get on track and actually get my life back, and the other part wants to run the opposite direction. I still have the feeling that I'm not actually ill enough, and that them forcing me to eat will only make things worse. But I know I have to tackle it now or I'll just end up sectioned soon anyway. Ughhhhh this sucks I wish I'd never gotten this stupid illness.
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    I have an assessment tomorrow to go to an inpatient adolescent unit for my ED and SH :/ Super scared! Part of me is positive and hoping I'll be able to get on track and actually get my life back, and the other part wants to run the opposite direction. I still have the feeling that I'm not actually ill enough, and that them forcing me to eat will only make things worse. But I know I have to tackle it now or I'll just end up sectioned soon anyway. Ughhhhh this sucks I wish I'd never gotten this stupid illness.
    Hey Noosh :hugs: It'll be good for you to go. It's normal to feel apprehensive - it's a massive life decision - but in the long run it's the best thing to do. However it'll only work if you let it; so to give it the best shot you have to really try. You're a very intelligent girl and you deserve to live a happy life free from this ****ty illness that just wants to rob you of everything you have. Remain positive.

    Best of luck gorgeous, you'll be ok. :hugs:
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    (Original post by iJess)
    Just hoping someone might be able to help me here. I haven't eaten right in a while. My nana came up tonight to talk to me and said she thinks I have an eating disorder and that it's not my fault. I starve myself I started getting stomach problems a while back and I had depression and doctors put it down to stress. Since around September I haven't been eating meals at college I save the money. I can't eat in public, I barely eat at all. I thought it was problems with my stomach but now I think I might have a problem mentally instead of a physical problem. I always feel full and sick. I never feel hungry and I don't even get the hunger pains anymore.

    I used to be fatter and I got depressed but by not eating I feel like I have power because only I can control it. I only eat tiny tiny amounts of food. I weigh myself constantly but since a few days ago the scales have gone missing and I think my nana has taken it away if she feels I have an eating disorder. I got confused because I thought people with their bones sticking out had an eating disorder. Since september I've been starving myself and eating less food weighing myself constantly I'd be really happy if I'd lost weight but upset if I'd put any on. Even when I reached my goals I kept wanting to lose more and more. Even after eating small amounts I have the urge to be sick and feel really guilty about putting calories and fat in to my body. I thought I couldn't have an eating disorder if I was a healthy weight. I've gone from 11 stone 9 pounds to 9 stone something when I last checked, nearly 8 stone. I never have an appetite any more, even though I used to stuff my face with food. I can't do that anymore cos my stomach and mind don't seem to want food. I don't want to eat but I feel tired and dizzy all the time. I feel like I really am fighting and getting worse and if I don't get help it's going to spiral out of control. I do wish I could go back to how I was eating normally. Does this sound like an eating disorder? I am thinking of seeing a doctor but don't know if I'll be taken seriously as I'm still a healthy weight for my height (5 ft 6)
    This absolutely is a problem and well done for going to the doctor today. Keep us posted here on what's going on; it's not an easy place to get out of but well done on taking your first steps towards doing something about it!
    Recognizing the problem and deciding to take actions= first positive move towards recovery x
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    (Original post by x-Disenchanted-x)
    This absolutely is a problem and well done for going to the doctor today. Keep us posted here on what's going on; it's not an easy place to get out of but well done on taking your first steps towards doing something about it!
    Recognizing the problem and deciding to take actions= first positive move towards recovery x
    Nope its really hard I've been trying to stop calorie counting but it's a habit I just want to get better I even tried to force myself to eat some crisps but I just feel sick and guilty. I feel really low and such a failure that I can't even manage one packet of crisps. Why is my body like this when I want to be back how I was?
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    Hope someone actually answers me this time rather than avoid it!

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    Basically my eating is up and down again, I go through days of living off nothing then when I get food I get a large takeaway order and eat it then next day back to basics,

    For example yesterday ate a twix for breakfast just for energy and a few potatoes for lunch, day before ate 4 crumpets and a twix entire day, day before was leftover takeaway in morning and 4 crumpets in evening, day before was when I got the takeaway so got a large donner kebab(dont like donner just craved one) and a chickenburger about midnight and nothing else previous to that.

    Day before was just 1 cheese toastie.

    So I am eating next to nothing but due to takeaways about twice a week my weight has skyrocketed so I am bigger than ever and need to lose weight(though am healthy in every other way)
 
 
 
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