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    In spoiler 'cause I don't wanna get anyone else into my mindset!
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    Not able to train in this weather as it's far too slippy to run or cycle, it's making eating so much more difficult because I'm not exercising it off
    Guess I'm nowhere near as stable as I thought I was. Anyone got any tips on how to keep on track?


    Hope everyone's doing okay! x
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    I've been getting worse recently, stopped eating altogether, went back to doctors and my referral has been changed to 'Urgent' :/
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    (Original post by iJess)
    I've been getting worse recently, stopped eating altogether, went back to doctors and my referral has been changed to 'Urgent' :/
    cuddles. And it'll still take them weeks to do anything, which is rediculous.

    Is anyone else starting to get really bored of the snow? theres an icicle thats melting and its constant drip, drip, drip on my windowsill is making me want to rip my face off.

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    Appetite has been completely shot since wednesday... need to make an appointment with the doctors about my panic attacks etc, but terrified she'll try to either drug me normal, or put me on CBT, which a friend has had for social anxiety and its just made it worse. That, and this week the only flatmate i'm close enough to to drag her to the doctors with me so she can speak on my behalf when i inevitably bottle it is in 9-5 every day this week, next week we both have exams, the week after that I'm back to a full timetable and he will want to know if i've been and got something sorted, and i'm convinced he will NOT BE IMPRESSED. Which is obv. making my anxiety worse, which is meaning i've almost completely lost my appetite, which is making me worry that i'll do rubbish in my exams... and so on.
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    I feel like I need advice from someone who understands how this feels. I feel completely huge. Sometimes I know I'm not, im a ten to twelve which I'm ashamed of and I don't know why. I keep getting anxious to leave my room, I don't even want to be around foo incase I eat it. My head just says I'm fat and disgusting and I fail at everything. I hate feeling like this constantly but I feel like a doctor would look at me and laugh. I dont know what to do anymore ?


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    (Original post by 05autyt)
    I feel like I need advice from someone who understands how this feels. I feel completely huge. Sometimes I know I'm not, im a ten to twelve which I'm ashamed of and I don't know why. I keep getting anxious to leave my room, I don't even want to be around foo incase I eat it. My head just says I'm fat and disgusting and I fail at everything. I hate feeling like this constantly but I feel like a doctor would look at me and laugh. I dont know what to do anymore ?


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    I'll try and help best I can :P

    You're right- you aren't huge, a size 10-12 is, for a start, lower than average, although that's irrelevant. Everyone's body is happier at different weights. I'm naturally a size 10-12 too- so don't be ashamed Losing weight won't make you happy, okay? I know it seems that way sometimes, and I had to nearly die to realise that, but it's true. You might not believe me, but I'm a million times happier now than I was when I was smaller. Why? Because I learned to love my body, and appreciate what it did for me instead of focusing too much on what it looks like. We're all humans and we all have flaws. You'll get a lot further focusing on fixing the problems with the way you think as opposed to trying to fix your body. Your body isn't the problem. Your head is.

    A doctor won't laugh at you. Everyone has this idea that eating disorders are about weight and they're not. It's a mental disorder, not a physical one. You deserve help and support, please don't be afraid to get it.

    Chin up. <3
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    hey guys i'd love some help here, any is really appreciated...

    i'm a pretty healthy person, never really go to drs (luckily) and am generally in good health

    but one problem i'm getting fed up with is being 'put off' food; for example, say you have a fly/hair in your soup, you wouldn't eat it right? most times i eat i can't stop thinking about these sorts of things that put me off and i really find it difficult to eat sometimes. it's really getting me down, just want to know, it's not abnormal to say not eat something if there's something in it , right?

    thanks
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    (Original post by laurasmileninja)
    I'll try and help best I can :P

    You're right- you aren't huge, a size 10-12 is, for a start, lower than average, although that's irrelevant. Everyone's body is happier at different weights. I'm naturally a size 10-12 too- so don't be ashamed Losing weight won't make you happy, okay? I know it seems that way sometimes, and I had to nearly die to realise that, but it's true. You might not believe me, but I'm a million times happier now than I was when I was smaller. Why? Because I learned to love my body, and appreciate what it did for me instead of focusing too much on what it looks like. We're all humans and we all have flaws. You'll get a lot further focusing on fixing the problems with the way you think as opposed to trying to fix your body. Your body isn't the problem. Your head is.

    A doctor won't laugh at you. Everyone has this idea that eating disorders are about weight and they're not. It's a mental disorder, not a physical one. You deserve help and support, please don't be afraid to get it.

    Chin up. <3
    I'm really scared to go to the doctor though. I feel like I wouldnt be able to speak. I'm just so ashamed :'(. I try to eat normally and then I freak out and throw up or cut. My best friend knows about it is being driven away because she cant cope. I feel like I have nobody. Thank you so much for replying. It really helps to just have someone who knows what I feel like <3
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    (Original post by Anonymous)
    I'm really scared to go to the doctor though. I feel like I wouldnt be able to speak. I'm just so ashamed :'(. I try to eat normally and then I freak out and throw up or cut. My best friend knows about it is being driven away because she cant cope. I feel like I have nobody. Thank you so much for replying. It really helps to just have someone who knows what I feel like <3
    Oh that was me :/
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    Has anyone here been on Olanzapine for recovery from Anorexia Nervosa?

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    My psychiatrist has said that the consultant doctor has decided to take me off Fluoxetine due to the fact that it has had almost no effect on me, and my perscrpition will be changed from Friday when I next see them. Of course, being the person that I am, as soon as I heard the name for Olanzapine I immediately decided to Google it, and it seems the drug is notorious for its weight gain. Now my anxiety about weight gain seems higher than ever
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    JL, I was (and am still taking) Olanzepine.

    It is first and foremost an anti-psychotic drug as opposed to an anti-depressant. That sounds harsh but in reality it just slightly dulls your OMG OMG OMG shriekvoice telling you to "AVOID, RUN, HIDE!!"

    You'll find you initially gain a little, but not for the reason you might think. Truth is, the drug doesn't "nyuk nyuk, fatten you up, evil drugs!!" - but because you literally stop fretting so much over eating normal amounts, and your body takes the opportunity to rebuild your poor wrecked, neglected frame.
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    Ah thanks Toto That is slightly more reassuring than what I've been reading Still terrified of the weight gain prospect though
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    Argh, getting so worked up over nothing and now can't get rid of this negative angry feeling! I ask on another forum about a topic (and mentioned I have an ED), then suddenly i get people derailing the thread and telling me to seek help and quit what I'm doing (when I've already explained my situation).

    i don't know why i'm worked up, maybe it's just the frustration I feel now that I've finally found a diet that is working for me and random people are trying to knock me down !
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    Does anyone else think that sex helps calm negative ED feelings? (not to be crude)
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    (Original post by MelissaJayne)
    Does anyone else think that sex helps calm negative ED feelings? (not to be crude)
    Yep. Whenever I've felt 'fat' and whatnot, sex has always helped. It's the chemicals that are released and also the feeling that someone finds you physically attractive. x
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    (Original post by jazzykinks)
    Yep. Whenever I've felt 'fat' and whatnot, sex has always helped. It's the chemicals that are released and also the feeling that someone finds you physically attractive. x
    Glad I'm not alone in that! I guess it could go either way, you'd either be put off as you don't feel attractive enough..or if you're with someone you trust etc, then you can let that barrier down and just embrace it all. And it really does help. I also find the gym (which I've recently) joined helps. I obviously note all calories burned and replace them with food later as to not lose any weight from it..but it still helps me feel better.
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    (Original post by MelissaJayne)
    Glad I'm not alone in that! I guess it could go either way, you'd either be put off as you don't feel attractive enough..or if you're with someone you trust etc, then you can let that barrier down and just embrace it all. And it really does help. I also find the gym (which I've recently) joined helps. I obviously note all calories burned and replace them with food later as to not lose any weight from it..but it still helps me feel better.
    its all of the endorphins .
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    (Original post by MelissaJayne)
    Does anyone else think that sex helps calm negative ED feelings? (not to be crude)
    Makes me feel worse, but then again I can't understand why my boyfriend would want to be with a hideous, fat lump like me I hear the compliments and I know him wanting me should make me feel good, but I never believe him. Stupid brain.
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    (Original post by Anonymous)
    Makes me feel worse, but then again I can't understand why my boyfriend would want to be with a hideous, fat lump like me I hear the compliments and I know him wanting me should make me feel good, but I never believe him. Stupid brain.
    ^ this.
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    (Original post by MelissaJayne)
    Does anyone else think that sex helps calm negative ED feelings? (not to be crude)
    Yes, yes, many times yes! (did an unintentional innuendo there I see..oh well go me I suppose) Reminds you that as a person who inhabits a body, your point of existence can be comprehensively reduced to reproducing other bodies. It is a fundamental purpose of being alive. AND in tandem to the biology basics, it's FUN times 10 (ED's are obviously rarely fun). Essentially it just makes you more appreciative of the awesomeness one can have in a fully functional body.

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    (Original post by cloppy)
    Yes, yes, many times yes! (did an unintentional innuendo there I see..oh well go me I suppose) Reminds you that as a person who inhabits a body, your point of existence can be comprehensively reduced to reproducing other bodies. It is a fundamental purpose of being alive. AND in tandem to the biology basics, it's FUN times 10 (ED's are obviously rarely fun). Essentially it just makes you more appreciative of the awesomeness one can have in a fully functional body.

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    rep, you go girl hahaha
 
 
 
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