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    Technically I could go back to UEA to do pharmacy again next year. I have a place reserved as I am intercallating, but even though the university IS amazing I don't think I should. I got too messed up last time and pharmacy doesn't seem to be my thing...

    BUT I know I'm going to hear about it's amazingness from you guys anyway when you get in! Get in touch with the ED service as soon as you get in to sort things out, go to the Tesco Express down the road around 8-ish to get the best clearance sales. The Student Union's Coop is vastly overpriced.

    The Union's chocolate cake and carrot cate are AMAZING. The Hot chocolates... not so much. They make a wide variety of smoothies, they kinda taste a little... weird but I know some people who got hooked on the stuff.

    They have SO many clubs and societies! Get into them quickly and sign up to any that catch your interest immediately. They fill up REALLY fast. Shotakon Karate was good, but I missed the chance to try fencing... :[

    Anime society is awesome too. Let out the inner nerd! Everyone is super-close and nice.


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    Bad week.

    Very bad indeed. Purged twice yesterday on a little, didn't purge on the MASSIVE meal I ate though at a restaurant. Been purging nearly every day this week though, and I've already purged today. I KNOW, I AM AWFUL.

    Currently I'm feeliing so lost in the cosmos of things. I don't know what to do with my life! People thought I'd be a photographer so I tried it, but I don't have enough passion to push. I thought of sciences but can't seem to find one I love. Currently looking at food and nutrition.

    Still terrified of the scale.
    Yesterday; 8 stone 1 pound 6 ounces
    Today; 8 stone 1 pound 8 ounces

    I'm weighing too often but can't get that curiosity out of my head. I know I'm still below a BMI of 17 but even thinking of the number seems terrifying. It's almost as if I am sure that if I reached that weight it will all have been fat and 'things that should not be in my body' when I know they should be. SO many conflicting feelings!

    Feeling some pride though! I am finally beginning to see people again, which I had stopped. I have been meeting with some of my friends, I've been to a yugioh tournament (Don't judge me, proud to be nerd ), etc. I know I can pull through this down patch, I just need something to AIM for.
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    (Original post by .snowflake.)
    DD, it'll be fiiiine. If everything goes titties up, you could always have a gap yah, sort out the horrible voice in your head and resit some modules to meet the offer.
    UEA does look very lovely. I've a friend doing Ecology there, she absolutely raves about the place. Because of that i'm going to have a gander round for Chemistry
    GAP YAAAH! Yay definately do! I visited and at first I was like 'I don't like concrete. Ew.' but the atmosphere and the people and the fact there was a sort of Jazz/Indie fusion band (don't ask me how that works!) playing in the square made me happy! Even my disgustingly picky mother liked it!
    I don't even know what it is that makes it so special!
    It was so funny that originally I only wanted to go there because of their reputation for creative writing, I never expected to fall in love with it! I should seriously become a UEA ambassador if I get in haha! And thank you! I have my fingers and toes crossed.
    Good luck with your ASs (hee hee, it reads like ass! / immature) if you haven't finished them all! And I hope you're ok! :hugs:

    (Original post by Cinamon)
    I don't know why UEA is so fantastic compared to the other uni's but I felt exactly the same there. I won't make the grades now that i've become ill again and have come to terms with this, but UEA is just SO SO great with their students!
    Oh hun. :sad: Do UEA know about it? Make sure you inform them and get your GP/Psych to write a note to back it up. They were really lovely when I forwarded them my doctor's note. And do you have many exams left? You might get in anyway even if you *do* miss the grades, UEA are fairly lenient with most subjects apart from really competitive ones. :hugs: The most important thing is getting yourself well- are you getting any support? It's going to be seriously sucky if this stupid ***** ED stops you from going where you want to go. :sad: And this might be a random question and you don't need to answer it on here but do you have a blog?
    I have my fingers crossed for you, both for you to get into UEA and fight this **** illness. You can do this. :jumphug:
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    (Original post by diamonddust)
    GAP YAAAH! Yay definately do! I visited and at first I was like 'I don't like concrete. Ew.' but the atmosphere and the people and the fact there was a sort of Jazz/Indie fusion band (don't ask me how that works!) playing in the square made me happy! Even my disgustingly picky mother liked it!
    I don't even know what it is that makes it so special!
    It was so funny that originally I only wanted to go there because of their reputation for creative writing, I never expected to fall in love with it! I should seriously become a UEA ambassador if I get in haha! And thank you! I have my fingers and toes crossed.
    Good luck with your ASs (hee hee, it reads like ass! / immature) if you haven't finished them all! And I hope you're ok! :hugs:



    Oh hun. :sad: Do UEA know about it? Make sure you inform them and get your GP/Psych to write a note to back it up. They were really lovely when I forwarded them my doctor's note. And do you have many exams left? You might get in anyway even if you *do* miss the grades, UEA are fairly lenient with most subjects apart from really competitive ones. :hugs: The most important thing is getting yourself well- are you getting any support? It's going to be seriously sucky if this stupid ***** ED stops you from going where you want to go. :sad: And this might be a random question and you don't need to answer it on here but do you have a blog?
    I have my fingers crossed for you, both for you to get into UEA and fight this **** illness. You can do this. :jumphug:
    Heyyy. I e mailed UEA a month ago to say that I have become ill which may affect my grades. They asked me to send a doctors note, but my doctor is reluctant to give me one (it's a long story but she doesn't think i'm well enough to go to uni full stop due to depression and anxiety). She won't see me until after my exams now, as she believes it's just the stress of exams doing it, so she won't give me a note until then. There is no support for the ED as when I got better my BMI shot up to 24 and this is the very beginning of the cycle again so I am not underweight yet. Councilling starts on tuesday though. I don't have a blog, no - never really thought about it!

    It would be the best day of my life if I got into UEA, but i'm not holding my breath sadly.

    It would be awsome if we both got into UEA though
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    (Original post by Cinamon)
    Heyyy. I e mailed UEA a month ago to say that I have become ill which may affect my grades. They asked me to send a doctors note, but my doctor is reluctant to give me one (it's a long story but she doesn't think i'm well enough to go to uni full stop due to depression and anxiety). She won't see me until after my exams now, as she believes it's just the stress of exams doing it, so she won't give me a note until then. There is no support for the ED as when I got better my BMI shot up to 24 and this is the very beginning of the cycle again so I am not underweight yet. Councilling starts on tuesday though. I don't have a blog, no - never really thought about it!

    It would be the best day of my life if I got into UEA, but i'm not holding my breath sadly.

    It would be awsome if we both got into UEA though
    BiB: :sigh: This is how I feel about (certain) ED services: :facepalm: :sigh: :rolleyes:
    I do understand they have to prioritise but... they need to realise that people in recovery need specialised support regardless of whether they're underweight or not. Hmmph. Your ED doesn't just disappear once you reach a certain weight threshold/BMI band. I wish it did! *ramble*
    And whether it's the exams or not you're still not in the best position and she could at least write a note to say 'Due to the stress of exams...' or whatever. :dontknow: I guess it's her prerogative though. Good luck with the councilling. When do your exams finish? :hugs: I'll be rooting for you! Do you have an insurance with lower grades?
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    does bullimia ever go away? it was two and a half years and i'm so close to relapsing it's scary...
    i haven't purged yet but i'm scared of weighing myself, i just keep crying for hours on end
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    (Original post by diamonddust)
    BiB: :sigh: This is how I feel about (certain) ED services: :facepalm: :sigh: :rolleyes:
    I do understand they have to prioritise but... they need to realise that people in recovery need specialised support regardless of whether they're underweight or not. Hmmph. Your ED doesn't just disappear once you reach a certain weight threshold/BMI band. I wish it did! *ramble*
    And whether it's the exams or not you're still not in the best position and she could at least write a note to say 'Due to the stress of exams...' or whatever. :dontknow: I guess it's her prerogative though. Good luck with the councilling. When do your exams finish? :hugs: I'll be rooting for you! Do you have an insurance with lower grades?
    It's my fault really, I pretty much refused help the last time round and managed to baloon myself up in the end. It was put down to depression not a seperate illness, and (now) feel pretty mild compared to some of the stories on here. Compete denial though. Thanks :hugs: my last exam is the 24th!!!! Not long to go!!! Can finally concentrate a bit better now the brain chemistry is working again hehe My insurance is BC with 300 ucas points. Which confuses me tbh because 300 ucas points is BBB isn't it? I don't know, so stressful. Hmmm..

    Are you in the middle of exams at the moment?. Ah just seen that you are. What a great attitude towards them! Good luck with them :hugs:
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    (Original post by TotoMimo)
    Hi everyone. My name is Toto, if you'd like to refer to me by my screen name; or Tommy, if you'd like my actual name. Either way, a name is merely a name, just as a tag is merely a tag. And unfortunately, I am tagged many a time.

    I am a 26 year old man. I'm also suffering from anorexia nervosa (restrictive type), obsessive-compulsive disorder, and multiple anxiety disorder.

    The social stigma associated with, especially anorexia, is not as forgiving with men, it seems. I believe it's because of the very erroneous, silly notion that people develop the disorder through a pursuit of vanity. Mine couldn't be further from that notion; psychologists determined my onset was triggered by being an over-achiever of sorts. I have an insatiable urge to complete life goals I set myself; I struggled to get to college, did so, struggled to get a top grade, did so, then struggled to get into university, did so, struggled again to get the best grades, and managed so. Whilst others gave up trying for the perfect job in such an enormously competitive industry - I strived, and I got the perfect job. Now, with nothing on the horizon, I effectively turned to creating silly daily goals - restricting calorie intake, "beating" what I did yesterday, doing one more sit-up, running one more mile. It has ravaged my body to near death at points.

    http://a1.sphotos.ak.fbcdn.net/photo..._6798.jpg?dl=1

    In university, I was a healthy weight, as pictured above. At 5' 7"/8", I weighed in around 125-130lbs. After my problems started, the weight obviously just dropped off to my lowest weight ever - just 91lb. That's a mere 6 stone 7. My muscles atrophied, I could hardly stand, my hair thinned, my concentration waned.

    http://img695.imageshack.us/img695/7...2399000570.jpg

    My days consist of getting up, eating a breakfast of 200 calories, doing around 250 situps, 10 minutes worth of abdominal planks, 300 press-ups, and other various exercises. I eat another meal of fish, steamed vegetables, mushrooms, salad - anything low calorie and filling - later in the day, followed by more exercise. Finally, I go to bed and allow myself a bowl of cereal - my "treat" for the day - and maybe a beer or two whilst I play some videogames. I never break my "calorie cap" of 1500 calories in the day.

    Trying hard, I have been trying to reach that cap, to channel my need to reach goals into a positive. My intention is that I can keep increasing it and reaching the goals in a positive way - one which helps me *gain* weight. It still scares me when the number on the scale goes up as it's synonymous with "losing" against my previous self; but I need to do this in order to *not die*. Which is always a good thing.

    I liken the disorder to a demon on your shoulder, creating a bubble around you. The frustrating thing is you *know* how to get better, but the demon talks you out of it. When you reach for the answer, the bubble stops you. But the bubble is a comfort. It is safe. It is known, accepted, quantifiable.

    With my new methods, I may not have gained much weight (I am just short of 93lb), but I feel a lot stronger day to day and my morale is up. My skin is also less jaundiced and everyone comments I look more full of life:

    http://img84.imageshack.us/img84/479...6853090570.jpg

    It's surprising how quickly your body retains fat and water when you've restricted so long - a terrifying prospect to someone with an eating disorder - but you must stick with it.


    I'd love to open up the floor now to all and any input here into this very diverse topic, to hear perhaps your own stories or any input or advice you can give myself, my peers and anyone else potentially developing one of these insidious conditions.

    All my love to everyone and the absolute best of luck in your own daily battles, regardless of what they may be!
    Tommy, you are truly an inspiration. I really hope you are able to beat this, and live a happy healthy life!
    Love, Shayanne
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    (Original post by diamonddust)
    Good luck with your ASs (hee hee, it reads like ass! / immature) if you haven't finished them all! And I hope you're ok! :hugs:
    Hahaha. They've finished on the 27th May, which was nice. Two weeks of bugger all before going back on Thursday.

    Has not been a good week. mum's fault, mainly, and then a few mindless comments for one of the girls in my room. She's sat there eating a full bag of kettle chips to herself, then moaning 'She's fat' and hows she's 'Going on a diet after my exams are finished'. Mum buying things from M&S with palm oil in i.e. most of their pastries, offering them to me, I accept, then as I'm about to finish the last bite, telling me its got palm oil in and how I've 'gone against my morals etc' and trying to make me feel full on guilty about it.

    Seriously cannot cope with 5A2's. Atleast Gen. studies is being used as time to prepare for UCAS. I'm buggered if my predicted A2s are less than AAB, otherwise I wont be getting an offer for chem from anywhere that i want to do. And I really,really want to do well in German. Can't see that happening </rant>
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    does bullimia ever go away? it was two and a half years and i'm so close to relapsing it's scary...
    i haven't purged yet but i'm scared of weighing myself, i just keep crying for hours on end
    :hugs: You don't need to weigh yourself hun, in fact in the state of mind you're in it will probably be harmful. Is there anyone you can turn to for support?
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    It's my fault really, I pretty much refused help the last time round and managed to baloon myself up in the end. It was put down to depression not a seperate illness, and (now) feel pretty mild compared to some of the stories on here. Compete denial though. Thanks :hugs: my last exam is the 24th!!!! Not long to go!!! Can finally concentrate a bit better now the brain chemistry is working again hehe My insurance is BC with 300 ucas points. Which confuses me tbh because 300 ucas points is BBB isn't it? I don't know, so stressful. Hmmm..

    Are you in the middle of exams at the moment?
    Comparison is not allowed! You're always going to feel like you're not as bad as someone else. You're right, it is denial. In reality, even going through this a little bit (or whatever! :rolleyes:) is too much and more than anyone should have to go through. I don't know if that makes any sense. I go through that too. I always think because I didn't get to X weight or because I didn't have X happen to me, I'm not really ill in comparison to other people. It's all a messed up ED construct. I think 300 points is BBC? I don't know haha, I always get confused with points! Numbers are NOT my forte! :rolleyes:
    Yup, I have 3 exams from tomorrow and then I have 5 days to revise for Psychology. Then FREEDOM! It's just a shame I have to get through the exams first. :rolleyes:
    At least they come fast! Monday, Wednesday and Thursday.
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    Hahaha. They've finished on the 27th May, which was nice. Two weeks of bugger all before going back on Thursday.

    Has not been a good week. mum's fault, mainly, and then a few mindless comments for one of the girls in my room. She's sat there eating a full bag of kettle chips to herself, then moaning 'She's fat' and hows she's 'Going on a diet after my exams are finished'. Mum buying things from M&S with palm oil in i.e. most of their pastries, offering them to me, I accept, then as I'm about to finish the last bite, telling me its got palm oil in and how I've 'gone against my morals etc' and trying to make me feel full on guilty about it.

    Seriously cannot cope with 5A2's. Atleast Gen. studies is being used as time to prepare for UCAS. I'm buggered if my predicted A2s are less than AAB, otherwise I wont be getting an offer for chem from anywhere that i want to do. And I really,really want to do well in German. Can't see that happening </rant>
    5 A2s? Whoa. *levels of genius I can't comphrehend* There's always ONE subject that's the bane of your academic existence isn't there? I'm sure you'll get the predictions you need!

    People talking about their weight and diet is always so so so triggering for me so :hugs:
    I remember staying with my friend and my friend being on this carb free diet and telling me how little she'd eaten while she was telling me I needed to eat because I needed to gain weight and she didn't. :sigh:

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    Just out of interest, are you a vegan/veggie? It's so difficult to avoid palm oil, it seems to be in absolutely everything so please don't let your mum make you feel bad. I was similarly horrified when I checked the back of something I'd bought and eaten and saw palm oil in it, I was like 'I'm contributing to rainforests being destroyed and animals dying. :cry:' and I felt even more guilty than usual after eating. I'm not even a vegan anymore. I was a vegan for about 4 months and then it confused my brain and made me feel weird because I was avoiding food for non ED reasons and then my ED jumped in and it all ended up getting horribly confusing and I didn't know if my motivations were ED motivated or not so I went back to vegetarianism. I still feel beyond horrible about it morally but I still stick to the things I ate when I was vegan, I just don't avoid things if they have eggs and milk in it anymore. I figured I can't go on a one woman crusade about animal products and the environment if I'm not even looking after myself properly. I'm sort of a bit apathetic about it now so I guess my motivations weren't as ethical as I thought they were. No disrespect intended but what the hell is up with your mother? Mine constantly asks me 'Isn't it time you started eating meat?'. She doesn't seem to understand the concept of vegetarianism and she's had years to get used to it. When I was a vegan it was unbearable. She kept giving me food and lying to me that it was vegan and then letting slip it wasn't.

    Parents, eh?
    :hugs: Take care of yourself.
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    :hugs: You don't need to weigh yourself hun, in fact in the state of mind you're in it will probably be harmful. Is there anyone you can turn to for support?
    there's no one. almost know one knows. my boyfriend does and he's been so lovely to me about it but he doesn't get it. he keeps saying he'll be angry with me if i actually do throw up, but the more i try not to the worse it is as i keep eating then get more down about it because i can't get rid of it.
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    Comparison is not allowed! You're always going to feel like you're not as bad as someone else. You're right, it is denial. In reality, even going through this a little bit (or whatever! :rolleyes:) is too much and more than anyone should have to go through. I don't know if that makes any sense. I go through that too. I always think because I didn't get to X weight or because I didn't have X happen to me, I'm not really ill in comparison to other people. It's all a messed up ED construct. I think 300 points is BBC? I don't know haha, I always get confused with points! Numbers are NOT my forte! :rolleyes:
    Yup, I have 3 exams from tomorrow and then I have 5 days to revise for Psychology. Then FREEDOM! It's just a shame I have to get through the exams first. :rolleyes:
    At least they come fast! Monday, Wednesday and Thursday.
    Thank you so much for that :hugs: good luck!
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    5 A2s? Whoa. *levels of genius I can't comphrehend* There's always ONE subject that's the bane of your academic existence isn't there? I'm sure you'll get the predictions you need!

    People talking about their weight and diet is always so so so triggering for me so :hugs:
    I remember staying with my friend and my friend being on this carb free diet and telling me how little she'd eaten while she was telling me I needed to eat because I needed to gain weight and she didn't. :sigh:

    About palm oil:

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    Just out of interest, are you a vegan/veggie? It's so difficult to avoid palm oil, it seems to be in absolutely everything so please don't let your mum make you feel bad. I was similarly horrified when I checked the back of something I'd bought and eaten and saw palm oil in it, I was like 'I'm contributing to rainforests being destroyed and animals dying. :cry:' and I felt even more guilty than usual after eating. I'm not even a vegan anymore. I was a vegan for about 4 months and then it confused my brain and made me feel weird because I was avoiding food for non ED reasons and then my ED jumped in and it all ended up getting horribly confusing and I didn't know if my motivations were ED motivated or not so I went back to vegetarianism. I still feel beyond horrible about it morally but I still stick to the things I ate when I was vegan, I just don't avoid things if they have eggs and milk in it anymore. I figured I can't go on a one woman crusade about animal products and the environment if I'm not even looking after myself properly. I'm sort of a bit apathetic about it now so I guess my motivations weren't as ethical as I thought they were. No disrespect intended but what the hell is up with your mother? Mine constantly asks me 'Isn't it time you started eating meat?'. She doesn't seem to understand the concept of vegetarianism and she's had years to get used to it. When I was a vegan it was unbearable. She kept giving me food and lying to me that it was vegan and then letting slip it wasn't.

    Parents, eh?
    :hugs: Take care of yourself.
    Well, 1 A2 is gen studies, which we wont do again until Sept, so its tenchnically 4 academic A2's atm. Dropping Maths. CAn'T WAIT!! I'd like to go vegan, but it'll make the voice in my head worse/ Dad'll assume I'm doing it for Ed related reasons. It is difficult to avoid it, its in the bread the Co-op use in their premade sandwiches, most pastries from M&S, some margarines contain it, the 2 finger kitkats do, but the kitkat chunkies don't.
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    (Original post by diamonddust)
    English Lit with Creative Writing. I sort of wish I'd applied for straight English for my other options though and at different places. I'm not sure Creative Writing is worth doing anywhere else apart from UEA- except maybe Warwick. I am ridiculously excited and I will be heartbroken if I don't get in.
    You're hoping to do English? You are officially awesome!
    Thank you, good luck for your exams too! I'm sure you'll get where you want to be.
    *has a new found hatred for Dawkins after finding out he's part of that utter farce of a university college ... and what is up with Grayling being Master? I thought he was an egalitarian and believed in equal opportunities for all? Hmmph* /rant
    I'm actually reading over atheism right now and it's a bit of a panic revision thing because I haven't actually studied it properly (or at all!) because my teacher said we didn't have time but I refuse to do religious language or experience in the exam because I'll die of boredom. I'm sure learning it is pointless anyway because the Ontological argument HAS to come up but... yeah. It's pretty interesting.
    And no problem, safety first m'dear! :hugs:
    Definitely have some lunch! You have the perfect justification for the stupid pooey piece of poo- exams! :rolleyes: (I hate that we need to justify eating!) :yes:
    It feels weird being so hyper! I literally jumped out of bed this morning. I'm never like this before an exam (actually, I'm never like this... ever!), I'm usually oh 'Oh **** I don't know anything and I'm going to fail' but I'm weirdly fine about it. Not because I've revised enough but because I just have this weird... faith that things will be ok. Even if they're not and I fail everything. I just feel like after the year I've had my A levels are the least of my worries and they're not worth worrying about! Totally unlike me but I kinda like it!

    Wow. Who is this and what's happened to DD?
    Aha I am loving this hyper optimism! I was like that yesterday morning, I got up and ran downstairs and gave my brother a hug, he was baffled haha I know what you mean though. And I just had peanut butter on toast and a cup of tea and an apple, and I don't even feel that guilty

    Yesss all of those people who are setting it up are meant to be liberal socialists, yet it's the most elite establishment ever! So much hate for Dawkins. Plus I've only learnt three topics for this exam (rel. experience, nml/kant/virtue ethics, life after death) because my teacher didn't even suggest we needed to know more than that and then he disappeared so I've been teaching myself/my class so if they don't all come up we're all totally screwed. But I'm pretty confident regardless, haha We are English cool kids, we must be fine! Also I have sooo much admiration for you doing creative writing, I really wanted to but I though UEA was the only really good place so I thought it was too much of a gamble haha. But obviously your gamble paid off, nice one
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    I just had peanut butter on toast and a cup of tea and an apple, and I don't even feel that guilty
    :nutcase: :hugs:

    That's awesome
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    Can I just say: I love you all and I'm proud of every single one of you. I'm feeling ridiculously emotional right now!
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    (Original post by diamonddust)
    Wow, I didn't know they had ED services! Thanks for the link hun. There's no self catered accommodation at UEA. I'm going to work really hard on everything during the summer. How are you doing? :hugs:
    xx
    :hugs: Also go for a visit to the GP as soon as you go there so you can get on a waiting list for NHS services/some form of talk therapy etc.

    Oh wow, that's a little unusual! Best of luck for the summer (and results - please don't freak out as much as I did, it'll all work out!) :hugs:

    I'm doing okay, thanks. You?
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    Aha I am loving this hyper optimism! I was like that yesterday morning, I got up and ran downstairs and gave my brother a hug, he was baffled haha I know what you mean though. And I just had peanut butter on toast and a cup of tea and an apple, and I don't even feel that guilty

    Yesss all of those people who are setting it up are meant to be liberal socialists, yet it's the most elite establishment ever! So much hate for Dawkins. Plus I've only learnt three topics for this exam (rel. experience, nml/kant/virtue ethics, life after death) because my teacher didn't even suggest we needed to know more than that and then he disappeared so I've been teaching myself/my class so if they don't all come up we're all totally screwed. But I'm pretty confident regardless, haha We are English cool kids, we must be fine! Also I have sooo much admiration for you doing creative writing, I really wanted to but I though UEA was the only really good place so I thought it was too much of a gamble haha. But obviously your gamble paid off, nice one
    To use London slang: Brap brap! That's brilliant! :hugs:
    Are you on Edexcel too? I should probably get back to revision now but *whispers* I think my brain is broken. Thank you! I'd seriously convinced myself I'd get rejected. If you search around on TSR you'll see me going 'HOW many applicants? OMG I'm not going to get in!' So glad I did. I keep feeling like I'm not good enough and everyone will be better writers than me and because I haven't written in so long (thanks exams/workload/ED!) I'm going to be rusty but those thoughts need to STFU. Just have to pray I meet the offer! I was saying on other thread that this year has made me start praying and I don't even believe in God. I keep making bribes with the universe and sort of going 'Hey God, I don't actually believe in you but if you help me get my 3As and stick an A* or two in there as well, I'll seriously start believing!' What's your firm choice and what grades do you need? *is being totally nosy*
    It makes me LOL so hard that Grayling's acting like a victim and whining about how everyone's 'persecuting' him. It's like, dude you sold out! At least all the other extortionist people say that's what they are! Did you read what Dawkins said on his website? He was like 'It's the brainchild of A.C Grayling, not me.' LMAO. You know you're on a bit of a sinking ship when your colleague is distancing himself from the criticism, to be fair though, Dawkins is generally a bit of a poo. It's not even like any of those academics are actually going to BE there because they're all affiliated with other universities. Might as well save yourself some money and go to Oxford/Cambridge/UCL any decent uni with decent academic staff!
    Wow, I rant a lot haha! Sorry! Anything to put off looking at RS.
    *goes to revise Ontological Argument for the millionth time*
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    :hugs: Also go for a visit to the GP as soon as you go there so you can get on a waiting list for NHS services/some form of talk therapy etc.

    Oh wow, that's a little unusual! Best of luck for the summer (and results - please don't freak out as much as I did, it'll all work out!) :hugs:

    I'm doing okay, thanks. You?
    I'll definitely make sure I do that. Thank you so much. I'm okish, getting slowly back on track. Feel a bit sick because of the prospect of exams which is making it even more difficult to eat enough but I'm trying.
    Results are scary. Scratch that, terrifying! I'm determined not to spend my summer worrying about the results. I can't change it once it's done! Thank you! :hugs:

    I really do love this thread when we're all positive!
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    I'll definitely make sure I do that. Thank you so much. I'm okish, getting slowly back on track. Feel a bit sick because of the prospect of exams which is making it even more difficult to eat enough but I'm trying.
    Results are scary. Scratch that, terrifying! I'm determined not to spend my summer worrying about the results. I can't change it once it's done! Thank you! :hugs:

    I really do love this thread when we're all positive!
    :hugs: Try to remember that your brain needs feeding in order to remember all of the information that you're forcing into it - food will help you do well.

    They are, but as you say once the exams are over, you can't change anything so try to enjoy yourself (and start getting used to really long summer holidays :teehee:)
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    I really do love this thread when we're all positive!
    :yep: :hugs:

    I'm about to eat a fairly large meal. I'm nervous, but think I can do it :)
 
 
 
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