URGH.Why is it that with a mental associative disorder that as soon as someone says one thing, a great day can become a dire day?
I've been on a positive spree the past wee while so I feel I am allowed to rant a little.
I declared to my friends and family I had met that 9 stone goal weight to then be referred to the new medical team which can up my dose of medicine.
Then one of my cousins comments, "9 stone?! You look loads more than that. I'm 9 and a half and look much less than you. Still, well done."
Wow, a real compliment, right?
I can see where she is coming from however. When you gain weight rapidly as I have a few times throughout the recovery period, you accumulate weight rapidly in one place wherever you are genetically predisposed to store it before it goes around your body to settle. This is nothing astounding nor new. But my "places" are my gut and my face. My face and belly go extremely rotund. This is just where I must suck it up and accept in the short term, I will look and feel bloated and swollen.
I will say however, last time I gained several pounds in few weeks, the distribution started within the month. The only issue I have is that my skeleton is too brittle to do any recorded exercise - INCLUDING no-impact (swimming, etc).
The thing is, my mum pointed out something really interesting. She's the most honest out of my whole family with me - and said "You can tell it's temporary because your cheeks are puffing, but your eyes are still sunken. When it's temporary weight, your face is more even. So don't fret about than, son. When it evens out your face will even out."- this is better advice to hear than "there there, no, you look fine!!" - you need logical support. This is logical support, and I know it's true because it happened to me before if you recall. I got huge swollen cheeks, then they disappeared.
I have no shame nor nothing to hide, so here is me last night in the gaming room , sporting hamster-cheeked acceptance:
http://i1125.photobucket.com/albums/l583/totomimotommy/temporary_zps751e6afa.jpg?t=1374349674I accept it will die down after a short while, but the knowledge it's going to keep getting more harsh with all these meds - steroids, alendronic acid, morphine-based painkillers - I have to hang on to the notion that it is TEMPORARY.
My only solution? Suck it up. Deal with it. You will look swollen for a while. This is how you atone for how you ravaged your body!