I am Facebook friends with Toto and it seems like he is still working hard with recovery and doing well. Though I think he is still in a lot of pain due to the damage his ED has done to his body (bones etc.).
Hi Riku. I wish I could say that my absence has been down to freedom from the ED but for me it's actually been due to despondence and to some extent shame. I binge and purge every day and have gained a great deal of weight because it's very painful and I often end up not being able to purge quite a lot of it (though I am getting better at it which scares me). I am not restricting alongside it because I don't want to have this eating disorder, so that doesn't help with the weight situation but I am doing my best. I feel like it is only a matter of time (aka soon), until I stop eating completely (apart from dinner)... because everything else feels unsafe. If I let myself have even a little bit during the day I just can't stop.
So yeah. My life is kind of falling apart right now... which is fun with 2nd year university exams next month..
My ED seems to have morphed from an acute way of dealing with specific things (and looking back now, very much a choice)... to an uncontrollable obsession and something that actually controls me.
I'm not sure what to say except I hope all's well now and second year exams haven't been too tough. Hopefully with them out of the way you will feel a little less need to control things like this :-) but I know it's never quite that simple.
thoughts with everyone on the thread :-)