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    (Original post by squiff93)
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    alright, i need to make it and work everything out, i know that i'm going to struggle today because thinking i was being brave i had cake for breakfast - but its stupid its just thrown this whole day out of sync because now i'm missing lunch and probably just gna have a bit of lettuce and some rice crackers if anything for dinner. i might do the excel file today with a plan of everything and start tomrorow?
    Yes do that. But be VERY clear of what you are going to eat okay so that it doesnt go all messy.

    http://giantfossilizedarmadillo.com/diy-recovery/so-what-can-you-eat/


    Use this link to help plan. Or anything else useful.

    I'll be expecting an email of an excell file at 9.30pm at the latest. xxx

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    (Original post by Destroyviruses)
    Yes do that. But be VERY clear of what you are going to eat okay so that it doesnt go all messy.

    http://giantfossilizedarmadillo.com/...t-can-you-eat/

    Use this link to help plan. Or anything else useful.

    I'll be expecting an email of an excell file at 9.30pm at the latest. xxx

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    thanks, i'll try my best
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    (Original post by squiff93)
    thanks, i'll try my best

    The link for the flash cards on "DIY Recovery " is good too!

    Have a lovely day , dear. xx
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    thanks i'm making such a MESS of this, much harder than i anticipated xxxx
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    (Original post by Destroyviruses)
    The link for the flash cards on "DIY Recovery " is good too!

    Have a lovely day , dear. xx
    i can't do it i've given up just sobbing my eyes out because its not working and i can't do it

    i'm just hopeless

    xxx
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    Can't believe how much weight I'm gaining! I can't lie, it's very scary and freaks me out a bit sometimes, but mostly I'm really really proud of myself! I'm about halfway there now, not far to go until the "normal" weight for my height/age. I've worked SO hard for this. Not gonna screw it up.


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    (Original post by squiff93)
    i can't do it i've given up just sobbing my eyes out because its not working and i can't do it

    i'm just hopeless

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    YOU ARE NOT hopeless! You just need a little helping hand for a bit then you'll be flying all over.


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    (Original post by souldoubt)
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    Can't believe how much weight I'm gaining! I can't lie, it's very scary and freaks me out a bit sometimes, but mostly I'm really really proud of myself! I'm about halfway there now, not far to go until the "normal" weight for my height/age. I've worked SO hard for this. Not gonna screw it up.


    :dance: :excited:
    Congratulations!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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    (Original post by Kebabbi)
    Thank you so much for that blog, what an inspiring person! I do have one question - the bit when she says that people who get to a BMI of over 20 have a much lower chance of relapse than people who stop increasing their weight below 20, is that true? I know BMI is subjective and often irrelevant but to be at 20... straight away I'm thinking 'well that bit just doesn't apply to me,' am I being crazy? Problem is I do know all the logical stuff, like about the brain, I just skive off putting into practice. But you're right, it is about being honest with myself. I'm doing a bit better now, I had some pasta tonight. My mum has started giving me this kind of glazed-eye sad look over the past few months which is in many ways more unbearable than the constant glaring/yelling/slapping she's resorted to for many years!

    Aaanyway, I think I'm going to go back to doing food plans and diaries and hopefully that way I can keep an 'honest' track on things!

    Spoiler bit: :hugs: for doing so well and gaining the weight, :hugs: for still feeling bad, :hugs: for tomorrow being better. I will be so so proud of you if you can work through this bit, I've tried recovery so many times and from past experience that bit is definitely always the hardest bit - and therefore always the bit when I've given up! But if you can work through it I know it does get better. Please stick at it, you're amazing :rolleyes:
    I was wondering about the BMI of 20 bit too. I'd like to believe it's true but I really don't know either! And :jumphug: SO proud of you for the pasta (and not giving up! You're far too awesome to succumb to the **** in your brain and it would be such a disgusting waste!) You can do this, bit by bit. :love:
    And thank you. I'm forcing myself to do things because it seems like my natural instinct when I feel like this is to hide away and not do anything. So on the agenda for this week is cinema with my friend, babysitting my sister's friend's daughter and general fangirling over Glee.

    (Original post by Kebabbi)
    Oh my goodness, just got to the 'Relapse Prevention Plan.' This girl is actually incredible :')
    I know. I can't even conceive having strength like that.

    (Original post by squiff93)
    i can't do it i've given up just sobbing my eyes out because its not working and i can't do it

    i'm just hopeless

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    You CAN do it. You're not hopeless, you're wonderful and you're just having a very VERY hard time at the moment. :hugs: Never give up. If you give up- game over. You have to keep fighting. You owe it to yourself and none of us on here are going to let you give up because like it or not, you're stuck with us. You might not be able to beat it on your own but with all of us behind you, the pooey piece of poo in your head will eventually realise that you're, that we're stronger than it ever will be.
    (Original post by souldoubt)
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    Can't believe how much weight I'm gaining! I can't lie, it's very scary and freaks me out a bit sometimes, but mostly I'm really really proud of myself! I'm about halfway there now, not far to go until the "normal" weight for my height/age. I've worked SO hard for this. Not gonna screw it up.


    :dance: :excited:
    :jumphug: That's ******* amazing!
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    (Original post by drbluebox)
    Hope I dont get neg repped like most of my posts(for no real reason either!) but today havent eaten yet but as per usual drank a lot of diet cola(used to be regular but since I started diet I feel a little less crappy)

    So as the evening gets later I will end up in binge mode again like last night had 1/3 a baguette at lunchtime then in evening ate a large plate of mince(with nothing else on plate) then a large slice of cake.

    I just never physcially feel hungry till the evening but feel psychologically hungry all day so thats where the imbalance with me lies since when the 2 feelings are in sync I go in binge mode.
    Hi, I'm also suffering from binge eating...well its been relapsing for few years now but now that I'm going through a bit of emotional moment, my binge eating has come back...
    ...help....
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    (Original post by Omgsugar185)
    Hi, I'm also suffering from binge eating...well its been relapsing for few years now but now that I'm going through a bit of emotional moment, my binge eating has come back...

    I just ate five choc chip cookies half a jar of nutella, 1/2 houmous, 100g of smoked salmon, choc bar (304 kcals) and goat cheese...I feel sick and I tried to throw up but I can't so I need to purge tomorrow, the day after tomorrow and possibly on thursday...help....
    I dont want to piss on your parade/ appear to be backseat modding, but can you please put what you have/ havent eaten + references to binging in spoiler tags, because quite a few of us find things like that immensly triggering.
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    (Original post by souldoubt)
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    Can't believe how much weight I'm gaining! I can't lie, it's very scary and freaks me out a bit sometimes, but mostly I'm really really proud of myself! I'm about halfway there now, not far to go until the "normal" weight for my height/age. I've worked SO hard for this. Not gonna screw it up.


    :dance: :excited:
    You are ****ing amazing.

    You ROCK. Even if your eyes are an abyss of poo. Hahahaah. (private joke )
    love ya x
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    (Original post by .snowflake.)
    I dont want to piss on your parade/ appear to be backseat modding, but can you please put what you have/ havent eaten + references to binging in spoiler tags, because quite a few of us find things like that immensly triggering.
    sorry... didn't know...
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    (Original post by Omgsugar185)
    Hi, I'm also suffering from binge eating...well its been relapsing for few years now but now that I'm going through a bit of emotional moment, my binge eating has come back...
    ...help....
    Do you go through periods of starving and bingeing or normal eating and then bingeing?

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    Going to tell my doctor tomorrow. I expect her to laugh at me, as she is all slim and blah blah.... but... i'm doing it! I will!
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    (Original post by Cinamon)
    Do you go through periods of starving and bingeing or normal eating and then bingeing?

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    Going to tell my doctor tomorrow. I expect her to laugh at me, as she is all slim and blah blah.... but... i'm doing it! I will!
    Yes...binging followed by starving for the past 2 years but before, I used to just binge and didn't think of starving so I gained weight and I hated myself and went really depressed...

    What are you planning to tell your doctor? Are you anorexic/bullimic? I'm not sure if I am...but whenever I am stressed, I resort to food and since all of my friends have gone home and I can only go home in 3 days, I'm all alone at home and am really depressed...
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    (Original post by Omgsugar185)
    Yes...binging followed by starving for the past 2 years but before, I used to just binge and didn't think of starving so I gained weight and I hated myself and went really depressed...

    What are you planning to tell your doctor? Are you anorexic/bullimic? I'm not sure if I am...but whenever I am stressed, I resort to food and since all of my friends have gone home and I can only go home in 3 days, I'm all alone at home and am really depressed...
    My problem is that I have no idea what I am and most of the time tell myself i'm not anything. I just know it's not healthy and is now causing memory loss, confusion, spacing out and collpasing.

    Well binging is common if you are starving, as your body needs food. So I guess the goal is to find a healthy compromise with food and control emotions in other ways. Easier said than done obviously, but doable.
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    thanks it means a lot. :hugs:

    can't really say much at the moment, i'm so hot, just boiling and feel uncomfortable and in pain
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    (Original post by Cinamon)
    My problem is that I have no idea what I am and most of the time tell myself i'm not anything. I just know it's not healthy and is now causing memory loss, confusion, spacing out and collpasing.

    Well binging is common if you are starving, as your body needs food. So I guess the goal is to find a healthy compromise with food and control emotions in other ways. Easier said than done obviously, but doable.
    Oh my god, are you okay? You are suffering from memory loss? What are your symptoms? Are you binge eating too or are you really not eating food? I feel like I can't control myself and I am panicking at the moment...having no one around me isn't helping at all...I don't know what to do...I should see a doctor as well but he's back home...not here...
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    (Original post by Omgsugar185)
    Oh my god, are you okay? You are suffering from memory loss? What are your symptoms? Are you binge eating too or are you really not eating food? I feel like I can't control myself and I am panicking at the moment...having no one around me isn't helping at all...I don't know what to do...I should see a doctor as well but he's back home...not here...
    I always find that if i'm panicking, going for a stroll with some music in and just relaxing somewhere nice, like a park or river for a few hours calms me down. Is it possible for you to do that?

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    As toto said, your brain needs about 600 calories to function and if you are getting less, or in my case, half of that, your brain isn't going to do too well.
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    (Original post by Cinamon)
    I always find that if i'm panicking, going for a stroll with some music in and just relaxing somewhere nice, like a park or river for a few hours calms me down. Is it possible for you to do that?

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    As toto said, your brain needs about 600 calories to function and if you are getting less, or in my case, half of that, your brain isn't going to do too well.
    I don't want to be seen by anybody though...

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    I feel so fat that I don't want to be seen by anyone...and I feel like I don't deserve to live...and I'm going to be alone for 3 full days...I don't know what to do. And because I am purging, I am going to be so stressed and angry tomorrow and the next day and there is NOTHING to look forward to...
 
 
 
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