So I went back home again from uni, and finnaly told my parents, whom I've never spoken that freely with, that I am gay. Basicaly they went mad.. They are not letting me stay there! This sucks gotta pack up and leave again and this time it looks like i wont be coming back. Im staying with my aunt who is being really good, I can talk to her more than my parents. Ive still to say goodbye to all my friends, i left in such a rush and can't say when I'll be there again as Im at uni miles from home and without somewhere to stay it'll be hard. I think really its time to turn around and just turn my back on parents and everything.
Everythings changing now when I least want it to!! christmas! Its like everything is a blur when I turn around all out of my control the world just is moving allong without me but Im not mobile.
Im just going to start back at this life (at uni) hopefully to stretch myself back into the vibe of things, I have friends here, what does it matter what my parents thing. Really I'm waking up to say I've tried to tell them, instead of waking up to another tv guide-esque excuse to cover up my true sexuality. although Im left with with mixed feelins crazy and wild and sad (sometimes I wanna scream out lound) Im just happy that somone loves me and although everythings chaniging, everywhere I go he'll be there with me and even if it is all out of my control, it will be ok.