paranoia

today i went into town and i think many people don;t like me, i saw people i knew and some stopped and asked if i was okies and what i was upt to and stuff!! and i feel all dizzy and like im going to scream if i am on my own for to long!!

i couldn't help but feel there was something behind them asking me like another reason not just out of curiousity!!

most people i knew stopped specking to me as my life went slowly down hill and i had no money and none even bothered to ask if i was okies!!

my mum thinks i am paranoid i get worried that people i have never spoken to in my life walking past won;t like me for a spilt second as they walk past me, and i get the feeling people think im dirty and wrong, ive tried my best to please everyone and stayed out of the way of everyone for 4-5 months now!! by not going out to the same places!!

i feel terrible! do i sound like a werido i don;t understand why everyone is against me after months and months of loyal friendship the first sign of me being unhappy and people bugger off and act like they never met me in the first place!!

people on here have said 'i think you are very hard on yourself' i have to be to stay thinking one day i will go back to the old me who had tones of mates who went out all the time!!!
in shops i say things like 'oh no i look rough, that will look poo on me, it will make me look like a tramp' and nasty things about myself and not even reliase and my mum gets annoyed and people give me funny looks!!

do you think its just a part of being unhappy or will that be my life from now on (miserable spinster, who will grow old with cats and smell like wee)!!

i hate it i wanna get back to normal and i won;t let people get close to me i don;t trust anyone in this world, am i being totally stupid,

Reply 1

IzzTheGreat

10

That sounds like it must be very tough to cope with, and it's not something anyone here can help much with. I'd advise going to see your GP about it; it sounds like some form of counselling might help you to relax a bit :smile:

Reply 2

Laursy

OP

10

yer thanx i sometimes don;t even feel relaxed in my own house!!

its totally bonkers im proberly going crazy i have to get a life and meet new people and learn to accept people will treat me like dirt and will walk all over me (i never expected them to) maybe i was to niave and happy with people liking me and trusting me i think it goes all the way back to not being able to be close to people and calll them by there names back in primary school!!!
i feel sick when people stand to close to me who i don;t know or trust!! like on the train i wouldn;t let anyone sit next to me or ill feel like id not get out of the train and be trapped!!

god i must be mental thanx for your advise ill defo go and see someone about it!!

Reply 3

IzzTheGreat

10

Laursy

yer thanx i sometimes don;t even feel relaxed in my own house!!

its totally bonkers im proberly going crazy i have to get a life and meet new people and learn to accept people will treat me like dirt and will walk all over me (i never expected them to) maybe i was to niave and happy with people liking me and trusting me i think it goes all the way back to not being able to be close to people and calll them by there names back in primary school!!!
i feel sick when people stand to close to me who i don;t know or trust!! like on the train i wouldn;t let anyone sit next to me or ill feel like id not get out of the train and be trapped!!

god i must be mental thanx for your advise ill defo go and see someone about it!!

Not at all! Don't say that. I know how you feel, because I feel the same in certain specific situations.
I hope that things get better :smile:

Feel free to IM me if you want to talk about anything.

Reply 4

Laursy

OP

10

Not at all! Don't say that. I know how you feel, because I feel the same in certain specific situations.
I hope that things get better Feel free to IM me if you want to talk about anything.

i feel stupid not trusting me nearest and dearest,

thanx hun!!
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