How to redeem myself

Hey, well tonight im having a really bad night, and just need some advice from you guys as to how on earth im gonna redeem myself from my stupidity.

Well, to cut a long story short, basically i was feelin a bit **** tonight, im really bored at the moment with school and just feel stuck in a rut, and it was gettin to me a lot more tonight for some reason. So i came on Msn, and started speakin to my ex, we broke up quite recently cos he doesnt have time for a relationship with the stress of uni. He was going out clubbing tonight which i suppose sparked me off, but basically i started gettin into an argument with him, it wasnt even an argument,but i was just asking silly questions. Like if he was happier single and if he even missed me etc. I dont know why i was asking, i suppose i wanted him to say how rubbish life was without me, even though i knew deep down he wouldnt say that. He got angry at me though, because its not the first time ive said things about our break up and he keeps telling me i need to drop it. Then he just stopped talking and a while later i apologised, he went offline not long after that, obviously to go away out. I txt him a while later just saying i hope we can forget it and i was sorry for being an idiot. He hasnt txt me back though, so is clearly still annoyed at me. It's also not good because im going to a concert with him on Monday.
Secondly, I was also speaking to other people online and started talkin to someone I sometimes talk to. Sometimes he asks me advice etc, so i thought id ask him some advice. However he isnt very mature and is fine on his own but immature when with his friends. So i just started into a rant about how i didnt know what was wrong with me/why guys that get close to me run away. And I even mentioned my old ex boyfriend from a long time ago, who i really dont have feelings for any more, but i just thought id use him as an example. Then I find out all his friends are there and are viewing the conversation, including people who are good mates with my ex. I'm so embarassed about it. I looked like an idiot because I was speaking about things that really are quite personal. I dont know how i can redeem myself from it. I see a lot of the people every day at school and our social groups sometimes even mix when going on nights out. They are quite immature and would generally make fun of me for this sort of thing.
I just basically feel Ive made a big idiot of myself with a lot of people tonight, and dont know how Im going to make people forget about it. Especially my two ex boyfriends... one of which is very annoyed at me just now and the other is going to think i still have feelings for him.
Sorry, i just needed to get some advice of people and see if things are as bad as i think they are.
Thanks

Reply 1

AT82

I felt really bad earlier this evening. My mate came round and he was fairly shocked how depressed I looked. He didn't stay long but encouraged me to go out tomorrow.

I then decided to take a long break from my computer and I felt better. Its probably a mild form of depression.

A lot of people feel down at this time of year as Christmas can be hard for people and the weather does not help things. If you feel like this a lot then I suggest you see a doctor but if its every now and then its very common in young adults so try not to worry too much about it.

Reply 2

Ferrus

Anonymous

Sorry, i just needed to get some advice of people and see if things are as bad as i think they are.
Thanks

Oh I have admitted to far worse things online while drunk. Worse was a time when this guy and this girl had this same display pic and I started to say what I really thought to this guy, that one was pretty bad :p:

But people forget. A new highlight, topic of conversation will soon relegate this event into the distant memory. It's just hard for you to see that as everyone is naturally more senstive to events around them.

Reply 3

SunburnedCactus

One of my sisters friends had some debacle involving the same MSN problem, where it turned out the person she was mouthing off about was also reading the conversation. You never know who you're really talking to...

Reply 4

-TMG-

You're a bit like my ex. She would ask me all the time do I miss her etc so I stopped talking to her. Well actually I told her I had nothing to say to her (when she asked me why I dont talk to her anymore) and she took the hint and said she wasnt going to bother me again. She was crazy, very insecure etc...

Anyway I dont know how you can redeem yourself I mean I had a really embarrassing thing happen to me, I thought my life was over lol (it was embarrassing and I cant mention it here cos Jade spies hehe). But things just have a way of working out.

Why dont you just say you needed someone to talk to is all, and that you know next time not to ask the little boy/s for advice.

Good luck.