We had the biggest argument ever yesterday because he did something that he shouldn't have but he had the right intentions. I was upset, regardless. It was really out of order but I won't go into all of that. The fight really escalated to the point where
I said I wanted to break up. He started crying and so did I. During our conversation, his family came about who don't know about me. He had to cut the call and our conversation got left hanging.
I don't even know if we have broken up or not. I don't consider it that way.
I've calmed down today and I want to talk to him today. I've called him so many times but he hasn't picked up. It just rings and rings till voicemail comes up. There's so many things going through my head right now that I don't know what to think. He's not the type to just ignore calls like this so I'm making myself sick with worry as to what else it could be. If he was caught crying, he'd have a lot of explanation to do with regards to his family (he never cries usually) so I'm thinking maybe it's something to do with that. Other than that, a bi-product of what the actual argument was about means I'm actually scared for his safety and scared that he might get involved in a physical fight. And though, chances are not that high, I can't help but be worried since I can't get through to him. I keep imagining that he was attacked or something and I'm here just not knowing about it
. And lastly, he has blood pressure issues and even when crying on the phone, I could hear he was in pain so I'm really worried whether the situation escalated during the night.
He usually gets to work at half ten and wakes up around 7 or 8.
I've been calling continuously since 7 and there has been no answer. Up to nine, I kept kidding myself that he might have overslept but he'd definitely be awake by now as he should be at work.
Not knowing is driving me crazy. I have an exam tomorrow and I have to revise except I really can't focus. I just want to know he's okay and then I'm positive we can sort things out. I just feel so helpless. I've contacted his cousin to let me know if he finds out anything about what is going on. The only other person I can think of contacting is a close friend of his that I don't really know but that might be too much, just yet.
I don't think he is ignoring me. He wouldn't do that and even text me last night to say that we would talk about this tomorrow. I don't know what I should do. I don't know what I can do. But I don't want to just sit around and wait.