help ex confusing..

Ok...try not to make this too long.

Basically me and my ex boyfriend went out for about a year and a half,when i was fifteen, him sixteen and he was my first proper boyfriend. We were REALLY good friends before hand anyway and things were really good.
About four months into our relationship I wasnt really sure if i liked being in a relationship, i wasnt used to it and i'll admit i probably didnt make much effort so we weren't really going out. Then he went on holiday and cheated on me...we kindof werent going out neway but i was still really upset. so for the next two months he didnt stop trying to make it up to me and i was adamant i wdnt forgive him but after a while i realised i really missed him and we decided we'd make another go of it. Seriously i wasnt being soft he was really sorry and i promised i'd make more of an effort etc. From then on things were really good. we both really did love each other but I always made sure i never dropped my friends for him because of wat he'd done in the past.
then in june, after we'd been going out 4 bout year and a half things went bad. He got a new job so I couldnt see him that often. and he was pretty clingy anyway. My parent wdnt let me stay at his etc so times i saw him were short. I also still went out with my friends a lot instead of him although i really loved him. then he went really off and after lots of arguments we eneded it. I was sooo upset and am still not over it. Then bout 3 wks after this he got a new gfriend. who is at uni. the other thing that really upset me wasnt even that we broke up, it was the fact he then COMPLETELY ignored me and always looked at me like s**t this really upset seeing as we'd been so close before.
Then the other day I saw him at a friends houseparty and we spoke but it ended up in a huge argument, both crying and he told me that he doesnt love his gfriend as much as he loved me and he misses me. i said why wnt u speak to me then, and he said its because hes afraid he mite want to get back with me and he knows it wdnt work.
I want to back with him so much and i know hes not happy with his gfriend, hes just afraid of our relationship not working and to be honest i cant garuntee it wud cos im not allowed to see him that much but its killing me him acting like we never went out.....what shall i do??
SOPRRY ITS LONG BUT THATNKS FOR READING PLEASE HELP!
xxxxxx

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