We have grown apart but for really stupid reasons. She's completly taken advantage of my recent self conciousness. It's also annoying that she's a "smoker" now. She never used to smoke and recently she's been having a cigerette a day, and keeps drawing attention to it by announcing ever 5mins that shes quiting, to me it just looks compltely sad. I mean were 17 now, everyone has gotten over the smoking is cool thing, even my friends who used to smoke alot have completly given up and they think its disgusting, who is she trying to impress?
Another thing i've moved very far away from school and friends, so its quite clear i cant see har as much but she just cant accept it. I understand how it would be upsetting, but the least she could do is come and visit me sometimes, instead of getting stroppy because i cant always go and see her.
ANOTHER thing, she is completly not self sufficent, its getting ridiculus. When i lived near her, everyday she would want me to come to her house. Now that i cant (or wont) every single day she either goes to the park or to this our other friends house, she never ever spends time alone. I was shocked when i was with her one the way home from school, she asked me to come round, i said no. She called another friend, asked if she wanted to come out, she said no. She even called people she didnt like asking them to come out, can she not just go home once in her life?
The only reason she even goes to 6th form is to socialise, and if got a feeling by the time it gets to exams she'll drop out. Its bloody annoying she's really clever, but she just doesnt bother. She definatly wont go to university, and her choice of a career was singing (she has the best voice ever and recorded a cd) but shes ****ed that up with "smoking".
GAaaaaah she pisses me off so much, she only ever cares what other people think of her, doesnt care for anyone else.
And becuase i'm recently been really self concious, and dont go out like i used to, everytime sh's out and people ask where i am she tells them i'm sad (as in a ******) and prefer staying in. I wish i could go out but i'm feeling low at the moment.
But i still miss her.