this sounds silly but everyone i know has really grown up from when we were at school or from a few months ago!
my best mate has moved away and has a kid and my other mate told me today she has moved out and is 5 months pregnant and ive not seen her in ages!!
everyone seems to be moving on and not needing me much, she asked if i wanan go out but shes pregnant and wouldn't expect her to go to the pub and walk home by herelf etc that would be taking the piss!!
but i haven;t grown up at all, ive only had one long relationship and not much to show for my name,
im not jelous i just wish i could have someone to tell me they love me and to comfort and spend time with me, i know i can go out and meet people but i want it all back like it was months and years ago the gang together and some new additions and everything merrry and happy, but its just to much to ask of people im not expecting them to put there lives on hold for me, i just thing i deserve abit of real love after a terrible year!!
i can see myself at 30 still having stupid dumb relationships and no kids!!
i don;t want that i want to think about settling down in about 2 years i know im only 19 but im not a big career girl, i don;t even have a job!!
has anyone else ever felt like this? is it just a phase? its just their all flying the nest ill be one whose left behind!!