Since I can remember, I've had my heart set on going to Oxford University. Recently, I've looked into it a bit (a lot) and found myself utterly adoring the course Philosophy and Modern Languages (I would take German) at Oxford (Oriel College, preferably). I've never wanted anything more.
I'm 14 and have just finished year 9, so I'll be starting my GCSEs this September. Basically, I'd like to know what to do in the next four years that'll make me stand out, be extra clever and get amazing GCSEs and A Levels.
I go to a grammar school (it's not the best, it's not the worst) and don't have much money to hand (my mum is on benefits, but she'll probably be working in four years, and I'm not sure if she'll still be a single parent as she has a fiancé at the moment).
Basically, I DON'T HAVE ANY INTERESTS! Well, ones that count. Watching American sit-coms and Hollyoaks obsessively and listening to Radio 1 religiously are hardly interesting. I like reading (I've started reading Primo Levi, Dan Brown and George Orwell to be more intelligent) and writing (I've nearly finished my first novel, but I doubt they would be impressed by a depressing gay romance story. I started writing an intelligent-er novel using rich vocabulary a few months back but never got past the first 200 words. I could finish the first chapter as something to show though?).
I am NOT sporty (but I don't mind badminton) and NOT musical (unless you count learning the recorder in year 2).
I like history and looking at historical places. I also like philosophy and am going to try and learn extra stuff about it over the next few years. I love German, but can't speak it very well at the moment. I listen to German podcasts and I watch Verbotene Liebe, eine Deutsche Seifenoper (I don't think that's the right grammar…).
I just need to do the expedition for my bronze DofE, then i can start my silver. I've tried getting a paper round with no luck and am happy to start a Saturday job at 16. I don't really like doing charity work within a shop but I'd do it for Oxford. I was deputy school council in my class last year but'll try and be head this year. I don't do any clubs or anything. I want to do work experience next summer, maybe at a magazine or newspaper.
My GCSEs? I'm aiming for 10 A*s and an A in my AS level. I don't know how likely that is though. I'm hoping to revise like hell but I'm worried about my science GCSEs (I'm taking three, compulsory). I'm awful at science. *facepalm* And A Levels seem a long way off.
No one that I know of in my family has been to uni and most are in dead-end jobs. I don't receive much support from my mum (she thinks I put too much effort in) and, meh.
Oh, and I have no confidence. Everyone says I'm really shy (which I hate). When I was little, I had speaking problems and couldn't pronounce certain letters but I could never hear that they were wrong. Today, I hear it all normally but still wonder if I'm pronouncing them right. People say I sound normal but I hate that I pronounce 'th' as 'f'. Basically, I hate talking in public. Also, I make enemies easily and so most people hate me, meaning I could never be a prefect or anything.
*Really long message, sorry. But PLEASE help me.