Please keep anon for obvious reasons.
Now this isn't a cry for help or a suicidal post, please just hear me out. I promise this isn't a troll.
Basically, i'm 23, just received the perfect job that I have always wanted, and am moving to a new city to start a new life. I should be pretty excited?
However, I really do not see the point in anything I do. I don't take pleasure in anything, I always see the negative side of everything. Even the thought of new life and new job don't excite me. I also think that the way I look constantly brings me down, sometimes I cant bear to even look in the mirror.
I am on anti-depressants and have been tested for bi-polar. Sometimes I can be happy and positive, but alot of my time is spent thinking of all the negative things in my life. Previous past experiences (of lost love etc) constantly plays over and over in my mind, which just upsets me further. I want to move on, but I just cant let go of the past.
Any advice on what I should do? My life seems so mundane and miserable, and I do not want to live like this anymore!