Slow realisation... love does actually hurt

Ok... here is a paragraph full of teenage angst.

I am in love with my oldest friend. I mean, completely, never-stop-thinking-about-him, can't-sleep-at-night sort of obsessed.

It has been like that for 5 years... and if it was difficult to live with before it's just become unbearable.
He's popped back into my life after living abroad for a while, and suddenly I'm 13 years old again and infatuated with the popular boy from the back of the maths classroom, or so it seems.

To cap it all off, my boyfriend (originally a wonderful relationship, now more like a sex-and-friendship deal) is very depressed. I couldn't break up with him... I'm afraid of what he might do.

Obviously I feel like a scheming bitch, but can't see what I'm supposed to do.

Anyone here been in the same situation? Heeelp!?

Reply 1

latentcorpse

take yourself out of the equation - suicide! that's what i'm scheming at the moment

no , seriously i would suggest u definitely talk to your current bf before it goe any further downhill for the poor old sod!

Reply 2

gideon2000uk

I dumped my boyfriend, told my best friend I was in love with him after he slept with one of my worst enemies and was rejected... and all of this occured while my dumped boyfriend was sleeping on the floor of my room at university...

It's difficult. But I think you need to follow your heart. Honesty is very imortant and since your break-up sounds inevitable it is best not to lie. But remember that you could be left with nothing!