Right, the background of all of this is this: I've had some form of depression for a while now, at least six or seven years. On Tuesday I finally went to the doctor's, and I've got another appointment for next week (to decide treatment). In the meantime, I'm supposed to talk to my mother about it all (she doesn't know about ANY of it).
That was Tuesday.
It's now Thursday and I still haven't spoken to her - she's been ill, or she's been busy. She's either watching television with my brother or doing housework, and she's not the type of person I can go to and say "can we talk?" because she'll only say "I'm busy" or "talk to me later, I'm watching this".
Now, maybe it's just me, but I don't fancy making an appointment to talk to my own mother.
I don't think she's very approachable anyway, and I doubt she'll understand the actual problem and will most likely write it off as "oh, it's just because you're a teenager". The doctor says the depression IS deep-seated, it shouldn't be considered some trivial thing, and that it will take a hell of a long time to sort myself out. But I was also told that my mum might surprise me, and turn out to actually be really supportive.
Which I don't think will happen, but right now I haven't been given an opportunity TO find that out.
I was thinking of writing a letter, but I find that it says a lot, when you can't even talk to your mother face to face simply because either she's too "busy" or because of her possible response. I'm also worried about how bearable the next few days are going to be, especially if she reacts to it badly.
:/