I was having a conversation with one of my friends, who happens to be a girl and i like her, and i think she likes me. Anyway i always thought she was like an average level worker in school, she was always complaining about how she is going to fail, and that she says she has to have a maths tutor because she's "so bad at maths" and science.
But then all of a sudden she told me that she's predicted A's in every subject..what? i thought she was bad at maths? (this all happened over facebook)
Anyway a soon as she said that i kinda felt dead inside...education is my number one priority and i feel strongly about it. She says she never does revising, and then she told me she revises a lot, what? lol.
I got 1 B, 6 C's and 2 D's in my Gcse's. I'm not proud of that at all, and i'm retaking my History and english lang and lit this year. History i know i can get an A on.
Anyway i've been felling i'll and depressed after that, i really don't know whats happening to me. I couldn't sleep, i don' feel hungry anymore, all i can think about is that sentence she wrote about her getting A's....
She's taking a similar career path to me, in film. And the thought she can go further with her grades rips me into pieces inside, i can't bear it. She has told me that i should be proud of myself, and that i am a very nice person with lots of qualites which has helped the past day or so but i still feel horrible...
It's making me feel i'll and my heart seems to be aching all the time, like i'm out of breath or something i'm the kind of person that needs to revise lots just to get a pass! and sometimes i don't! :/
Do they actually matter?