Basically, about three years ago I suffered from severe anxiety. It got much, much better thanks to help from a psychologist. I even took a gap year abroad, living on my own!
The thing is, I'm a lazy person. I hate effort of any kind, unless there's some instant gratifictation for me. During the last part of secondary school, I couldn't be bothered. I'd do projects the night before, and that evolved into revising for A-Levels practically the night before as well. This caused me a lot of stress... because the weeks before my exams, whilst I knew I should be revising, I was on the internet messing around, on facebook, twitter, tumblr, you name it.
My last year of sixth form was pretty much the same. I did art A-Level and left all of my coursework untill the week before (for those of you who have done art A-Level, you know how suicidal that can be!) and I think I started to revise for my other exams about two days before. I did okay in my A-Levels, but I could have done much better.
After my anxiety subsided, I did better. Granted, I didn't really have any academic deadlines during my gap year.
I started university this year, and at first, I was pretty into it. Sure, we got a lot of reading. But, I started to leave it, started to put things off, and I just find anything to do to keep myself from doing it. I have an essay and two exams in two weeks time, and a statistical exercise to give in soon, and I've done no preparation/work for this whatsoever. I don't understand why I can't just sit myself down, turn the computer off, and study!!!
The thing is, I can feel it impacting on my mental health. I'm getting anxious again - I'm going up to London on a fun trip with two of my uni friends and have spent the last week having night mares and worrying about it! I just want to have a good time but think that something awful will happen tomorrow - I'll be sick or something and I'll let everyone down.
Can anyone give me some advice as to how to cope?
Do they actually matter?