Thanks. I also think that it will get better but at the moment it's not easy. I'm far away from friends and family and don't really have anyone to take my mind off things. Even the friends I speak to are not very supportive. They don't really understand how I could have feelings for someone I had only spent a week with altogether. The trouble is that that kind of "logical" thinking doesn't work. We always assume that what applies to our past relationships applies to every kind of situation. I guess it's not their fault. They just haven't been in this situation: She's in a different country and refuses to answer the phone, answer texts or e-mails (so to the person suggesting I try to get an explanation, there's no point. She claims that what was written in the contradictory texts. So basically 2 texts is good enough to get rid of someone...). It's not a situation that that many people go through but trust me, it's awful. The way you feel powerless and how you just don't understand anything. It's not a situation where you know you might bump into them again some day. If that was the case, I'd feel so much better.
What's worse is how I developed feelings for her so quickly. I had never experienced that with anyone or any past girlfriend. I'm a mostly rational person on a day-to-day basis but in this case, I really lost it. I've tried to call her, to text her but all I've done is made her think I'm a psychopath, instead of making her realise I have feelings for her.
I went out the weekend after she "dumped" me with a text and thought I'd feel better. What happened is just that I got very drunk, went home the next day and felt physically crap in addition to feeling emotionally even crapper.