Life going in the wrong direction

I don't know how to start this, i'm struggling for words. But i've felt for the last few years my life's not going the way i want it to and i feel really unhappy - but i haven't come up with alternative solutions. I just go through life with a feeling of stagnation and boredom, i work hard for exams as i hate failing and usually do well; this time it might be different.

So a few weeks ago it hit me, it's a long story but i was out of touch with someone i used to be friendly with and then i found they had music online and he sounds like he's doing well - he's doing something he loves; i really admire that. It's not all about the money and i think if he's doing something he loves why can't i? So anyway i just feel like the tide's taking me out to sea, i don't have any real friends i'd consider, no-one i feel i can turn to in real life. i just don't feel i'm achieving my potential and just so unhappy with the way things are going - life's seeming pretty dull.

I know people are going to say make changes, but i don't know how. The only change i can see is leaving education but i don't know where that will leave me. I don't know the point of this, just feeling really depressed at the moment and just wanting to hear some voices.

Reply 1

Ferrus

19

I know what you're going through.

My solution is going to be that once I've finished university, I'll spend a year or two teaching English abroad - hopefully Mexico. Get away from people at home. Maybe make some friends. Maybe make some sense of life in new environs. Gives me time to think about where I want to go with my life.

It's up to you really.

Reply 2

Anonymous #1

OP

I don't know if i will finish though, i'm really not sure how exams just were. I don't know if i want to finish - it's another year still and it gets me really down and it's not worth all the stress and unhappiness it brings. Either way i've got no friends here or at home and i've got no direction in life as i don't know what i want to do; hands have pushed me in directions i don't want to be and i'm left to walk down this one-ended corridor. I just hate this

Reply 3

Ferrus

19

Anonymous

I don't know if i will finish though, i'm really not sure how exams just were. I don't know if i want to finish - it's another year still and it gets me really down and it's not worth all the stress and unhappiness it brings. Either way i've got no friends here or at home and i've got no direction in life as i don't know what i want to do; hands have pushed me in directions i don't want to be and i'm left to walk down this one-ended corridor. I just hate this

I know... I like the routine university gives. I fear what having a real job will be like, and if it will crush any remaining meaning in my life.

Reply 4

Anonymous #1

OP

I don't like routine, it goes back to boredom. It's not that i'm bothered about getting a job - i just don't want to get a job in the area i'm working towards. I look at my friend with his music and i'm so envious. I don't feel true to myself - i've been told i'm not creative by my dad but he knows little about me and i just feel there's so much more potential in me than to work in a 9-5. Knowing i probably won't achieve my potential really gets me down and i just wonder one's own existence.

Reply 5

Anonymous #1

OP

True...but there's repercussions to leaving, if i left i'd have pressure from other sources to do things with my life, how i've screwed up - if only i'd stayed another year and a half i'd be set up for life etc. I don't know which direction i want to go in - it varies; i've thought about music but i'm afraid i haven't the talent, thought about writing; i used to do it a bit when i felt really bad, but maybe it made me feel wrose.

There's more to my unhappiness but for now this is near the top. I've kind of decided i don't need people in my life and i can get by on my own. I've pretty much been doing it all along with not being accepted in social circles and just left to wander in the middle. I know i'm lying to myself thoough :frown:

I see people get things so easy for them and i just find it all so hard and think about things too much.

Reply 6

Riddy

Your probably predicting the future as something so dull and negative, but things change! In a few years time your friend could be jobless/depressed and you could have a dream job, its possible. Think of all the opportunities you have from your course.
A lot of people look at life in a different way, they see work as work and live for their hobby.

Reply 7

Inclination

6

Ok, firstly, stop whining. Finish your education, and get a high-paying job, or at least better paying than you would if you dropped out. Who the hell does LIKE studying? (Nobody unless he/she is mental.)

Get off the net and make a few friends. Force yourself to socialise. That's all there is to it. And stop feeling sorry for yourself...your life really isn't sh*t.

This thread disappointed me. I thought someone's life really was going in the wrong direction.

Reply 8

Anonymous #1

OP

Harsh...but probably true and i can accept that.

Sorry for the disappointment

Reply 9

Ferrus

19

Inclination

Who the hell does LIKE studying? (Nobody unless he/she is mental.)

I do. But then I'm a deeply troubled individual :frown:

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