Tbh im grossly unhappy at uni, far happier in the summer and other breaks when im back at home or travelling - its not worked at for me at uni - been a social disaster, and hmm, immense apathy for education, lethargy too. I know i will be presented with a fresh start in 4 months time when i finally finish uni, so im only feeling content now knowing that there is a fresh start to be grasped at and i have confidence in myself, physically and mentally, that i will make good use of it.
The perplexing thing is, if you've known and epitomized an unhappy self for sometime, you can sometimes not know what happiness is and feels like, i.e. slightly unhappy for you is your 'happy' so hmm yes, don't get lulled into this rather sad definition. And of course, when you feel some real happiness, you absolutely love it, crave for it, but get kind of down because you know in the current scheme of things, it may be quite some time till you grasp some happiness again. Basically i've not had good time at uni, for a whole host of reasons, many out of my own control, and i'm content only in that i know i will be out of uni in four months and away from 3 housemates that have dragged me down a little (they're people i've learnt that are intrinsically not nice people). I want to graduate, leave and forget and move on.