I hate this

I hate posting anonymously but I can’t let people see who I am. Just lately I’ve been feeling so down, I can’t explain it. I’m not normally like this at all, usually I’m happy go lucky but right now I have to force myself to even smile.

Things got bad about a week or so ago, I seriously considered hurting myself. Only I woke up the next morning and instead of feeling glad I hadn’t I just regretting not doing anything. Something happened a fair while ago and I just can't seem to stop thinking about it. I'm really trying to stop this ruining my life but it's to difficult. A few years after it happened I was fine and thought I’d got through it ok, but now it’s like I’m back to square one, and reliving it all and it’s stupid because it happened so long ago.

As a result I’m not sleeping, I’m not eating, I’m getting panic attacks, I’m just feeling like I’m not really living, more just existing and surviving each day. I know there are people who have much worse things to get through and I feel awful for complaining but I’m just getting so tired of this and I don’t know what else to do. I feel like crying all the time.

Reply 1

Misogynist

18

It would be helpful if you mentioned what happened.

Reply 2

MNBStyle

9

Seems like whatever this problem is, you haven't fully got over it and thats something you need to do.
Perhaps counselling maybe a good option for you?? Obviously theres not much else i can say as i dont know what this problem is.
Yet i respect the fact you may not want to tell me, or it maybe hard to tell

Reply 3

Anonymous #1

OP

The-Lennon

its called depression.. get some tablets

I don't want to rely on tablets to feel 'normal' :frown:

For the rest of the replies...

I can't say what happened because it would make people feel less of me and right now I couldn't cope with that.

I just wish I could feel better. I have finally plucked up the courage to see a counsellor at Uni but I'm terrified. I don't even know if I'm doing the right thing. :frown:

Reply 4

MNBStyle

9

Anonymous

I don't want to rely on tablets to feel 'normal' :frown:

For the rest of the replies...

I can't say what happened because it would make people feel less of me and right now I couldn't cope with that.

I just wish I could feel better. I have finally plucked up the courage to see a counsellor at Uni but I'm terrified. I don't even know if I'm doing the right thing. :frown:

Yes you are doing the right thing dont worry, you clearly need to talk about this problem.
Nobody here would think less of you if you told us the problem, but im not going to pressure you into telling us.
But you go for the counselling it will help, make going on tablets a last resort

Reply 5

Anonymous #1

OP

MNBStyle

Yes you are doing the right thing dont worry, you clearly need to talk about this problem.
Nobody here would think less of you if you told us the problem, but im not going to pressure you into telling us.
But you go for the counselling it will help, make going on tablets a last resort

Just so damn scary :bawling:

I might be wasting their time.

Reply 6

MNBStyle

9

Anonymous

Just so damn scary :bawling:

I might be wasting their time.

I understand itll be scary for you, but you wont be wasting there time dont worry trust me.

Reply 7

rosetinted

2

It sounds to me like maybe you didn't fully deal with what happened when it occurred. You maybe didn't take the proper time to grieve or think about what happened and come to terms with it.

I'd recommend going to a counsellor and talking it through with them. Counselling is a way of helping yourself to deal with things that are getting on top of you or are getting in the way of living your life. cA counsellor is not going to tell you how to run your life. Good counsellors listen, support and challenge, so that you’re able to come up with your own solutions to problems. Trust me, nothing that makes you feel so down would be wasting a counsellor's time. They are there for you, no matter how big or small the problem is. You can guarantee that other people have gone to them with sillier/more pathetic/dumber things before. They are trained to help & be there for you, no matter how ridiculous you thing you're being! Don't do anything rash, take care of yourself.

When I get down I find that some exercise can also help. Produces endorphins that give you a natural happiness boost. Best of luck with dealing with this.

Reply 8

Anonymous #2

just out of intereset were you raped?

Reply 9

rosetinted

2

They have said they don't want to talk about it so let's not force the issue..

Reply 10

MNBStyle

9

rosetinted

They have said they don't want to talk about it so let's not force the issue..

Agreed

Reply 11

MrColin

1

Anonymous

I hate posting anonymously but I can’t let people see who I am. Just lately I’ve been feeling so down, I can’t explain it. I’m not normally like this at all, usually I’m happy go lucky but right now I have to force myself to even smile.

Things got bad about a week or so ago, I seriously considered hurting myself. Only I woke up the next morning and instead of feeling glad I hadn’t I just regretting not doing anything. Something happened a fair while ago and I just can't seem to stop thinking about it. I'm really trying to stop this ruining my life but it's to difficult. A few years after it happened I was fine and thought I’d got through it ok, but now it’s like I’m back to square one, and reliving it all and it’s stupid because it happened so long ago.

As a result I’m not sleeping, I’m not eating, I’m getting panic attacks, I’m just feeling like I’m not really living, more just existing and surviving each day. I know there are people who have much worse things to get through and I feel awful for complaining but I’m just getting so tired of this and I don’t know what else to do. I feel like crying all the time.

If this is all true...then perhaps you should go see a shrink or something...
oh and eat...it might solve a lot of the other problems...

Reply 12

Anonymous #1

OP

I don’t know what to do. I feel so unbelievably down. I screw everything up, I think people would be better off without me. You know when you feel like things couldn’t possibly get any worse and then they do. You think it’s easier to just put a brave face on but underneath its all bad.

I don’t even know why I’m posting other than the fact that once again I’m unable to sleep cos of bad dreams, and you know when you’d give anything for a cuddle and to be told everything is all ok? I’m such a mess. :bawling:

I hate feeling like this so much. How can I ever feel better? No matter what I do I feel horrible.

Sorry just adding to my earlier thread as I didn’t want to waste another thread. I am a waste of space.

Reply 13

Scienceboi

7

hmmm i'd luv to giv u a cuddle, only if ur a girl tho....im not geh like.....
to be honest if u don't tell people whats wrong they can't give you advice, this could be depression(a medical conditional which by and large is beyond ur control and requires medication) or it could be more related to the thing that happened to you, people can only help you if u tell them whats wrong.

Reply 14

Anonymous #1

OP

Scienceboi

hmmm i'd luv to giv u a cuddle, only if ur a girl tho....im not geh like.....
to be honest if u don't tell people whats wrong they can't give you advice, this could be depression(a medical conditional which by and large is beyond ur control and requires medication) or it could be more related to the thing that happened to you, people can only help you if u tell them whats wrong.

I am a girl. I can't say what happened, I'm worried people will find out who I am or work it out, then think less of me, if that's even possible. :frown:

It's just that everything sucks right now and I don't know how to fix it :frown:

I'm just a waste of time. :frown:

Sorry.

Reply 15

kizer

15

Anonymous

I am a girl. I can't say what happened, I'm worried people will find out who I am or work it out, then think less of me, if that's even possible. :frown:

It's just that everything sucks right now and I don't know how to fix it :frown:

I'm just a waste of time. :frown:

Sorry.

You are NOT a waste of time.

You have a lot to offer, you are sensitive and you sound like as nice a person as anyone can sound on TSR!

By posting, it seems you have accepted you need help. If there is a counsellor you can contact (maybe via school/college) then have a chat with them. They want to help you, they devote their lives to learning how to help people. Otherwise go to the GP, who will treat you seriously and respectfully. They are not shocked by anything, so don't worry about that.

There IS a way out of how you feel, you just have to set it motion.

I really hope you feel better soon :smile:

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