the thing is, i dont know who id be happier with. both will be quite a bit of effort due to each of theirs situations, but i just dont know
normally i know instinctively, but when i stopped being single, i then took notice of what id missed out
i am pretty certain me n my distant friend would make a great couple, but there is teh whole distance problem that bites me in the ass
what is really annoying is that this is the 3rd time this has happened. there is one friend who i really do care for very very deeply, and i can easily imagine spending the rest of my life with, but she's moving away in a couple of months, and by away i mean america
there was also another girl i really cared for (not as deeply as 1st girl, i dont think ill ever care for anyone else that much in that way) but shes happy with her bf even if she does like me loads
then there are these more understood feelings for my friend
i sound like a right old promisciuous bitch i know, but its just me n my feelings