If you have any time...

Well just one thing before i say anything well done to everyone most of the advice i read on here is amazing!
SORRY, IT'S LONG I'M SORRY!!!!!!
But anyway yes anyway the problem, (sorry i kind of diversify as i try to tell someone something difficult!)
well i have an overactive imagination as it is, if i watch a horror film i can imagine the monster walking around my home but o well! lol i know its not real! its just everytime i think of something i always imagine what could happen in the future and paly a senario out in my head and nearly always end up disappointed, i've tried not to do this of course but it's just natural to me now!
But i have a lot of confidence but i have very little self-esteem, surprising?.. yes! but its just a mask i 'hide' behind, o so cliche!
at school, at home and tonight at dancing i get comments mad by people that make me feel small and just knock me! most of them i know are just joking or really really little but they all build up and i cant talk about it! and i can just randomly start cryin sometimes
Sorry to all who are reading! i just need to get it out! im not tryin to bottle it up, and i know i have no right to complain as i have a good home, school, job and friends but i feel really lonely sometimes! even in a crowded room... another cliche.... i always seem to be the organiser! and get people complaining at me its doing my head in and i need a little bit of help!

Reply 1

digitalparadox

Well don't think about life too much otherwise you'll go mad! Afterall, in the words of Keynes, "in the long term we are all dead" hence he's dead now. When you feel that people are building up against you, just put your contained confidence to the test.

Reply 2

united_1987

:'(
Hmmm.... maybe an option could be to let people know how u feel, its sometimes a good thing to let em know, so they know what to say next time and know what not to say.

Reply 3

In_over_my_head

thanks, it's just ive been slightly picked on all my life! and its not ppl i like saying little comments/ looks/ laughter

Reply 4

guitargirl03

*huggles*

I know exactly what you mean. I have low self-esteem and I don't have any confidence. I think this is why I've developed depression, as I didn't tell anyone.

It's best to vent to someone, a parent, carer, friend, etc, as it can really help telling someone how you feel. You could always try counselling, this really works :smile:

Reply 5

In_over_my_head

from the connexions conseler at my skl im not too optimistic he was rude and ignorant to me and my teacher today and glared at me! oops! i have confidence but its just more of a front!

Reply 6

guitargirl03

See another counsellor. It really does help. I know there are some ars*holes out there, but it's good to vent :smile:

Reply 7

rosetinted

Anonymous

i know i have no right to complain as i have a good home, school, job and friends but i feel really lonely sometimes!

A really common problem in people suffering from depression, or just feeling down, is this idea that they don't have the right to complain. Well that is a total myth. You have as much right as anyone else does to feel down, lonely or sad. Just because you come from a good home doesn't mean that you will have 100% control over your feelings and state of mind I'm afraid. Get the notion that you shouldn't complain out of your head my dear, find a new counsellor and moan away! Trust me..nothing is too trivial for a counsellor, they are there to help you out, even if you feel dumb for saying stuff because it seems like a really small problem, why not say it anyway? They aren't there to judge you or give you solutions to problems, just someone you can confide in, speak to about anything and everything and hopefully learn more about your reasons for feeling down. Often school counsellors aren't the best, but your school should be able to refer you to someone else and possibly pay for it.

Reply 8

*kiki*

I actually have exactly, and I mean exactly the same problem, almost word-for-word. Had a sort of mini-breakdown the other day, alone, because all those little (and larger) things just pile up and one day it just gets too much. But I won't go into detail; I'll just give my advice and agree with rosetinted; you have the right to feel bad, even though you probably think it's selfish or unneccesary. Your problems and worries are just as valid as anyone's. I'd advise finding a good counsellor, or maybe just taking a break for a day and treating or indulging yourself (I find that helps). Finding a way to relax really helps. Hope that's helpful :smile: