Guilt

after 3 months i have finally found to courage to acknowledge who i really want in my life...now all i have to do is let someone down and hope that another will want me because i want him sooooooooo badly- i guess i always knew i just didnt want to confront it i hope i will have the courage to say what needs to be said...its just that certain guys know exactly what to say- i feeel that ive been wrappedaround this guys little finger for far too long- mayb its time for me to do what i want and to take my feelings forst for once- sounds selfish but i feel as if ive been used....
i guess what im trying to say is... i feel guilty because ive let someone trapple all over my feelings and because i let them do that it meant that i had to trample all over another persons feelings- when infact that is the person i really want...i feel like a fool- guilty even...
i feel things have been ruined because i didnt have the courage to stand up and say how i felt...
maybe ive ruined both relationships- but then i think i would rather do that than end one and have another that is a lie...
i just need to gt this off my chest...sorry

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TomaDamons

good for you that you are able to work out what you want in life. if the person that you want to be with, feels the same way as you, then great. if not, then at least you are out of one very troubled relationship.