For quite a few years now, despite having many friends at home and at University....I feel like I can't trust people and the reason is I'm afraid that they'll just stop liking me.
It all goes back to when I was 10 and started Secondary School, I had friends and everything was great but one day they started to treat me differently and slowly went off me, it concluded when I wasn't invited to a birthday party. I was on my own after that and the next 5 years were a living hell for me with everyone calling me weird and I didn't know why.
It turns out that I had Aspergers and I wasn't aware of my actions and I guess it didn't help having a parent as a dinnerlady at the same school.
When I finished school, people cheered in my face that they didn't have to be in the same class as me anymore and my confidence was destroyed.
Now I am at University six years later and have slowly gotten more confident as a person but decided to stay in student accmodation for my second year because I was too afraid to ask anyone from my class if I could live with them.
I don't mind staying where I am for another year ( I personally don't think it's a big deal)
But going out with my friends will be a bit harder as I'll have to get a taxi by myself lol so I probably wont go out as much as I have this year.
I just wish I didn't have to feel pressured to drink by everyone noones really physically done so but they make you feel guilty if you say no like 'your missing out''
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