Scared of relapse

Ok I know there's a load of threads on depression, but I just really need some advice.

2 Years ago I was diagnosed with depression and started taking medication and had psychotherapy. I never told anyone about what was happening to me, and although I have so many friends and a great family, it has made me very lonely. Anyway, after a year on anti-depressants I withdrew from them due to constant nightmares and stuff about people finding out. I couldn't tell if the anti-depressants were working or not- I had huge highs and huge lows by the end of it all.

Over the summer, things were a lot better, and I was comfortable and my symptoms started dissapearing. However, when I left for uni, I relapsed. It's wired because I really settled in quickly at uni and made loads more friends. In the last 2 months I've hit my lowest points- I've cut myself on two occasions and felt some real lows.

For the last two and a half weeks, I've felt better. I don't suffer the lows like I used too, and I've been able to feel at ease with myself. However, I'm prone to get so angry, my concentration is awful, and I find sleep so unrefreshing- all symptoms of depression. I feel like I'm making progress but in a way, I feel I'm still no where near full recovery.

I'm scared I'll relapse again, and things will go back to how they were a few weeks ago. All along I said I'd go back to the doctors if things got bad, but now I'm feeling sort of better, I'm not sure I should. What should I do?

Reply 1

andy_c

7

I'd go back to the doctor just to talk and have an assessment. If the dr then thinks you need to go back onto the pills, then seriously consider what they say. Maybe the dr will say you don't need them. Getting an opinion can't hurt can it?

Reply 2

Monkey_Maiden

11

Hi I'm sorry you're feeling like this :frown:

I suffered from depression last year and have only recently started getting 'better' However the past few days I've had real lows, nothing can make me smile, not motivated anymore and feel nobody truly likes me :frown:

I used to be on antidepressants but stopped them as they turned me into a zombie and I couldn't express any emotion and I hated myself, now wondering whether this has helps this relapse
I would say if you are feeling extrmemly low or do in thefuture maybe see a doc, maybe not even for medication just to talk, he'll be able to help
Best of luck xxx

Reply 3

xXMessedUpXx

15

Anonymous

Ok I know there's a load of threads on depression, but I just really need some advice.

2 Years ago I was diagnosed with depression and started taking medication and had psychotherapy. I never told anyone about what was happening to me, and although I have so many friends and a great family, it has made me very lonely. Anyway, after a year on anti-depressants I withdrew from them due to constant nightmares and stuff about people finding out. I couldn't tell if the anti-depressants were working or not- I had huge highs and huge lows by the end of it all.

Over the summer, things were a lot better, and I was comfortable and my symptoms started dissapearing. However, when I left for uni, I relapsed. It's wired because I really settled in quickly at uni and made loads more friends. In the last 2 months I've hit my lowest points- I've cut myself on two occasions and felt some real lows.

For the last two and a half weeks, I've felt better. I don't suffer the lows like I used too, and I've been able to feel at ease with myself. However, I'm prone to get so angry, my concentration is awful, and I find sleep so unrefreshing- all symptoms of depression. I feel like I'm making progress but in a way, I feel I'm still no where near full recovery.

I'm scared I'll relapse again, and things will go back to how they were a few weeks ago. All along I said I'd go back to the doctors if things got bad, but now I'm feeling sort of better, I'm not sure I should. What should I do?

Its all very well to be scared, its natural. Truth be told i suffered badly from depression 2002-2003, but i never really sought treatent, and in a way it went away on its own. But i did suffer a relapse when i moved to uni in september, which has more made me realise i need to think bout managing it better. You've had treatment, and you've said you feel better, thats really good! :smile:

Do not be scared of goig back to your doctors if you think you are feeling down again. One thing i've learnt is to recognise when i'm down, and to try and make it better before it gets worse. Maybe you should try that. At the first hint of it, if you think you might, then see you doctor etc, and it will be under control again. Easier said than done., but don't let you're depression control you. You seem like a strong person (you've already overcome it once) and you can overcome it again. I wish you the best of luck, and hope you don't relapse, it'll be ok :hugs:

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