Pissed off

ok so as u all will have heard scotland is submerged in snow only problem is i literally live in the middle of nowhere so there is like twice as much as everywhere else whenever it snows - this morning i was going to meet this girl i really really really like and have done for like a year b ut just never acted (i am 2 shy! - wasn't going to act this morning either but just being with her for like an hour together is fantastic) obviously this isn't happening because i can't actually open my front door! i am so angry i had been looking forward to this for like 2 weeks and now it'll be ages before this opportunity presents itself

i think im in love with her i mean when i think about her i ust cant sleep and regularly i am up till like 3am just htinking about what it would be like to be with her etc

i just feel like my life is worthless because it is really only her that has stopped me commiting suicide because i have nothing else good in my life - she isn't at my school so she doesn't know i am unpopular and really a bit of a geek that never talks etc. (i just turn it round when im with her)

it is because i feel like i am cheating her by doing this and also because she is so much hotter and popular than me that i know it will never happen thati really feel disgusted with myself!

also i am so confused because i convince myself for above reasons that it cant happen but then she seems to hit on me and i'm like "WHAT'S HAPPENING HERE?" i have never seen her with any other 17 year olds so i dont know if thats just how she behaves normally

also i am so nervous i kind of like wait for her to ask me out ( which will obviously never happen if she has even a smidgeon of self respect) and as much as i want to ask her out i just know i will never do it!

sorry :mad:

i think ill go overdose and die quietly in a corner :mad:

Reply 1

Talya

Want some honesty?

If you want a proper relationship with this girl or anyone it looks like you have to change your own state of mind first.

I know a guy like you and he ends up angry and violent with any girl he's with and it's not cool at all.

Reply 2

L i b

Pull yourself together and be a man.

Reply 3

Mark S

Anonymous

sorry

i think ill go overdose and die quietly in a corner :mad:

If thats how you feel i'd get some counseling or something. If you contemplate suicide over a girl that you like, I dread to think what you'd be like with something more serious.

It's only one girl and according to a general statistic you have 61 years left to find the one for you.

Reply 4

lovelee-jublee

Markus Angelsdaughter

If thats how you feel i'd get some counseling or something. If you contemplate suicide over a girl that you like, I dread to think what you'd be like with something more serious.

It's only one girl and according a general statistic you have 61 years left to find the one for you.

If you're like this because you like her, what are you going to be like if you got with her and split up? Sorry to look to the future in such a negative way, but it could happen.

Reply 5

Anonymous #1

oh but u guys dont know hwat i have been through in childhod ok i am like actually a cured psycho - i feel i deserve something good like her because when i was younger i was referred from 1 therapist to the next for years - i had serious mental health problem s and i still get it slightly just not as often - like once a month and i can control it (btw i aint telling u wot it is!) but i just feel i have earned something for me for once!

Reply 6

smirf83

Quick joke heard the other day:

How many emo's does it take to change a lightbulb?

Answer:

Anyway, to the point in hand. Dude, it's snowing. It's freaking snowing. So go and play in the snow.

Seriously though, calm down man. I know it must be frustrating, but I'm sure you'll see her again. Besides, it just gives you more time to plan how to seduce her. :wink:

Don't worry. Be happy. Everything will be alright. Etc.

Reply 7

pumpkin7

wow dude.. if you are going to 'commit suicide' because of this girl, you really need some sort of councelling.
but anyway - if you really like her, just go and talk to her.. if she isn't interested, then there are plenty more girls out there for you.. really, she is not the be all and end all..
grow up, and stop being emo.