Hi everyone, I have absolutely no one to talk to about this...So maybe the community on here will have some ideas and hopefully this thread will be of some help to all the other confused souls..
My situation is probably more common than I would think, yet I still feel rubbish about myself.
I won't go into too much detail about my life story and I don't want this to sound like a sob story. I have failed my AS levels last year, I got UUUU! All that with a 100% attendance! My mind was in the wrong place, it's not an excuse, but I just couldn't believe in myself and in my ability to pass the exams.
So this year I enrolled on yet another set of AS levels at a different college and I have a feeling that I am probably going to fail them...AGAIN. Actually I'm pretty sure about that. Maybe I won't get UUUU, but somewhere in the DDEE region...
First time around I did Economics, Maths, History and Philosophy...This year I have chosen Psychology, Sociology, English lang&lit and Maths...
Looking back now I realise that I should not have repeated the year with similar subjects but it seemed a good idea back then and I was just happy to be accepted for retakes at another college.
I am turning 19 in a few days and I have no idea what to do with my life. I am not originally from the UK, I'm from ****** and I have suffered in London since the day I arrived here (5 years ago). I can't deal with how hectic and fast-paced london is and how horrible and gloomy the weather is all the time. Now I'm stuck, I cannot go back to finish my education in my home country and I seem to be trapped in the loop of being a never ending student. I probably can't apply to a university even if I chose to do an access course (i'm interested in a business related degree) next september as I do not have any ''life experience'' and I will not even be classified as a mature student by the end of the course as I will only be 20. No decent universities will accept me with my educational record and I just don't know what to do!!! I see no way out atm. Getting a job without a degree and A levels seems impossible in the current economic climate!
I really want to travel, have fun build a career and earn good money, but it just seems so impossible right now.
It probably doesn't help that apart from having a few college buddies I have no friends, no one to even go out with and celebrate the end of exams!!!!..I never have/had this problem back home! I'm a social person and I feel so lonely and frustrated.
Sorry for the long post and thank you to anyone who read it! Sorry about my negativity too, I wish I had a different outlook on life.