Binge eating

I wasnt being rude, I was telling you the facts. You wont get much help here, go and see a doctor and talk to someone about it.

sorry for the anon but meh,I don't want people to know who i am because of the sensitivity of what im posting about.

basically,i really think im suffering from a binge eating disorder.or something.ive suffered with eating disorders a few times before(was anorexic at age 8,binge eating at 13,on my way back to being anorexic last year).im on a gap year at the moment and spend a lot of time home alone.when im busy im fine,i dont eat much at all.but the problem comes on days off when im home alone.i eat DISGUSTING quantities of food.

for example today ive had a jacket potato,a bowl of cereal,about 15-20 biscuits(maybe a few more),2 mingles chocolates,2 slices of fruit bread,5 fig rolls and a little easter cake thing.now i feel so sick and like i hate myself but i want to eat more.

i tried to make myself sick earlier but it just wasnt happening and im finding myself on the internet looking for purging tips.

i often wake up in the middle of the night wanting to eat and slapping myself and calling myself a fat bitch and things and then ive been cutting myself too.

i havent gained much weight really(maybe around 9lbs since november,but thats including christmas weight too) but im just really frightened and terrified and feel really out of control.i just dont know what to do.what would the doctor say if i went to see him?

im so terrified of gaining another pound but at the same time i cant seem to stop eating.

how can i break this HORRIBLE cycle of feeling bad,eating,feeling bad.

You have no right to say things like that. People use these forums because they don't know what else to do, your going to do his/her self confidence loads of good, aren't you?

Binge eatings horrible, i hate it.
You really need to talk to someone about this. and dont make yourself sick after youve binged. this is really bad for you. it eventually strips the enamel on your teeth, and will mess up your digestive system.
Maybe you might feel a little better if you binged on healthy stuff. you probably wont feel as guilty if you eat a load of bananas or oranges. i know you will still be eating, but its better to have healthy stuff than biscuits and chocolate.
Do you have a job? if you have a part time one, ask about going full time, or look for a full time job in a shop. i know its boring, but it will keep you occupied for the times that you are home alone, as im guessing this is during the day when your family are at work or school. and if you have a job, then you can save up some money for uni, and not have to worry so much about it when you get there.

its not as simple as just going and seeing a doctor.i mean,what the hell do i say.the doctor i have is not very sympathetic and will probably laugh me out of the surgery,especially as ive never been to him before regarding eating disorders..

i work kind of full time.i do 5 days a week but the 2 days i have off are during the week so nobody is around to keep an eye on me(or rather nobody is around so that i feel deterred from eating)...and with regards to the being sick.i have to.if its in there i have to get it out.i couldnt this morning and now i just feel like crying.i feel really frustrated and,well,the feeling is indescribable really.

Poor you.I ish have some personal experience of ED, but in a wildly different context...mine was more that I had a distorted body image and got a bit (read very!) obsessed with exercise and calories.

I thik you need to determine the underlying cause(s), as painful as this may be. Is there something in your life which is really upsetting you/ or has in the past? Do you have low self-esteem or feel like you don't have an control ovr the direction your life is moving in? (These are just examples- obviously I don't know you so I am just thinking in general terms.)

You have recognised that you have a problem. You know that you feel rubbish and that if you don't rectify your behaviour you're going to end up feeling a hell of a lot worse. This is key- you have realised these points, which I believe is the first step over with. You're not in denial, now you MUST seek outside help.

Swallow your pride, get over your fears of being stigamatised or whatever if this applies. Make an appointment with your GP, go in with an open mind and be honest, admit what has been happening and how it is making you so unhappy. Ask for advice. Also, maybe tell whoever you live with? Just for more emotional suport and so that they can monitor your eating patterns as well. Be brave, nobody is perfect and everybody has weaknesses, they just manifest themselves in different ways..this is/HAS BEEN but DOESN'T HAVE TO BE yours!

On a practical level, why are you doing it?? Is it force if habit now, or is it due to wanting to lose weight? Think of the enormous benefits a healthy, balanced diet will have on your health, wellbeing and general appearence. Eat well and at regular intervals and you reduce your risk of disease and have a healthy glow about you generally. Take exercise. Focus your attention on other things- i.e. social life, work, study, volunteering.

Please talk to friends, famliy members...anyone you trust...about how you're feeling. Do not isolate yourself. You can get over this if you take action NOW!

I hope that helps in someway, sorry I haven't been in the same situation so I'm not sure how it feels.

Good luck

xXx



PS: request to see a different doctor...isn't that within your rights? I though so. Or, ED helpline??? Please get help.

i was in the 'obsessed with exercise and calories' stage a few months back and i was such a lovely weight id love to get back to it.i guess a few things could be upsetting me at the moment-a family member is ill and deteriorating very fast,im stuck here all on my own while my friends are at uni-there are also things from the past like my 'dad' being an alcoholic and hitting me and throwing hot drinks at me when i was young.also ive just felt fat all my life and im just at a loss as to what to do.

i dont think i can tell my mum as she has enough on her platemy friends wont be surprised,they know im funny about my weight and how i look and food and things.

i do have very low self esteem too.the other week i met a really nice guy and he told my friend he liked me but i never called him as i just felt like he was just saying that so he could claim he pulled a fat bird or something.i realise im being silly but i just never think anyone could be attracted to me.

i hope you're better now btw xxx

What is your height/weight? Also do you feel the need to eat fatty foods or just foods in general? Maybe stock up on fruits and veg and dont buy junk food when you shop.

Oh my...your thought patterns seem crazily similar to how I used to think! It's terrible, isn't it? Every nice thing anyone says to you (genuinely!) gets warped by your mind...hmmm, yup, I know this one well. It sounds like you've had a rough time of it and that's what's impacted on you/ provoked the problems. You really can overcome this.

I am what I deem a "healthy weight" now..I still watch what I eat and exercise though, but not like I did...was a size 6/8 at 5'7 so super skinny in retrospect..now i'm a 8/10 top and 12 trousers, so have a more womanly shape. I am getting my weight back down but in all honestly that's a side project! Your weight- i've realised- is pretty irrelevant in the grand scheme of things. Family, friends, relationships, being a wellrounded, confident, happy individual who likes themselves is what matters. Not the size of your thighs or tummy! Your mates will be your mates and men will fancy you regardless. I want to be a bit thinnner (not underweight again!)to get into my old clothes again, but it's not a priority.

Please feel free to PM if you think I could offer you anymore advice. You shouldn't have to go through this alone.

x

im about 5 foot 2 and 9 stone 9 roughly.i always want sweet food but i try to eat a healthy diet otherwise.i dont shop for me,my mum does and although i put things i want in the trolley she still buys biscuits and things which are SO easy to binge on.i asked her not to buy anything i could pick at easily and say 'another one wont hurt' but she still does it and i cant tell her why i asked her not to.its really frustrating,i was even thinking of moving out so i could control my eating.i lived alone for a while and it was so easy for me to eat well without feeling the need to binge.but now its so so hard.

That is exactly how I used to feel. It's difficult to get out of the mindset. When blokes beeped at me or chatted me up or mates said somehting complimentary I'd think they had poor taste (!) or were just being nice. Now I lke how I look and realise what a muppet I was! Looking back at pics, I'd love to be (closer to, not quite!) that size again, I'm so dumb..at the time I thought I was hideously obese. You sound well within your healthy weight range..I bet you're just perfect as you are. And obviously pretty if you're getting male attention! xxx

sorry for the anon but meh,I don't want people to know who i am because of the sensitivity of what im posting about.

basically,i really think im suffering from a binge eating disorder.or something.ive suffered with eating disorders a few times before(was anorexic at age 8,binge eating at 13,on my way back to being anorexic last year).im on a gap year at the moment and spend a lot of time home alone.when im busy im fine,i dont eat much at all.but the problem comes on days off when im home alone.i eat DISGUSTING quantities of food.

for example today ive had a jacket potato,a bowl of cereal,about 15-20 biscuits(maybe a few more),2 mingles chocolates,2 slices of fruit bread,5 fig rolls and a little easter cake thing.now i feel so sick and like i hate myself but i want to eat more.

i tried to make myself sick earlier but it just wasnt happening and im finding myself on the internet looking for purging tips.

i often wake up in the middle of the night wanting to eat and slapping myself and calling myself a fat bitch and things and then ive been cutting myself too.

i havent gained much weight really(maybe around 9lbs since november,but thats including christmas weight too) but im just really frightened and terrified and feel really out of control.i just dont know what to do.what would the doctor say if i went to see him?

im so terrified of gaining another pound but at the same time i cant seem to stop eating.

how can i break this HORRIBLE cycle of feeling bad,eating,feeling bad.