ever since i was a little girl i've had it drummed into me about how (all!) men want to hurt little girls and its not safe to be a girl on her own with men.
jump forward 15 years, and thats still there niggling at the back of my head, and im terrified of being sexually assulted or whatever else.
its not got to the point where its destroyed my life, but i absoulutely hate being around "strange" men on my own, and whilst i will walk to places on my own after dark, it terrifies me. I'm even like it round my parents friends if there "new" or i've never met them before. my family say im shy but its more than that. It sounds crazy but i have this narcasstic belief that if any guy got the chance he would sexually abuse me. I'm even like it round MY male friends when im on my own with them. One offered me a lift home from college once, I was alone with him in his car and I was pretty scared, even tho I'm really good friends with him.
I know this sounds totally crazy, but i dont know what to do