Just a rant I guess :( Watch
A guy I was with who I really liked just doesn't like me in the same way anymore and I don't hear from him much at all now and i didn't get a proper explanation out of him. Sounds petty but it has been years since I have liked someone so its been a long time since I have felt hurt. I don't see the point in having feelings anymore, emotional pain is inevitable once you start to care about someone. Its probably best I didn't get into a relationship anyway, I always seem to mess them up somehow. When I'm in a relationship I just feel anxious and worried all the time anyway. I worry they are with me for the wrong reasons and will want to leave me anyway and end up picking arguments.
On top of this, my cat who I have had since I was a young child is very ill and might only last a few more months the vet said. I was very upset and cried for days when I thought he was going to die, but now I can't even imagine what it would be like without him here and im numb to it.
I don't really know what the point of this thread is.. just a rant I guess