What does he mean by it all?

I was with my boyfriend for a whirlwind 6 months or so, we broke up around last october. Since then we've always kept in touch, speak regularly, and see each other on occasions as we have a group of shared friends. We still do things like buy each other birthday presents etc. Often when i see him alone we end up kissing, and its been known to lead to more. Our break up was kinda confusing, we never had a clean break. We broke up cos he no longer had time to keep what we had when he joined uni, which i do understand, and we just kinda drifted in a bad way, it's made things all the more confusing now.
Anyway, so ive never really been able to get over him. We often argue in a way tht implies theres still tension between us... over us gettin paranoid we like other pple etc. I havent been with anyone else since him. I think he's kissed a few girls, nothing more.
Recently things have been a bit weirder. Last week while really drunk he txt me telling me he was a fool and he loved me and i was his princess etc. Tho he could not remember this later.
I invited him to a party this weekend where i had to take a date, as it was a party with our mutual friends. I found myself being really close to him and i know so much that my feelings are still there. People say the way we look at each other says it all. He tells my friends how much he cares bout me. His friends say he talks bout me all the time. And at the weekend he said he thought he was falling for me.
Since then we've ignored the subject really. ( at this point i shud prob say we ended up kissin at the weekend). He hasnt mentioned anything about 'us' and has made hints tht he doesnt know waht he wants. My problem is what do i do now?? I have so many feelings for him and couldnt possibly block him out of my life as he is one of my best friends even since we have been apart. But its so hard being in this position. I dont want to get with anyone else and its been harder to try to move on since this has started recently. But in reality i cant see us gettin back together just now. Maybe in the future i dont know, but im not sure it wud happen at the moment, and i dont know if i even want it to. But what do i do from here??? :confused:

Usually i can just stop thinking bout him and get on with my life but since the weekend i havent been able to stop thinking bout him. :frown:

Sorry this is so long! And if anyone has anything to say to help me. Please do!

Reply 1

username47781

Well i dont know why you two broke up in the first place without working it out first, i think now this is the time for you two to have a proper talk about what you both want, because clearly you two are not over each other.