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ahh my life !!!
Aright this thread might be silly and i duno how people would react to it but i have no where to go and i know TSR is the right place so u guys feel free to advice me.. or tell me wat i should do.. and im sorry its going to be a lil long
hhhh... Well im 18 going to turn 19 after a month. And im doing A/Ls and am a good student. My overall image is good and people often reffer to me as that sweet guy.. im never into fights and im a problem solver... im calm person and ahh.. kind of inclined to books. im not a nerd.. and many ppal look up to me.. for n e thing they want to do.. or they would jus prefer asking advice from me.. or even sharing stuff.. im a good listener
but i duno im down all the time. out of 7 days im in an ok mood for 3 days.. a lil down .. and calmed n quiet for 3 days. and excited/deexcited for 1 of the days.. but mostly im down n i feel a lil blue. yeah im into girls and im perfectly a normal guy but i prefer to hangout a lot with guys and im a bisexual. I have a boyfriend hus 29 and wer getting along sooooooooo well we njoy the age gap .. i like when he talks bout work n all.. and he njoys when i talk bout high school .. wer serious with eachother we even know we dont have a good future ahead.. guys with guys r jus not meant to be.. so we know we will one day have to take different paths. Hes jus like me.. guess exactly like me.. we have common interests.. we cuddle a lot and i jus liek hima lot... hes always by myside advicing me and helping me out..
now comes my problem.. i feeel that watever i m and watever im doing is TOTALLY wrong... going out with a guy and being down for most of the time.. firstly being out with a guy is makin me a lil bit kind of not guyish.. i had a girlfriend b4..serious one and we got along well too.. but i left her after 1.5 years cuz she was leaving this country and moving out..so it wasnt a good idea to keep long distance relationship.. im scared of them.. then i met this guy.. and.. am happy..when i say im not feeling guyish is because all the time i jus want to be in his arms.. like a girl all cuddles up into a mans chest .. burying her face init. my girlfriend used to love my chest.. yeah ive got a tight one.. she used to jus stay in my arms every time we were together.. doing that with this person makes me feel girlish.. but i like it.. on the other hand.. even feelign like a guy.. i do.. but sometimes.. i feel im down becase of this.. im scared that this will jus disrupt my sexuality.. im a bi... i like girls too.. but i feel staying with him will make me a clear bottom..
but hes jussssssss so nice.. or isit that im blinded cant be.. cuz i analyzse him from every angle i can. Hes so perfect and i admire him..
my dad on the other hand expects SO much from me.. and i feel this is disturbing my studies.. i really admire perfect ppal.. and i want to be like them.. and i also know that if i leave him il be no where . Il be all dead n lying down dizzy on my bed without eating food n sleepin. Im in a muslim country.. so gay life has no future.. i dont want a future like that but i js want a good relationship.. im 18 hes 29... and he never touched me till i allowd him.. he donest touch me even now.. untill i start n e thing.. he jus feels constantly guilty beign with me.. cuz im omly 18.. and he feels hes using me.. he tries his best to keep up with me.. not hurting me.. or telling me the right direction cuz im kind of not that toughyl matured as he is.. ofcourse hes 29.. he doesnt want to do ne thing further than oral cuz he says hes feelin bad .. because of my age.. so we limit ourselves to jus oral.. and.. we share a lot.. we talk a lot and hes so much involved n m life and im too. we cant live without each other. i feel im in a vulnerable position of life. sometimes i feel SOOOOOOO pathetic bout wat i m. Sometimes i njoy it sometimes i ignore it.
This is stressful. I remmebr the time i was fighting back my gaysim.. i stressed myself.. i didnt want to even think bout guys.. but i duno.. i was abused. I was trying my best to overcome these gayish feelings for mayb 5 years.. when i turned 18.. i let myself out.. relazed.. am so.. cool n calm now.. im not stressed the wya i was..
im jus so..... not in order.. not focused on my future. im scared im spoiling my future..
someone plz help me and im not really in a mood to hear stuff which is going to hurt me..
hhhh... Well im 18 going to turn 19 after a month. And im doing A/Ls and am a good student. My overall image is good and people often reffer to me as that sweet guy.. im never into fights and im a problem solver... im calm person and ahh.. kind of inclined to books. im not a nerd.. and many ppal look up to me.. for n e thing they want to do.. or they would jus prefer asking advice from me.. or even sharing stuff.. im a good listener
but i duno im down all the time. out of 7 days im in an ok mood for 3 days.. a lil down .. and calmed n quiet for 3 days. and excited/deexcited for 1 of the days.. but mostly im down n i feel a lil blue. yeah im into girls and im perfectly a normal guy but i prefer to hangout a lot with guys and im a bisexual. I have a boyfriend hus 29 and wer getting along sooooooooo well we njoy the age gap .. i like when he talks bout work n all.. and he njoys when i talk bout high school .. wer serious with eachother we even know we dont have a good future ahead.. guys with guys r jus not meant to be.. so we know we will one day have to take different paths. Hes jus like me.. guess exactly like me.. we have common interests.. we cuddle a lot and i jus liek hima lot... hes always by myside advicing me and helping me out..
now comes my problem.. i feeel that watever i m and watever im doing is TOTALLY wrong... going out with a guy and being down for most of the time.. firstly being out with a guy is makin me a lil bit kind of not guyish.. i had a girlfriend b4..serious one and we got along well too.. but i left her after 1.5 years cuz she was leaving this country and moving out..so it wasnt a good idea to keep long distance relationship.. im scared of them.. then i met this guy.. and.. am happy..when i say im not feeling guyish is because all the time i jus want to be in his arms.. like a girl all cuddles up into a mans chest .. burying her face init. my girlfriend used to love my chest.. yeah ive got a tight one.. she used to jus stay in my arms every time we were together.. doing that with this person makes me feel girlish.. but i like it.. on the other hand.. even feelign like a guy.. i do.. but sometimes.. i feel im down becase of this.. im scared that this will jus disrupt my sexuality.. im a bi... i like girls too.. but i feel staying with him will make me a clear bottom..
but hes jussssssss so nice.. or isit that im blinded cant be.. cuz i analyzse him from every angle i can. Hes so perfect and i admire him..
my dad on the other hand expects SO much from me.. and i feel this is disturbing my studies.. i really admire perfect ppal.. and i want to be like them.. and i also know that if i leave him il be no where . Il be all dead n lying down dizzy on my bed without eating food n sleepin. Im in a muslim country.. so gay life has no future.. i dont want a future like that but i js want a good relationship.. im 18 hes 29... and he never touched me till i allowd him.. he donest touch me even now.. untill i start n e thing.. he jus feels constantly guilty beign with me.. cuz im omly 18.. and he feels hes using me.. he tries his best to keep up with me.. not hurting me.. or telling me the right direction cuz im kind of not that toughyl matured as he is.. ofcourse hes 29.. he doesnt want to do ne thing further than oral cuz he says hes feelin bad .. because of my age.. so we limit ourselves to jus oral.. and.. we share a lot.. we talk a lot and hes so much involved n m life and im too. we cant live without each other. i feel im in a vulnerable position of life. sometimes i feel SOOOOOOO pathetic bout wat i m. Sometimes i njoy it sometimes i ignore it.
This is stressful. I remmebr the time i was fighting back my gaysim.. i stressed myself.. i didnt want to even think bout guys.. but i duno.. i was abused. I was trying my best to overcome these gayish feelings for mayb 5 years.. when i turned 18.. i let myself out.. relazed.. am so.. cool n calm now.. im not stressed the wya i was..
im jus so..... not in order.. not focused on my future. im scared im spoiling my future..
someone plz help me and im not really in a mood to hear stuff which is going to hurt me..
I know it's difficult - I am similar because within me I have two personalities - one male and one female, and I may be slightly bisexual, but with a bias towards women. I say "may" because I haven't had a relationship with either sex to know. Your post reminded me of myself when you mentioned how you sometimes feel "female" with your partner, but more like a man with your previous girlfriend. However, at our age, it is very easy to feel like everything is vague and messed up, with no particular direction. Perhaps talking about this sort of thing to a close friend, or your partner will help you make things clearer, which will help you to feel better. I think also you should follow your heart and where you feel most free, rather than what you think is "right". Never take a choice where you have to keep "convincing" yourself. Good luck...
dude,i have never been in any such situation but you have to do what YOU feel is right, not what is expected by you, F**K what others think, life is to short, you have to do what is right for you not for anyone else... if you have doubts about your current situation, then it probably isn't right for you at the moment, it doesn't matter if your with a dude or a chick its what right for you that counts, it seems like you need to get your head in check before you commit yourself to something/someone... dont rush into stuff, you got your whole life to find yourself, take your time and enjoy your youth
you say youre from a muslim background? then my advice to you, being religious also, is to pray about it and seek advice that way, its the best thing u can do. If you are not religious at all and only muslim by way of family trend so to speak then all I can say is to confide in him about how you are feeling. you clearly seem very close so he is bound to understand and if you are that close to each other telling him shouldnt be a problem as he is obviously someone you share eveyrthing with. let us know how it goes
xx ps.. there is always a silver lining to every cloud *hugs*
xx ps.. there is always a silver lining to every cloud *hugs*
I mentioned it. I did pray and i did fight this gayism for 5 years. From age 13 to 17/18.. I used to pray hard asking refuge and i was ashamed of myself. I tired my best to become 100% straight. But i jus stressed myself more n more.. and i reached a point where my selfesteem was dieing. Now i feel better cuz i let go things. I dont fight it back.. if i feel attracted to a guy.. i take it normal..
but i know deep down i should try again.. but i even know trying it the second time wil mess my life again. I also know these are obstacles to cross once u defeat it u win and dont look back.. mayb i want that feeling. But its jusss so hard and torturing. Right now all i want is to be happy.. ive suffered a lot. i was badly sexually abused when i was 10... that has a strong impact on me..
i really duno where im heading
but i know deep down i should try again.. but i even know trying it the second time wil mess my life again. I also know these are obstacles to cross once u defeat it u win and dont look back.. mayb i want that feeling. But its jusss so hard and torturing. Right now all i want is to be happy.. ive suffered a lot. i was badly sexually abused when i was 10... that has a strong impact on me..
i really duno where im heading
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Aright this thread might be silly and i duno how people would react to it but i have no where to go and i know TSR is the right place so u guys feel free to advice me.. or tell me wat i should do.. and im sorry its going to be a lil long
hhhh... Well im 18 going to turn 19 after a month. And im doing A/Ls and am a good student. My overall image is good and people often reffer to me as that sweet guy.. im never into fights and im a problem solver... im calm person and ahh.. kind of inclined to books. im not a nerd.. and many ppal look up to me.. for n e thing they want to do.. or they would jus prefer asking advice from me.. or even sharing stuff.. im a good listener
but i duno im down all the time. out of 7 days im in an ok mood for 3 days.. a lil down .. and calmed n quiet for 3 days. and excited/deexcited for 1 of the days.. but mostly im down n i feel a lil blue. yeah im into girls and im perfectly a normal guy but i prefer to hangout a lot with guys and im a bisexual. I have a boyfriend hus 29 and wer getting along sooooooooo well we njoy the age gap .. i like when he talks bout work n all.. and he njoys when i talk bout high school .. wer serious with eachother we even know we dont have a good future ahead.. guys with guys r jus not meant to be.. so we know we will one day have to take different paths. Hes jus like me.. guess exactly like me.. we have common interests.. we cuddle a lot and i jus liek hima lot... hes always by myside advicing me and helping me out..
now comes my problem.. i feeel that watever i m and watever im doing is TOTALLY wrong... going out with a guy and being down for most of the time.. firstly being out with a guy is makin me a lil bit kind of not guyish.. i had a girlfriend b4..serious one and we got along well too.. but i left her after 1.5 years cuz she was leaving this country and moving out..so it wasnt a good idea to keep long distance relationship.. im scared of them.. then i met this guy.. and.. am happy..when i say im not feeling guyish is because all the time i jus want to be in his arms.. like a girl all cuddles up into a mans chest .. burying her face init. my girlfriend used to love my chest.. yeah ive got a tight one.. she used to jus stay in my arms every time we were together.. doing that with this person makes me feel girlish.. but i like it.. on the other hand.. even feelign like a guy.. i do.. but sometimes.. i feel im down becase of this.. im scared that this will jus disrupt my sexuality.. im a bi... i like girls too.. but i feel staying with him will make me a clear bottom..
but hes jussssssss so nice.. or isit that im blinded cant be.. cuz i analyzse him from every angle i can. Hes so perfect and i admire him..
my dad on the other hand expects SO much from me.. and i feel this is disturbing my studies.. i really admire perfect ppal.. and i want to be like them.. and i also know that if i leave him il be no where . Il be all dead n lying down dizzy on my bed without eating food n sleepin. Im in a muslim country.. so gay life has no future.. i dont want a future like that but i js want a good relationship.. im 18 hes 29... and he never touched me till i allowd him.. he donest touch me even now.. untill i start n e thing.. he jus feels constantly guilty beign with me.. cuz im omly 18.. and he feels hes using me.. he tries his best to keep up with me.. not hurting me.. or telling me the right direction cuz im kind of not that toughyl matured as he is.. ofcourse hes 29.. he doesnt want to do ne thing further than oral cuz he says hes feelin bad .. because of my age.. so we limit ourselves to jus oral.. and.. we share a lot.. we talk a lot and hes so much involved n m life and im too. we cant live without each other. i feel im in a vulnerable position of life. sometimes i feel SOOOOOOO pathetic bout wat i m. Sometimes i njoy it sometimes i ignore it.
This is stressful. I remmebr the time i was fighting back my gaysim.. i stressed myself.. i didnt want to even think bout guys.. but i duno.. i was abused. I was trying my best to overcome these gayish feelings for mayb 5 years.. when i turned 18.. i let myself out.. relazed.. am so.. cool n calm now.. im not stressed the wya i was..
im jus so..... not in order.. not focused on my future. im scared im spoiling my future..
someone plz help me and im not really in a mood to hear stuff which is going to hurt me..
hhhh... Well im 18 going to turn 19 after a month. And im doing A/Ls and am a good student. My overall image is good and people often reffer to me as that sweet guy.. im never into fights and im a problem solver... im calm person and ahh.. kind of inclined to books. im not a nerd.. and many ppal look up to me.. for n e thing they want to do.. or they would jus prefer asking advice from me.. or even sharing stuff.. im a good listener
but i duno im down all the time. out of 7 days im in an ok mood for 3 days.. a lil down .. and calmed n quiet for 3 days. and excited/deexcited for 1 of the days.. but mostly im down n i feel a lil blue. yeah im into girls and im perfectly a normal guy but i prefer to hangout a lot with guys and im a bisexual. I have a boyfriend hus 29 and wer getting along sooooooooo well we njoy the age gap .. i like when he talks bout work n all.. and he njoys when i talk bout high school .. wer serious with eachother we even know we dont have a good future ahead.. guys with guys r jus not meant to be.. so we know we will one day have to take different paths. Hes jus like me.. guess exactly like me.. we have common interests.. we cuddle a lot and i jus liek hima lot... hes always by myside advicing me and helping me out..
now comes my problem.. i feeel that watever i m and watever im doing is TOTALLY wrong... going out with a guy and being down for most of the time.. firstly being out with a guy is makin me a lil bit kind of not guyish.. i had a girlfriend b4..serious one and we got along well too.. but i left her after 1.5 years cuz she was leaving this country and moving out..so it wasnt a good idea to keep long distance relationship.. im scared of them.. then i met this guy.. and.. am happy..when i say im not feeling guyish is because all the time i jus want to be in his arms.. like a girl all cuddles up into a mans chest .. burying her face init. my girlfriend used to love my chest.. yeah ive got a tight one.. she used to jus stay in my arms every time we were together.. doing that with this person makes me feel girlish.. but i like it.. on the other hand.. even feelign like a guy.. i do.. but sometimes.. i feel im down becase of this.. im scared that this will jus disrupt my sexuality.. im a bi... i like girls too.. but i feel staying with him will make me a clear bottom..
but hes jussssssss so nice.. or isit that im blinded cant be.. cuz i analyzse him from every angle i can. Hes so perfect and i admire him..
my dad on the other hand expects SO much from me.. and i feel this is disturbing my studies.. i really admire perfect ppal.. and i want to be like them.. and i also know that if i leave him il be no where . Il be all dead n lying down dizzy on my bed without eating food n sleepin. Im in a muslim country.. so gay life has no future.. i dont want a future like that but i js want a good relationship.. im 18 hes 29... and he never touched me till i allowd him.. he donest touch me even now.. untill i start n e thing.. he jus feels constantly guilty beign with me.. cuz im omly 18.. and he feels hes using me.. he tries his best to keep up with me.. not hurting me.. or telling me the right direction cuz im kind of not that toughyl matured as he is.. ofcourse hes 29.. he doesnt want to do ne thing further than oral cuz he says hes feelin bad .. because of my age.. so we limit ourselves to jus oral.. and.. we share a lot.. we talk a lot and hes so much involved n m life and im too. we cant live without each other. i feel im in a vulnerable position of life. sometimes i feel SOOOOOOO pathetic bout wat i m. Sometimes i njoy it sometimes i ignore it.
This is stressful. I remmebr the time i was fighting back my gaysim.. i stressed myself.. i didnt want to even think bout guys.. but i duno.. i was abused. I was trying my best to overcome these gayish feelings for mayb 5 years.. when i turned 18.. i let myself out.. relazed.. am so.. cool n calm now.. im not stressed the wya i was..
im jus so..... not in order.. not focused on my future. im scared im spoiling my future..
someone plz help me and im not really in a mood to hear stuff which is going to hurt me..
You may wish to condense that into a paragraph of English.
Besides my life is probably (by your standard) worse. I am far more bookish, I have no girlfriend - my foray into that area met with resounding calamity - and my future is in a great deal of doubt.
Then again I am not a bisexual in a Muslim country, so you win pessimism points there.
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