As opposed to me actually having a problem, it seems that SO many people, particularly girls suffer from very severe depression.
Thought I would just chat about my own experience and give my advice, so people can read and see that they arent alone.
My depression started at the beginning of year 12, when I was 16. Ive never had any serious problems in life- been abused or anything but still I managed to really struggle to deal with everything in my life. The changes that most year 12s face, changing from GCSE to A Levels, really put a strain on me, plus friendship changes and taking on loads of extra curricular activies. After one, very drunken night, and having to go to hospital the depression really kicked in, I was really ashamed of having gotten so 'off my face'. I told all my friends i was grounded, but i mean my parents never ground me! This went on for 3 months, I was feeling more and more alone, I stopped talking to everyone.
Then the crying started, before school and after, until eventually i stopped going to school altogether. This took around 5 months... my family forced me, I mean FORCED me to go to my GP... and i was transferred to a psychiatric and counselling clinic. Despite the fact that it sounded really scary, I was i guess relieved. It was thought that I was at such risk I had to be put on anti-depressents right away- Flouxetine (cant spell that despite being a biochem to be student!).
I dont know whether it was actually the pills, or knowing something was being done. The crying stopped almost immedietely. It was really really tough, especially being so close to the exams, and of course there were side effects but they were worth it. I had to push myself sometimes to get up in the morning, and Im not at the end of year 13... having offers from my unis, being able to do what I want to do. Im still on anti-depressents, and I still have to see a counsellor, to ensure that we dont just 'quick-fix' this and sort it out thoroughly. But I want anyone who is suffering to know that it seems like the end of the world, but with support from other people, its possible to beat. And its so common these days with the pressure we are all put through! Good luck everyone facing exams...and if anyone needs to talk Im here...