Advice please

feel pretty down right now! man trouble-(lol is that gasps of surprise i hear?)
Anyways heres how the story goes!
About 2 months ago i broke up with my boyfriend of 1 year and a half! he wasnt good for me-always put my opinions down and making me feel bad! Sometimes my fault sometimes good! They only reason i stayed with him for soo long was because i never really felt loved as a kid and i would do anything to hold onto it but eventually i couldnt take anymore.
So once things were over it was great and i felt free and for the first time in ages i knew wot i really wanted!I started seeing my friends as much as i used to an eveything was great. started getting into a habit of getting drunk an sleeping around dont really no why i do it!! makes me feel good i suppose.

Anyways the guy i m frustrated about isnt just some random shag! we ve known each other for a while as we play sport together! we always got on really well as we like the same music and tv etc and he really makes me laugh! anyways the other night i met him in the pub and we went to another pub just me and him, he payed for drinks, pool etc. He didnt drink anything! he then invited me back to his and we watched a dvd! it was really nice. Then things started getting a bit heavy and we were almost having sex but before we did it he asked me if i was sure to which i reply "no" i decided that i liked him to much just to use him for sex. he was great about it an we just spent all night chatting! we got on really well! in the morning he was still total sweet and i stayed til about 3! he gave me his number and said to txt anytime and he said we should meet up on sunday! so then on sat i really embaressingly drunkenly txt him but he was kewl about it. On sunday i was busy but i txt him much later on saying " do u wanna do something monday was gonna txt u 2night but i didnt have the courage" he says " busy on monday during the day but i might be free at night" i say "look i really like u, if ur not interested i wont take offense" --he says " i am! we ll meet up on monday if i m not busy" i say " kk kewl just let me know as soon as u do so i can make plans" Him --"okies wil do night night" alll monday nooooothing no txt! i was pretty sure he wasnt really interest but i gave it a shot! anyways i txt him saying" cheers for txting think i got u wrong" he says " sorry i was busy all day" I say " yeah i figured but u said u txt and i think ur pretty rude for not" and then nooo reply! now i feel really down and i dont even know why! i think its frustration about lack of boyfriend and how badly i ve handled this situation with this one!! wot do u all think!! I know i sound really desperate btw and i m deeply ashamed of myself bt at least use will never know who i am!! thanx alot guys!
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i have to see him at sport 2moz but i think i might skip it! i m pretty busy anyways and i total cant face seeing him! wot do ya reckon! than for the advice btw! i dont think it ll go anywhere cos i m not willing make all the move --that is it from me so the balls in his court an i really dont see him bothering!! ach well i ll get over it soon enough! its just he s the first guy i ve actually properly like in ages! i just feel annoyed cos if he didnt like me i wish he would just have said but i suppose he s hinted enough and its about time it take the hint! oh well xx
yeah chris my mates rock they make everything like this seem so dumb and we always laugh about how worked up we got about it earlier lool! no i dont suppose sleeping around makes me feel happy--really cheap actually but wanted by men--yes ! ach i dunno i m just a bit confused! thanx for ur advice