Hi everyone
I have had a really bad time of it recently, with some deaths in the family and a particularly bad break up, and I'm just looking for some advice really.
This summer, I had applied for a job as a holiday rep, and got through to the last stage, but said relationship had a big effect on me and I chose to mess up my training in order to stay in the country, for what I thought was 'love'. Shame it didn't turn out that way, and after numerous problems and fights, we have decided to call it a day.
Now, I am upset that I wasted my chance to do something I had always dreamed about, and I can't get my chance back (with this particular company), I tried.
I have applied for a different company and got through to the interview stage, but I am worried that I am just trying to escape my problems instead of dealing with them.
Do you think I should leave it for this year, and maybe have some sort of counselling to overcome my problems?
The only worry I have is that I will go, and be homesick and this will make it worse.
But last summer when I came home from Uni for the holidays I suffered from depression (bored all day, no friends at home), so maybe this could be the one thing I really need?
I'm very confused, please help!