Why We Fight.Watch
It's something I keep wondering about.
Imagine you are a fourteen years- old male. Your parents decided to take you away from the only home you have ever known and you are transported to a faraway land. Your home happens to be the troubled island paradise of Haiti and the farway land is the USA.
At first, you are smitten. There are so many novelties. Electricity 24/7. Better Food. Better Security.
Possibly longer life if you play your cards right. Better opportunities for education. You go to live in a small town in Massachusetts. You go through high school. You are an illegal immigrant so you cannot work. Worse, you are black and male in 21st century America and that's a double stigma. You wake up everyday knowing that you are part of a group that is considered to be violent and troublesome. You are what cops are trained to hunt. You will be blamed for any crime and a jury composed of people who are NOT your peers will condemn you any chance they get.
As high school nears its end, you come to notice certain things. You were always a shy quiet kid.
You were chubby as a child and a bit of an introvert. You meet a beautiful girl. Let's call her Jennifer. You become friends. You hang out and chill. Movies. Lunches. School. The works.
You have fallen in love. She cares for you (so she says) but does not want to be more than friends.
You are hurt but struggle to move on. You focus your energies on other things. You join a Church Group.
You are around young Haitian boys and girls like yourself. You feel like you belong. The Church has become home away from home. Your parents approve. Finally, you are meeting people. You develop an interest in a girl. Let's call her Nicole. She reciprocates. You like her and she likes you.
You feel like something is wrong. She gets away from you. You feel strange. The Church is speaking against sinners and homosexuals. They condemn such people. You have always been masculine and alright yet different. You meet a boy named Sean. You develop a friendship. You meet a girl named Michelle and you and Sean fight over her. Then, you come to realize you have feelings for both Sean and Michelle.
You are scared. You are in denial. You want to be normal. You know homosexuality is wrong and against the laws of nature and the Church. You feel alone. You even seriously consider suicide. The images you see of homosexuals are not positive. They are effeminate and ridiculous. You are a masculine young man and you do not want to become as they are.
You do research on the Web. Along the way, you discover Black People Issues, Women's Issues and Sexuality Issues.
You see the world in a new way. You come to realize it is tough for the men and women in it. Families are broken as one parent becomes gay, unfaithful, abusive or distant. Men can hurt women. Women can and do hurt men physically, emotionally and financially. Your views of the perfect world are challenged. You feel as though you can no longer trust the men and women of America. They lie and cheat and abuse. They falsely accuse. They hurt others. You feel cursed to be here. Your doubts over your sexuality are still around. You feel attracted to beautiful women. You also feel a certain attraction to men, but it is weaker than your attraction to women. Your emotional attraction to men is so powerful it scares you. You are perfectly capable of being attracted to a woman and take her places and treat her right and even have sex with her AND enjoy it. But for a man, as you have noticed how protective you are of your male friends, you will fight and even die. Your feelings are that strong.
You consider yourself to be bisexual. You still stare when a hot woman walks by. You might fantasize about her. But when an interesting man comes, you want to get to know him and have him get to know you. You are divided. Your body yearns for women. Your soul and mind yearns for men.
What ARE you ?
You know. You have accepted it. High school is over. You come to Boston to study. You are just another tall, big black male in the city. You feel unsafe because there are men and women out there who hate you for being what you are. You will show your face one day. You are Bi-Sexual and Proud.
Not straight and not gay. Bi and Proud. Maybe your family will not accept it. Maybe women and men will reject you because of it. You don't care. You are all man. Big and strong and masculine. You don't NEED anyone or anything.
They tried to put you down....and created a fighter.
My rights......that is why I fight.
Why do you fight ? what's your reason to live ?
What happened to all the love triangles?
im surprised you didn't win any oscars last week
Hey, just telling it like it is, people.
Wow, only a passing reference to bisexuality this time.
What happened to all the love triangles?