Hey
Not sure if this is the right place for this, but it involved relationships and essentially mental health. So here goes:
So i'm in high school now, doing my last year hopefully, then off to uni. Right now my life is kinda **** because of everything. Basically my entire life, and whether or not i fulfill my ultimate ambitions is riding on the 5 measly grades that will come slipping through my door in august to tell me whether or not i met my conditions for uni. So i'm under loads of pressure and frantic studying just doesn't seem to be helping me at all!!
On a happier note i have no life

that's right. I have loads of school friends etc. However, my main friends who i hang about with have been out doing all sorts during easter holidays, and i haven't been invited to any of it...so i've kinda had a falling out with that lot...and if i'm honest i couldn't care less if i didn't keep in contact with anyone of them except perhaps one of them...so i've been stuck in my house basically for the past fortnight, mainly studying and sitting on the internet doing nothing, gaining weight!!
However, even if my friends did invite me out, i have no money, because i have no job, because i'm so paranoid about exams that i'm spending as much time as possible studying.
I don't have a girlfriend, i don't have any female relationships that aren't family actually. I haven't even KISSED a girl since a year come august. I have no female interest from the fact that i don't go out and am overweight because i have no money to go out and meet a girl or to get to the gym, because i have exams, and because i have no good close friends to go out with now. So it's a kinda big vicious circle that can't end until exams are over and i meet new people and go out!!
So i guess i'm just needing assurence that this will all happen! Will my seemingly never ending studying pay off and get me into uni? 'cause it sure don't seem like it...Will i meet new people who aren't complete ***** and will involve me in things?(this year i'm pretty much the only person i know who's going to uni to do what i'm going to do)...I can take care of the fatness and that kind of thing...but will the rest pan out in due time?
Thank you for listening to my rant
