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Am I depressed?

It seems to me like I tick every box. I'm always exhausted, I don't sleep because of nightmares or the fact that as soon as my head hits the pillow *I'm not tired*, I don't do what I used to do all the time because I don't enjoy it anymore, it's become boring and pointless to me.

I see no point in *doing* anything anymore. I see life as a repetitive cycle towards the same inevitable end. Wow, that sounds so deep but it's not. It's the simplest of concepts I feel like I am the only one to have grabbed the concept properly! I often wonder why no one else has seen this, has seen the fact that we die.

My life is pointless. But I don't wanna die. I wanna stay alive and see if people in their 40's are actually enlightened as to what the "point" is, or just as ignorant as the 17 year olds I hang about with now.

The main reason I'm bothered about this is that it's starting to affect my family. I often snap at my mother and father for no reason, just because I'm so irritable. Often I get so wound up that any noise, any contact, ANYTHING can make me snap and I'll scream and go upstairs and cry. I'm not just being a stubborn teenager and being in a mood though, I've done all that. The noise, the touch of someone else actually physically grates at my being. I feel uneasy just THINKING about it. Ergh.

Anyway do you think I'm depressed or do I just think about stuff too much and need to get a life?

Be brutally honest.

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Reply 1
isn't this called the hormonal imbalance of puberty? I don't mean to be mean but from personal experience (and experience of my friends) such "depressed" stage of an adolescent's life is pretty common...supposedly it will just go away but you may as well just try to control yourself.. I know it's easier to say than to actually do so but... you know...it's just a suggestion :rolleyes:
Reply 2
I think i have all the symptons you listed above as well, its since i started uni i've been well bored and fed up with life generally
Reply 3
Yeah this is what I mean, I've been looking at signs of depression and yeah I fit them all but doesn't ever teenager? - I mean doesn't everyone have this time in their life when they just can't be arsed?

Are we labelling something that isn't there?
Reply 4
If you think you are depressed you should see your GP and ask for help. I wouldn't accept anti-depressants if they offer them to you though, because they don't solve anything in the long run and tend to cause you more problems. I disagree with the above person to dismiss it as hormonal imbalance, because they're not qualified to say that. However, a hormone imbalance could cause you to feel depressed, and depression can also cause hormonal imbalance! So check with your GP, but ultimately I think you'd probably benefit from counselling.
Reply 5
I can see myself making the counsellor depressed though! Like my last one was always crying at the end of the session even if I hadn't said anything.

BTW - Maybe I should also mention that I used to self harm but don't anymore.
dw im sure lots of people have times in their life where they think its all pointless and they want to get out of the never-ending cycle. You need to find a reason to live and stuff. Try to set goals and work towards something good. I dont know what that is because itd be different for a lot of people...

things like what this topic:
http://www.thestudentroom.co.uk/showthread.php?t=215700
go into ususually makes me feel pretty sad but meh thats life. It is what you make of it :smile:

As for the other stuff, its probably all coming together eg lack of sleep makes you irratable, being irratable makes you unhappy, being unhappy makes u sleep less and stuff.

But i dont know, if it is serious, ask a doctor.
Reply 7
Anonymous
I can see myself making the counsellor depressed though! Like my last one was always crying at the end of the session even if I hadn't said anything.


That just sounds like an incompetent counsellor, try finding another one.

BTW - Maybe I should also mention that I used to self harm but don't anymore.

OK, so it seems like you have issues. Trying counselling again would be a good start, and also try asking your GP to refer you to a psychiatrist. :smile:
I feel exactly the same as you. This is going to sound silly but I've always thought there was no point to life, it just that until very recently I was able to ignore it and it never affected my life. Now I can't seem to forget it and it's pissing me off. I just feel sad a lot of the time and wish I could go back to how it was. I find it difficult to care about things that used to occupy my life and it's horrible - I really want to feel that something matters, that there's somthing worth caring about. So you're not alone.

I'm trying to take up some new activities and make plans for the summer, somthing to look forward to. I'm also getting counselling. You could try the same things.
i have exactly the same question as the OP but my symptoms are a bit different:

-uncontrollable mood swings
-frequent+extended crying episodes (ie. almost every night) for no real reason...or lots of stupid little reasons....or even one small thing can set me off:confused:
-weird appetites...either eat too much or forget to eat
-constant lack of energy/tiredness
-inability to concentrate
-insomnia (and, paradoxically, once i get to sleep i sleep far to much...its like i'm paralyzed and can't get out of bed...odd feeling really)
-started getting drunk on a regular basis...i never used to drink:frown:
-the stereotypical feelings of sadness/loneliness etc
-i'm more volatile and get angry more easily...i've started pushing my friends away and thats the last thing i would want to do i just can't help it

jeez...looking at this list i look like a proper nutcase:redface:
this has being going on since around january, and as you can guess, i'm not doing too well in class or work in general!! i was just wondering if this sounds like hormones as well, or some other illness (or is it illness at all? maybe i'm just lazy, but i never used to be) or actual depression
i can deal with the occasional sadness but the physical symptoms especially are really disruptive!
any honest opinions would be appreciated:confused:
Reply 10
Well, the problems in the OP are more things that affect me on a daily basis, I often get like a really random urge to go out and get WASTED, but not the way most people do, I think - well, people my age.

It's like I either don't wanna drink at all or I wanna be totally and utterly ratarsed and on the floor not feeling/thinking anything.

Meh, I call it being a teenager really
Anonymous
Well, the problems in the OP are more things that affect me on a daily basis, I often get like a really random urge to go out and get WASTED, but not the way most people do, I think - well, people my age.

It's like I either don't wanna drink at all or I wanna be totally and utterly ratarsed and on the floor not feeling/thinking anything.

Meh, I call it being a teenager really


i dunno though, other teenagers seem to have energy at least sometimes, and to be able to write 100 words in less than 5 hours, and get to sleep all right and feed themselves...and go a day without getting ridiculously emotional...
Reply 12
Anonymous
i dunno though, other teenagers seem to have energy at least sometimes, and to be able to write 100 words in less than 5 hours, and get to sleep all right and feed themselves...and go a day without getting ridiculously emotional...
How do you know that though?

Aren't we provng ourselves my posting anon that people tend to keep these feelings a secret?
Anonymous
How do you know that though?

Aren't we provng ourselves my posting anon that people tend to keep these feelings a secret?


i'm not talking about just "feelings" i'm talking mainly about physical symptoms!!

physical symptoms which have been affecting my everyday life quite a bit for the last 4 months, to be more precise...!

forgive the drama lol but i was hoping for something a bit more on the medical side than "its normal it's just hormones". :p: i'm sure you were originally hoping for some sort of diagnosis too:biggrin:
Reply 14
I don't know about you but, none of my friends know I don't sleep or eat.

If I'm tired I say I got to bed late.
If I don't eat I say I'm not hungry.
I never openly cry in front of people. (even recently at college I have felt the need to cry and gone in the toilets, just to avoid making up excuses)
I don't have any close mates that I care about enough/that care enough about me to actually talk about and as these things. People do say they're worried and they do say I sometimes look quite tearful/upset if I'm not talking/doing anything, but that's the extent of their cares I think.

My mum has nothiced I'm very snappy, irritable, don't sleep don't eat etc, but she keeps referring to "that time of the month". I think it's just "that time of my life". Well, I hope it is.
Anonymous
I don't know about you but, none of my friends know I don't sleep or eat.

If I'm tired I say I got to bed late.
If I don't eat I say I'm not hungry.
I never openly cry in front of people. (even recently at college I have felt the need to cry and gone in the toilets, just to avoid making up excuses)
I don't have any close mates that I care about enough/that care enough about me to actually talk about and as these things. People do say they're worried and they do say I sometimes look quite tearful/upset if I'm not talking/doing anything, but that's the extent of their cares I think.

My mum has nothiced I'm very snappy, irritable, don't sleep don't eat etc, but she keeps referring to "that time of the month". I think it's just "that time of my life". Well, I hope it is.


my friends don't know i'm messed up either...but i know they would care if i told them, yay:smile: at least it has nothing to do with not having good friends or a loving family or anything. Which is why i started looking for a medical explanation, because i can't really see a decent external reason.

i'm sure people mean it when they say they are worried about you, its just that they don't really know the extent of your depression (or whatever you want to call it) so of course there is a limit to how much they care...but ONLY because there is a limit to how much they know!

however, i still disagree with the idea of "its normal...hormones". i live with my friends and see them all the time and i know for sure they don't experience the same things as me...the same way i never used to experience them either

oh and one more symptom...i keep losing my damn memory and walking to places and then forgetting why...maybe i'm not depressed i'm just going senile with age lol.:biggrin:

has anyone else on this forum been through something similar?? or know someone else who has? please post!:redface:
May I reccommend the book "overcoming depression", Paul Gilbert.

It begins with a huge section on what depression is and then goes on with how to cope. I've personally found it enormously useful as it increased my understanding and thus my ability to deal with it.
Reply 17
Don't be an idiot, and try reading the first post.

I'm depressed, not suicidal. In fact, I like to think I am searching for that "reason to live" everyone else seems to have. An ultimate high, if you will
Congratulations, you're a teenager.
come on people... sure depression can be brought on by the internal penis syndrome caused by teenage hormones, that doesn't make it any less distressing for the individual so don't mock it. XP