Right then, hmm - I don't know where to start to be honest. I guess I'm just pretty down at the moment and wondering why and how I can fix it. I've just become really conscious recently of lots of stuff - what other people think of me being one, I'm conceited and somewhat arrogant you see, and I've been told this and it's really affected me.
Umm, I don't know - I guess I wanna change, and I've been trying really hard but people still treat me the same. I just get this impression from everyone that they don't like being around me, even people I've just encountered don't talk to me or look uncomfortable that I'm there. It's not just this though... I've been thinking too much recently maybe, I've started to wonder what the point in life is and if there is one at all.. and it's led me to having suicidal thoughts, but at the moment I think they're at bay.
I'm just having really weird mood swings - I can go from ecstatically happy to depressed in a matter of an hour, felt like crying for no reason in inappropriate places, and I haven't cried in years... - i.e. in the cafeteria at college... I'll sometimes have to stand up and walk off while I get a grip... I think I might be better if I talked to someone or had someone to talk to, but I don't People don't seem to wanna listen or don't take me seriously, and now I don't feel comfortable talking with anyone about it because I think I'm constantly being judged by them with every word I say. I just don't understand what's up with me lately, or how I can fix it. A sense of inferiority and alienation is overwhelming me. Hmm, well, that's all for now I guess.