Argument with best friend Watch
I've been feeling really low for a long time and my closest friend who I have feelings for and who has feelings for me I discovered was there for me throughout it all. We just had a massive fight we had a fight in the argument and then just now in the evening in which he said to me he can't do this any more and how he hopes I'm happy in the future and that I've played him and all that. We speak through KIK and usually it sends and the messages come up as D but now it's on S meaning that he might have deleted the app. That's the only way I have to communicate to him. I feel so lost and hurt by everything that's happened, I know it's my fault and I've sent him messages apologising, I'm scared he's deleted the app and with that deleted me out of his life. I feel so helpless and because of feeling low from beforehand this is all getting too much. I don't know what to do, I keep looking at my phone hoping the message has been delivered or he's responded but there's nothing. He's going back to university tomorrow and being the closest person to me in my life right now I don't want to lose him and I can't stand things being not right. I don't know what to do please somebody help me, I feel so hurt.
There is the possibility of him deleting the app. what you have to do now is accept that you have no control over this situation at all. You've done everything you can , there's nothing more you can do. You need to try and accept the situation. From then on you can choose happiness, or you can choose sadness. Whats the point in being sad? You may aswell be happy Do things to make yourself happy, whatever makes you happy, do it.
He's my best friend we've been friends for so long and I feel so much guilt because it's my fault, I can't stop crying because I can't deal with arguments with people it really hurts to be so helpless.
The best friendships have arguments! Imagine if you never had an argument with someone in all your life, it would mean you agree on everything which isn't normal. It's a good thing you've had an argument with him , it means you are identifying what you believe in which is good for your development as a person. I know it's hard not feeling in control but maybe he needs time to cool off become calm and collect his thoughts, which I think would be a good thing for you too, I don't think you would have a rational conversation right now or say what you mean. If I were you I'd get a bath and go to bed .
I just don't know if I'm going to ever hear from him again he said to me how I played him and he's not going to put up with it any more and now my messages aren't even going through I can't deal with it I can't do anything but cry and hope he messages me, I feel so pathetic I'm in such a state.