I've always been pretty lazy. I never feel like I've put in 100% in anything I've done, ever. This might be because I'm a perfectionist or I might just be lazy, I'm not sure. I know lots of people and have seen conutless threads on TSR about people putting in hours upon hours of revision and still doing badly despite all their effort. I do revise a bit before exams but I've never been able to stick to a revision timetable or have any sort of structured work plan, ever. I just have no motivation, and I always get nearly full marks in my exams (A2 maths, chemistry and physics).
I always feel guilty about not working hard enough then come out with great results, which just makes me slack off even more. Any coursework or projects I always leave to the last minute and get pretty good marks in them too. I just don't understand how I'm doing so well, and feel incredibly guilty for all the people who slave away revising and are still disappointed whilst I can get the top grades with minimal effort, it seems really unfair. I am NOT complaining or saying that It's unfair on me in any way, I just don't understand why I'm doing so well. I do genuinely enjoy school and learning, and I pick up new stuff really quickly, but when it comes to doing work on my own I just can't make myself if I don't want to. I just have no willpower or motivation, I sit around wasting hours away playing video games and feeling depressed.
I have an offer from Oxford for Chemistry, and I'm terrified that when it comes to university and doing real work that I just won't be able to cope and end up dropping out. I'm either some sort of genius and I've never been pushed to my full potential (very unlikely) or just a very lazy person who is lucky to be gifted at good exam technique (most definitely). It may be that I do do a lot of work and it just doesn't feel like it, or that the work I do manage is very effective, but I just don't feel like I could ever manage a properly self disciplined routine.
TL;DR: I'm lazy and get really good grades. Never been organised or able to work/revise properly, but I enjoy school. Worried about university.
Anyone else out there feel the same/been through the same thing/found a way out of this lethargic mess?
Just to clarify I'm not complaining and saying my life is hard and I want sympathy, I'm just wondering if there is anyone out there who feels the same.