Ok I'm in a real dark place right now. I've seen several therapists and I've had a whole lot of problems such as a little OCD, lots of general anxiety/panic attacks for years.
The thing I cannot seem to get a solution for from 3 therapists is this....I don't know, some blend of perfectionism/OCD when It comes to understanding....anything.
Because of this I literally have lost interest in anything that I am/was good at. I gained 100% and award for some subjects but never took them to university because of this issue.
I'll try to explain it here:
It's basically whatever the 'focus' of my life is, I'm constantly trying to perfect my understanding of it but it's impossible. So for example, I'll become really interested in economics, but then i'll watch the news and not understand something that the news is saaying about economics, or I'll read the financial times and in every article i'll get ridiculously stressed out about not understanding the economics in it. It's ridiculous.
Or let#s take geography, once I got interested in that, I couldn't look out windows or walk around the countryside without stressing about what formed the landscapes, the weather etc etc; same happened when I got interested in psychology- I started analysing people's personalities and trying to link them to psychology theories etc.
I know that sounds stupid, but when I don't understand something it really taps into something, real debilitating worry/anxiety.
Please help! I don't know what to do about this. It's not normal worry
And actually passed?