The title pretty much says it all, I get really strong depression symptoms/signs up to a week before the first day of my period but mainly the day or two before. It's happened on and off for about 3 years now, after having my periods for almost 6, but it's become more frequent (basically every month) in the last year.
It took me a while to notice it and I thought it was just general PMS which I think it might still be but it has gotten worse than what it used to be. I've also started getting bad cramps and extreme tiredness on the first day over the last year so I'm assuming my hormones have started to flare up more.
The feelings I get within the first week include feeling so lonely and like I have nothing to live for plus non-stop crying. I also feeling like a complete failure and as though I've let everyone down and that's not even half of it. Even though I feel lonely I still don't want to be around anyone or any loud noises so I hide away in my room etc, it's like my feelings contradict themselves and I can't stop it.
I know I could never ever commit suicide or do anything to harm myself or my family but I do have thoughts of 'what's the point anymore' and feeling like I'm wasting my time on everything. I wouldn't say I'm actually depressed as the symptoms begin to wear off about half way through my period and are completely gone the week after, it's just a week and a half out of each month that are hell.
I'm not really sure what I'm hoping to gain from posting about this on here but I just wondered if anyone else had experienced the same or similar and knew how to deal with it. I've just managed to calm myself down from a good hours cry and get settled in my bed so I'm hoping by the time I go to sleep/wake up tomorrow I'll feel a little happier
...or just paranoid?