In a nutshell, I'm 19 and I've suffered from acne since I was 12, it was severe for the first 5-6 years until Accutane which cleared it up for a few months, now it's back but a lot more controlled.
I have been bullied to hell and back for the acne and several other things which has destroyed my confidence to this day and I suspect has caused me to develop some sort of skin/body dysmorphia (unless my self perception is accurate!) and I just want to cry when I look in the mirror and avoid going out altogether. I have no social life (I know people can exaggerate but I really don't...).
My issue is the scarring. Granted, I'm not disfigured or something but my skin is very rough and uneven and I have a lot of scars mainly on my cheeks and my skin tone is just old looking... in my eyes I am disgusting. I can't stop thinking about it. I have tried bio-oil, peels and derma rolling as I can't afford anything else. I've also had a light treatment on my back which did nothing.
I am DESPERATE, my face, back, shoulders and arms are covered in scars and I feel so dirty, also because I have a few others image problems which I can't change so I'm even more desperate to change the stuff that is possible.
I can't live my life unless someone helps me with a treatment which gives me a noticeable improvement in my skin, I know other people have it worse but I see things 100x as bad when I see my reflection, and I really don't want to go through life feeling this way.
I wrote to my GP who wouldn't refer me on to the NHS as he said they wouldn't, but I have suffered from depression continuously and have been a mess for the past 4-5 years almost solely because of this.
This was a while ago but I begged them and said more or less what I said here...
I just feel stuck.
Sorry for the length but it's now or never. I'm sick of being a burden.
And actually passed?